Talents.. never really gave good thought to my own talents, honestly. Yes, this entry's in response to Jezz's topic yesterday...
But anyways, on the topic of Talents. That was one helluva long entry yesterday, Jezz.. so wordy... didn't bother reading parts of it.. what with the republishing of one of his friend's replies..
Hmm.. hhaha.. let's see what crap I can cook up today while being half-stoned.. (waking up at 7 is NOT my idea of having a good holiday..) Talents... is more like a gifted thing.. I think. Yea, the gift to do things much better and much more naturally than most others. Come to think of it.. The only talents I have much inclination to is most probably working well under stress and pressure (but then again, who doesn't?), getting a good golf swing (but never playing well with others around), and probably just yelling at my younger brother.
Well, I can't say much about myself.. like what one of my friends would never cease to constantly tell me, "You are your own worst critic" I guess that's rather true. Coz once you start criticising (sp?) yourself.. you get real negative from there.. you think that you're the lousiest thing around.. and all that shit just comes pouring out. My friends had to whack me real hard around my head and yell at me to "get over yourself" all the time.. haha.. Painful, but they told me the naked truth, not stuff I wanted to hear.
But anyways, they tell me I have normal talents. "You can eat, breathe, shit, dance, walk, talk, laugh, see, hear, smell, be happy and all the sort of stuff normal talented people can do" so, what more would i want?
To better myself? While I tend to get envious with those who have the talent to have a sharp inclination to music and know how to play practically any kind of instrument thrown at them, I have to constantly tell myself not to be envious.. coz i'm not them and vice versa.
But it's only the talents that are the special factors that makes us more unique and that makes us the person that we are meant to be. Well, the person that we think we are born to be.
And you know, that'll make me want to desperately stray off topic.. to the matters of like destiny and fate and all that bull crap that I realise most teens my age and younger (mainly the 15-16 year olds) may think. And why am I having the mentality of a 16 year old? Beats me.. but it's rather amusing contemplating such trival matters that mean nothing to the adults out there who think 'rationally', 'maturely', 'practically' and 'logically'.
And I think I'll stray off topic from now on... haha.. that's just one stupid habit I simply cannot kill. "Old habits die hard." I love sticking to that old but valid excuse. Coz it's just me. haha..
Alright, back to the topic of talent. I feel that talents are being born into you. More like into your genes. Ever realise how talented musicians are usually giving birth to talented kids too? And business men have kids who are math whizzes? I mean, yeah sure... there'll be setbacks in some of the kids. [They're just plain hating what their parents are doing and do the exact opposite stuff their entire family puts their passions into..]
Or how some kids just don't get how the math equations go about, or how some kids just don't know what the difference between "Do" "re" and "mi"? It's rather more like in the genes I think. Like how some people are talented enough to do tongue-rolling and how some just can't. Discontinous Variation, that's what many who study biology call it. I call it the definition of your talents. What your parents have, you'll have it too. Just based on whether those talents can be unlocked.. that's really up to the brain's influx to handle.
And how do you actually cope with the talents that you've unknowingly unlocked? Well, that all really depends on your characteristic, really. Like along the lines of what Jezz says, you'll just have to acknowledge that talent and exploit it to your own advantage and not let it be wasted away. It'll be a real pity to see a math whizz go down the drain by not using his intelligence and knack of mathematical knowledge to solve codes or even come up with amazing new ones.
Then again, how we cope and use our talents, is a matter of maturity, I think. If we know how to exploit it the right way, we gain ourselves recognition and benefits that we want. (But we all know, along with good things, always comes the bad)
Anyway, how you use your talent, it's really up to you to decide. To use it? or to destroy it?
Like they say... "All good things MUST come to an end." So, if your talent is good in anyway, use it. coz it'll just come to an end some day.
And on to my own contemplations of destiny and fate. Actually, there's not much to talk about it.. only because I've been through all these contemplations soooo many times, I'm getting rather sick and tired of repeating the same confusing lines to myself over and over again. =P I just don't make much sense to myself alot of times.
I think it's fate that I meet so many people. The good, bad, and the ugly. Somehow, within all these three catagories, I think that the 'good' wind up being the evil ones most of the time. The 'good' in my case, are the pretty people. The one with all the looks, all the money, all the brains.. really much like the "Miss Perfect" or "Mr Perfect" to many of us naive little girls and boys. I mean, you'd envy those 'good' friends of mine. They started out like any one of us.. Humble, outgoing, friendly.. then, you see them through the many years of school.. you find that you just drift away from them, just coz you're of a different social standing now. Once in a while, you say hi, and they'd give you scornful looks. Typical case of the "Popularity" group of losers who are too spoilt, right? Only when they're kicked out of the circle of popularity, then they come running back to you, only to find solace. It's a tough world out there, you would snap at them.. *shrugs* but why are they the evil ones.. like I just pointed out?
Well, only coz when you both step out into reality, do they really kick you aside, and say "It's a tough world like what you said, I'm me, you're you. We're not in kindergarden any longer, so take a hike, loser. And watch me walk up this golden ladder specially made for me!" Yep, like what my parents would tell me all the time. "Girl ah, heck the friends, you're doing things to benefit yourself, not your friends." Hell, I know that. Heaven, give me a break! But that doesn't mean I have to kick my friends who have stood by my ravings and ramblings for so long aside!
I try not to be like the 'good' type of person... but sometimes, when you really dislike someone else, such tactics might be deployable. I don't make that a habit though.
The 'bad' and the 'ugly' are actually one of the best people you could ever be friends with. They kick your asses awake and have the hearts of gold that you can hardly find in the 'good' people. 'Bad' people are like the hooligans, the whores, the baddies... the naughty ones in school. When you get onto their better side and learn how to understand these 'poor lost souls' --as how many would call them-- you actually feel that they're not so bad after all. They're really just the real people facing the real and harshest reality they make it out to be. But, when you get the sentimental side of them, oh man... you just wanna give them big hugs and be their best buddies and you'd be smiling from ear to ear when they break into their rare genuine smiles when they grin at you.
The 'ugly'... ever watch "Shallow Hal"? yeah, that's how fat and ugly people are. They're actually very nice, kind people. Coz they know what's it like to be jeered at and sneered at all the time. They keep it in mind to help the others around them. It's hard to be one of the 'uglies', coz people just stare and stare and stare outside a 10-metre radius from you. And mothers won't allow their kids near you coz they'd think that you'd pass some hideous looks on to their kids. It's really very heartbreaking to watch others shun the 'uglies' like that.
They can't help being born that way. Hell, some of them weren't like that at all... they were being disfigured by an accident and managed to survive but became utterly 'hideous'... but when you get to know them, let me tell you, you'll learn how to appreciate life and have your point of view on the term 'beauty' take you on a roller coaster turn around. They're just like the perfect human inside, unfortunately not out. But like what I've heard many say "Beauty comes from within, not out." how i agree on that...
posted by anj @ 22:11
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