odd. just odd...
today felt different. just oddly different.i can't really place a finger or a hand or a foot or a whole baby or terra on it...
but it just felt different.
school was boring. as usual.
i mean, what's there to do other than visually 'raping' the zebrafishes in a totally unperverted, entirely scientific way?
well.. of course there's the feeding, the washing of tanks, the screening for dead eggs...
blah blah blah.
wotever.
still; boring.
so anyway, manda called.
"meet me direct in town can? I wanna go shopping!!!!"
"yea, okay"
"how about i meet you in bishan? i'll board the train there"
"yea, okay"
"okay!"
in any case, i got that girl to eat after she perpeptually starved herself for 3 days or so...
it was junk food, but at least it's still food nonetheless.
she bought a whole lot of stuff from M.A.C. this cosmetics shop..
the lady serving us had such fake lashes, i nearly laughed at it. people went for the NATURAL ones, her's are like.. i don't know.. hilariously fake.
so yea...
after i sent manda off, called debra.
surprise surprise! she's in town... celebrating liyi's 20th...
bigger surprise.. rica was there.
but like i said, it felt so oddly different today.
perhaps because i haven't seen them in so long...
but i just felt like a stranger around them. not welcomed and stuff..
i know they felt bad about it, who wouldn't when you're treating a best friend that way?
my bad though. i crashed in on their bash w/o prior notice.
so i guess i sorta deserved it. *shrugs*
updates on those two friends of mine.. (deb and rica, mainly speaking)
they're studying to become actresses. hmmm... well, they've improved on the way the walk and talk and what not..
makes them look more refined in a way i guess...
prolly that's where i felt left out.
there WAS once when i walked and talked the way they do.
but pfffft.
girls in those convents just couldn't accept the way i brought about myself.
what to do?
can't beat 'em, join 'em.
that wasn't always my form of motto.
it used to be:
can't beat 'em, beat 'em somemore and force them to join ya.
it did work for awhile.
but in poly, that isn't the case and i took to retreating to my own comfort zone, whatever it was.
ahh.. i don't know.
i hate the indifference i faced today. for it came from two of whom i thought were my best friends... it stabbed me a little more.
only for an hour or so perhaps, i was mulling on my own pathetic misery.
but then...
well.
let's just say i took the whole indifference, and made it my own.
my own little indifference.
only then, it felt a little easier to breathe around human kind.
sheesh.
argh.
anyway, manda told me her bro's fiancee gave birth to their triplets..
2 boys, 1 girl.
i insist that one of them has their name starting with "a".
arnold, aaron, alyssa.. alenor.. whatever.
but to lionel, congrats dude.. you're a daddy to 3 lil' tykes who're gonna end up looking like mini ken's and barbie.
*grin*
right.
i do realise i've been typing nothing but tosh all night.
hope you had fun reading.
i didn't. =)
posted by anj @ 00:22
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