don't know, don't care, don't wanna bother..
gary's pissed at mom and dad, i'm pissed at mom, and mom's pissed at me.
whahahahha....
we're allllll angry at each other, why?
i'll tell you why.
i haven't had a good night's rest in about 4 days.
FOUR DAYS. and mom knows that, and she NAGS at me about it, but FORCES me ass out of bed EVERY damn morning at 8am.
dammit.
can't a girl get some sleep-in in the mornings?
now i walk around looking like a goth.
black eyebags, and once i add on the damned eyeliner, I look like a zombie, 2000% spot on.
gary's pissed at our parents coz they've been nagging at him about the psp case.
no we didn't steal any psp's, just so you know.
we merely got a good lobang to get the psp at like $300 a set (if we buy it individually), $290 a set (if we buy 2 at the same time, i want to haggle it down for $270!!) and $255 a set (if we buy 10 at the same time).
so our parents have been nagging at the both of us to just get 2 sets and that's it, if not, if anything goes wrong, we're to die for.
argh.
i just wished they'd just STOP repeating themselves 500000 times over (okay, i know it's exaggarating, but you get waddamean) and just leave us be.
if we could, we'd have bought it for that one set for $300 and left it, but we don't have the money. d'uh.
other people also no money, so we buy together and then all can afford.
BUT..... then hor, xiuwen came up to me this morning, "angeline, are those psp's you were talking about... could they be those stolen goods from that recent case in AMK?"
dammit.
if it is, then i might as well forget about the entire venture lah.. no point trying to figure out who's interested, then we all pool money to buy the goods, just to be wrongfully arrested for being accomplices to a crime we didn't know of and never participated in willingly with our knowledge.
makes sense, right?
blah, i'm going out now lah.. meeting debra in a while. All i wanna do is to just go grab some 40 winks. i'm running on a sugar high and i...
i just hate it.
toodles.
boring.
waiting for donny to come up.. that's the name of my supervisor, btw..
she said she'll be up here at 1030hrs...
it's 1022...
boring.
i hate having waiting time..... it's absolutely boring.
blah.
anyway, will be getting tickets to "Burn the floor" later from shawn.. whahahhahaha....! so happy!
deb and rica and deb's parents will be going along with me!
not sure if val's coming, but if she is, that'll be great!
haven't seen that girl in the LONGEST time ever...! =)
hmm anyway, today's gonna be pretty much boring... thank god i brought jasrie's anime to watch. i borrowed "Fullmetal Alchemist" from him...
57 episodes. shiok. I hope I have enough time to watch it over the weekend.
WHAHAHAHH!!!
this is great! =) Debra managed to get into NAFA...
i hope she'll do well this time round.. Make us proud debbie! we love you!
k lah, imma outta here..
cheerios peeps!
Many times i wonder what my life is really all about...
and for that flicker of a moment, I find my life's greatest question answered; (here it comes!) only to have it forgotten a split second after that.
=(
it's like the work of life that is governed by some necessity that doesn't give me the previledge to comprehend my answer in life, and let me retain it for just that quite short bit of time.
Possibly, knowing that I wouldn't have anything else to live for once I know the answer of life, I would find things dull, my brain switches off...
and for the next 2 seconds to 10 minutes to 2 hours, I spend my time spaced out.
weird shit happens like that, no?
anyway, I came across this gay blog... really gay through and through... i'm sure my two besties would love reading it. especially debra.. haha..
in any case, if you're interested: click
this.
right, today was utter madness.
ran from hougang to clementi, into NUS only to be stopped short; puzzled actually, at the lack of the usual buzz of aunties in NUS.
Thank goodness ChinHeng came around 5 minutes later, but I found the aunties all of a sudden, behind the glass windows, feeding fishes. -_-||
Today's haul is good. Lots and lots of eggs.. Supervisor text-messaged me to tell me
"all the embryos have died." I positively freaked out at that.
ALL?!?!? How can ALL have died?I've euthenized
PLENTY of fishes, trust me on that.. either they were for experimental purposes or be it that they were simply just too old to carry on... I'm pretty much numbed out when I see dead fish floating in the waters.
But to have an entire BATCH of fresh embryos that we just got the day before, less than 24 hours, mind, to be DEAD.... that upset me quite the bit. I was in a bit of shock coz chris and I took extra care and effort in preparing that 5th batch for experiments.
All through the ride back to school, my mind was just whirling around; trying to trouble shoot the problem.
It took us till the end of the day to figure it out -
the damned antibiotics.Tomorrow, I will not prepare the samples with the antibiotics. and we'll have to do 4 sets instead of one due to our magnificant screw up.
