oh, like whatever....
*does the rolly eye thingy*Mood: =P
Biochem today pretty much sucked a whole lot..
I didn't know SOOOO many things even EXISTED in this little world...
like, what the HECK is chemiosis? pfffft.
I have lots to study for now...
feels like N's again. Lovely. Oh-so-lovely.... *sighs*
Just that what I'm studying now has absolutely no relevance to my N's...
This just sucks a whole lot. I miss geography! >__<
nevermind, I'll have Taman Negara to sustain me with that.
On top of that, I'll be heading down to Aceh, Indonesia...
for a joint polytechnic reconstruction project. READ: PROJECT.
NOT community service, junie. IT'S A PROJECT.
See, junie thinks all things to do with work without pay = community service.
That i'd agree on.. but why does he always have to pop my little bubble of glorification of the term: Project?
sheesh...
such an anti-climax, that fella...
Anyhoots..
Peisuan and Elicia are probably waiting for me while I type this out at my own sweet expense of time..
Which reminds me, I have dance tonight.. I hope I don't make a fool out of myself again.. I can't exactly bend or turn. My back sprain came back and it's killing me..
I'm eating my vegan noodles and vegan food while typing this. Listening to Ryan Cabrera croon over my perfect sound system... and thinking of what to study for microbiology later...
I'm gonna be a life sciences facilitator.. just for extra cash purposes.. and practicing more on the practicals for preparation for my future R&D modules..
If the pay's better than that of the bistro's.. I'm gonna quit like in a month's time (that's what I said 3 weeks ago)... and run my t-shirt biz with rica and debra, or with gins. it'll be cool..doing up our own designs to sell out to other people..
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I feel that I'm changing...
I don't know if it's in subtle ways or not, perhaps so...
I'm becoming more anti-social nowadays. I hardly talk to anyone online anymore.
save for the usual 6...
that'll be debra, marcus, peisuan and um... amanda.. and.. well, that's just really it.. not even 6 of them..
How I have grown to change into this manner, I have no idea..
I just isolate myself from everyone nowadays.. not that I want to...
I just don't feel the need to talk to people.... hehs. i'm starting to become like some punkish teen.. *shrugs*
This is probably just a phase that's gonna last a few years, that's all I know.
Maybe the whole "i'm not gonna be a nice person" thing will stay on a permanent fix on me, I'm not sure....
This whole identity crisis thing is slowly ebbing me away into oblivion, I'm telling you.. I have no idea why I snap at junius for, for the past few weeks. I have no idea why I'm starting to feel that so many people want nothing to do with me, yet some want everything to do with me..
I have no idea what shit is going on now.. I think that's when I start doing what I really know how to do best about when such things happen.
I don't bother about it, but I just hang on this roller-coaster wild ride and when it's over, we'll see how many of my friends stay with me, and how many more vacancies to be filled up with new people...
Or would I need more extensions at the back? =/
well, that said.. I haven't got a clue what to do with my life next...
Peisuan and I were talking about our goals in life.. the careers each want to lead..
she has an important goal to achieve.. while I... I've found my goal in life, I'm living it as we speak. I live it out every single day. There's nothing more in this world that could make me not want this life.
I don't have a specific career that I want. I want to be so many things, I simply didn't know what to decide on.. but for the fact that I chose to specialise in a really big but yet, still unknown field of science.. I have lots of goals to make in this coming future...
People have been talking.. that judgement day will be soon, blah blah blah...
perhaps it'll come soon. and when the day comes, I'll be happy that it's here.. we all should.. I now know I'll lead a nice peaceful life after death, I have no fear in dying now. I just don't wish for a frightful death. lol...
okay okay...
I think that's just enough rubbish for the moment. yeaps..
you guys, hang on in there...
while I figure out what the hell's going wrong with me..
I hate to be this confused with myself..
Toodles! ;)
posted by anj @ 12:13
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