what a day....
Junie cancelled on me last night, I kinda expected that, so I guess that's really quite okay...Monday's outing is also cancelled coz everyone can't make it on time somehow, so yeah, there goes the TNgang outing.. but it's okay, we'll just postpone it to another day when everyone's days are less packed.
Today, Ian and I went to PeiSuan's baptism at the Bethesda (Frankel Estate) Church. It started at about 10am. ended an hour and a half later.
Being in a church brings back many MANY memories, some wanted, some unwanted.
It brought my mood to an all time low. I didn't feel like staying in the church when the whole sermon session was over, but for the sake of Tim and Peisuan, I stayed back a little while to give them my congratulations for their baptism..
In any case, I told them both I had lunch waiting for me at home (yummy char siew rice) and Ian and I made our moves out of the church and back to the train station.
Ian went off in bus 854, I took the train home.
I was kinda in a daze on the way home. Thinking of the times in secondary school..
About Jan, about how history keeps repeating itself everywhere I go, so much so I'm rather numb to it already. About how my joys and sadness were shedded there to make me who I am today.
I can say I'm an IJ-girl inside out. lol. not many guys can tolerates us IJ-girls, seriously. and I'm happy about that, truth be told. I'd rather them males stay FAR FAR away from me. All males are big-time jerks. Somehow or another, they're jerks. and will stay jerks for all time. (yes, i'm saying my dad can be a jerk too)
Anyway, save the melodrama for later.. or maybe never.
Now that I'm home and alone, time for me to spend my own alone time. Away from the social life of mine.
sometimes, I just hate socialising with people. they don't understand me at all. I think, the day when I find the people who do understand me really and truely, it'll be the day when I find my resting place. (meaning, never ever finding anyone who really understands)
haha.
whatever.
time to study! ;)
Toodles! ;)
angeline
posted by anj @ 13:29
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