I have some things to say...
okay, maybe not much..Today's microbioA exam was okay. I think I will pass, but with moderations, I doubt I'll get a B.. :(
I must work harder. Must aim for my A's.
Anyway, I was feeling more of depressed than tired today. I don't know. It's just a tidal wave of depression coming down on me.
Perhaps Gary was right, I will end up like him some day. I shall fight this depression alone. Why am I feeling so depressed anyway? hmmm.... must be my upcoming birthday that's making me this way.
It's a love-hate thing when it comes to my birthday. I look forward to it, coz the passing of another birthday would mean I would be a year older, a year closer to death. (i actually look forward to dying)--> don't ask me why, i just do.
But I'd get depressed coz well, I don't know. I just do. Maybe for the fact that I don't get to celebrate my birthday with everyone like how other kids do have parties and the like. It's only until the last two years, that I received birthday presents from my best friends.
In any case, after exam, WeiPing told us that we won't need to come for de-yolking unless she calls us from now on (or we ask if we need to turn up) coz of some complications. =( I don't get to kill those cute little embryos. (I've changed my mind about killing those eggs, call me heartless. i think i've been numbed)
Bah, I don't know. I feel myself changing, avoiding everyone and everything. I ignored my cat when I got home just now. She jumped up onto my lap just now, demanding some attention. That spoilt brat.
Having mint ice cream with chocolate chips and a glass of bailey's for lunch. it's good. really good. *smiles*
Oh yeah, I don't think I will give that dinner treat after all. Doubt I will have enough money, and besides, "everyone would be busy studying for the final exams" Yup. I think I will splurge while out with Junie, yeah? :) can practically see Junius smiling away already, thanking the gods for his luck. Don't have to pay so much already.. hahas.. I'll pay 3/4 of the dinner. you pay the remaining 25%.. k?
Amanda beat me up today, and so did Ally again.. Why am I constantly being beaten up for no reason?
I was merely stating the facts leh, lyns.. That badge of yours was sooo pointing at your own head, "STUPID" signage so big some more.. Then you were standing on my right. :D Anyone who stands on my right from now on, will be an Idiot. Coz my badge would point to you, and it says "I'm with this idiot!" bwaahahas.. so you can imagine, Lyns calling herself "Stupid" indirectly by letting her badge point to her head, and my badge was just egging her statement on. *grins* It's a fact. Man, stuff that goes on in my everyday life can be so amusing at times.
Ally was beating me up, coz.. um.. yeah, she walked on my right.
Hey now, it's not my fault that you walked on my right.. Your legs, not mine! =P (same goes to everyone else who ends up walking on my right.) Hmm, I really ought to put that "I'm being surrounded by idiots like you" badge if this goes on. Everyone's being so silly.
I said something to make amanda hit me really hard on my right arm today. I bruise kinda easily, lyns didn't really know it, but she hit me really hard anyway. It hurts.. Actually, it still does. :S But it's not so bad now compared to earlier on..
Anyway, I didn't feel like talking much today. Just wanna go sleep for a while, then stone to my heart's content and study lots of maths and french..
I shall start on my golfing soon. Preferably next friday after class. Call gary, get him to take like $50 from dad, and we go Orchid or Phua's to train for about 3 or 4 hours.. he can drive! :) so we can go out after that if possible..
Ughs.
I think I'll go study now.
I hate all this shit. :(
posted by anj @ 15:18
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