The one damn line that has been stuck to my mind for the past 3 days has been:
"I have deadlines to meet. DEADLINES I TELL YOU!!! SIX EXPERIMENTS BY END OF NEXT WEEK!!!"and what have we got so far?
NOTHING!!!am i positively freaking out by now?
YES! D'UH!uh, bother.
I feel rather tethered about this whole situation, and oddly while at it, I feel strangely emancipated.
weird, tell me about it!
it's during those times, I get that "Eureka! i found the answer!"; the whole life's question answered...
and then poof!
and i sit there stoning for a few seconds before kicking myself in the ass for lazing for those few seconds.
On another matter altogether: chris, next time don't ask why i work myself so hard on this project... we both know I want that grade, and you want it too. On top of that, the usual "if we get this done, our resumes
WILL look good".
But more than anything, I have this agenda with myself on setting my sights on getting this damn project done, whether I like it or not. If i'm going to want results, I'm going all out to get it, even if it means spending my ENTIRE evening in that damn lab.
(side track: dammit, forget to get xiuwen to charge the camera for me)
argh. I have spent my ENTIRE evening wrecking my brains over zebrafish, thought about my zebrafish, and can't think of anything else besides why my zebrafish died, and the idiocy of letting them die the way they did, thinking through again and again that the cause of their death was entirely optional and that if i'd paid more attention to my work and thought it through a little bit more, all this dying wouldn't have happened. and i'd have RESULTS by now.
dammit dammit dammit.
So on top of all that other work I have to do tomorrow morning, I have to REDO the entire compound set!?!?!?!?!?
fucking cb, nabei, kanina, pua peh. na hia. @#$(U#@(IR!O#@$(R{)SKDF#$U(_#*@$_E)!(#@
blooody hell.
pardon me if you can't take the swearing..
but fucking SHIATE!
AGAIN!?!?!?
i swear i'm gonna perfect the art of handling compounds using micropipettes by the end of this.
oh hell.
I can't wait to get to uncle henry's.
much awaited... oh, hello~!
oh hello there!
this
must be our pretty much awaited entry hurh?
*smirk*this has got to be one of the times i haven't blogged in so long!
anyway, i've been sick for the past few days..
so i haven't been online for much.. not that i miss blogging or coming online really...
there's nothing much to do if i'm not searching for new anime to watch.
I'm devouring them down like how i read books.. =/
INTERESTING books, not textbooks and what not...
so, how has everyone been?
good?
=) that's good..
uhmmm.... well, a piece of news to share with you guys before i run off to go do more work...
This is my thousandth entry on the blog! =)
well, this isn't really the way i'd celebrate on getting over that 'thousandth post' thing.. but i thought, blogging what i usually blog about is what my blog's about...
there really isn't much to read in my blog besides the usual happenings around in school, at home, out with my buddies..
anyway, to my blog:
happy thousandth entry!
heh.
Well, since i'm in school... might as well...
school's been boring.. hectic only for a few minutes before i get long breaks like these doing nothing.
at times like this, I love my laptop so SO much. =)
it kills my boredom ever so readily!
heh.. actually i DO have lots of work to do right now... (yes, i'm getting on to it, i'm getting!)
so i think i'll just end this really mundane 1000th entry and buzzzzzz off..
=)
toodles!
today was good.. very good...
i'm tired..
and sorta tipsy and drunk..
and my cat's been sniffing at my chlorinated feet for the past 10 minutes, chewing on them.
stupid cat.
was getting high on beer the entire evening with my two best friends and sharon...
ahh... how it is to have sharon around!
that girl's got her bike license!!!
like WHHHAAAAAH!! i oso want leh...
i think carrying around my own helmet seems so totally cool, but at the same time, it's quite a hassle.
i'll stick to my plan of getting my car license and my car...
which i've decided.. a toyota i.s.t.
*drools*let me show you ah...
it looks even better real life.
goodness.. it's like the CUTEST car i've ever seen! =)
arghhh! k lah.. imma outta here..
totally pooped out.
odd. just odd...
today felt different. just oddly different.
i can't really place a finger or a hand or a foot or a whole baby or terra on it...
but it just felt different.
school was boring. as usual.
i mean, what's there to do other than visually 'raping' the zebrafishes in a totally unperverted, entirely scientific way?
well.. of course there's the feeding, the washing of tanks, the screening for dead eggs...
blah blah blah.
wotever.
still; boring.
so anyway, manda called.
"meet me direct in town can? I wanna go shopping!!!!"
"yea, okay"
"how about i meet you in bishan? i'll board the train there"
"yea, okay"
"okay!"
in any case, i got that girl to eat after she perpeptually starved herself for 3 days or so...
it was junk food, but at least it's still food nonetheless.
she bought a whole lot of stuff from M.A.C. this cosmetics shop..
the lady serving us had such fake lashes, i nearly laughed at it. people went for the NATURAL ones, her's are like.. i don't know.. hilariously fake.
so yea...
after i sent manda off, called debra.
surprise surprise! she's in town... celebrating liyi's 20th...
bigger surprise.. rica was there.
but like i said, it felt so oddly different today.
perhaps because i haven't seen them in so long...
but i just felt like a stranger around them. not welcomed and stuff..
i know they felt bad about it, who wouldn't when you're treating a best friend that way?
my bad though. i crashed in on their bash w/o prior notice.
so i guess i sorta deserved it.
*shrugs*updates on those two friends of mine.. (deb and rica, mainly speaking)
they're studying to become actresses. hmmm... well, they've improved on the way the walk and talk and what not..
makes them look more refined in a way i guess...
prolly that's where i felt left out.
there WAS once when i walked and talked the way they do.
but pfffft.
girls in those convents just couldn't accept the way i brought about myself.
what to do?
can't beat 'em, join 'em.
that wasn't always my form of motto.
it used to be:
can't beat 'em, beat 'em somemore and force them to join ya.
it did work for awhile.
but in poly, that isn't the case and i took to retreating to my own comfort zone, whatever it was.
ahh.. i don't know.
i hate the indifference i faced today. for it came from two of whom i thought were my best friends... it stabbed me a little more.
only for an hour or so perhaps, i was mulling on my own pathetic misery.
but then...
well.
let's just say i took the whole indifference, and made it my own.
my own little indifference.
only then, it felt a little easier to breathe around human kind.
sheesh.
argh.
anyway, manda told me her bro's fiancee gave birth to their triplets..
2 boys, 1 girl.
i insist that one of them has their name starting with "a".
arnold, aaron, alyssa.. alenor.. whatever.
but to lionel, congrats dude.. you're a daddy to 3 lil' tykes who're gonna end up looking like mini ken's and barbie.
*grin*right.
i do realise i've been typing nothing but tosh all night.
hope you had fun reading.
i didn't. =)
memory lag?
my cd's are way overdue...
tmr going to return the cds to the library
sheesh.
was looking thru all the old pictures in deb's blog.. whahahs..
how much we've all changed..
anyway, saturday will be a busy day...
filled with like, workshop.. and russ's birthday bbq....
meeting up with deb and rica tmr!! yaaay!!!
it's been soooooo long since i've seen them...
nearly a month. aunt jean and uncle philip are definitely gonna nag and bombard me with questions of my missing presence...
haha.. but i don't mind it one bit... it reminds me that i've been missed! =D
so anyway, um.. right...
sheesh..
my mp3's destroyed...
my laptop's dead..
my pda's dead again..
my mobile is somewhere...
oh i don't know..
i might have a sms on my phone at the moment..
maybe it's from dad..
he's in china now...
yaay!
k lah, imma outta here..
toodles!
messed up
slept at 3am last night, woke up at 7.30 looking like someone gave me not one..
but TWO black eyes. =/
anyway, life's abit messed up coz i've been watching a tad bit too much anime lately... hee hee..
will go bank in that $20 i've been saving.. yeah, $20 only! i still have 100 sets of that $20 to go before i hit $2000...
1000 sets of $20 will get me $20,000...
hmmm easy. i hope!
assuming i get $50 a week, i could cut down that thousand sets by half, which gives me 500 sets of $40... whahahhs...
yes, angeline knows how to survive with $10 a week. angeline is a smart girl in that sense!
hmmmm i'm missing felix's blur presense... he's been in china toooo damn long!
i forgot when he's returning back leh.. ah hahhaha... =P
anyway, to keep myself occupied..
i've decided i want to save up (for real this time) to purchase these wonderful items that would prolly end up being white elephants in my room somehow... eh heh heh..
*weak grin*
1) my very own psp
2) my own alienware
it'll be the 15" or 17" area-51 m5500 or m5700.
3) my bag...s..
either this...
or this...
and i will get something like this
and this
4) specs
(i can't find the one i want... so yeah..)
actually i think that's all for the moment lah...
anything else i buy would prolly make me broke for the next 4 years...
whahahs...
big spender big spender...
k i'm outta here...
gonna re-watch mai otome alllll over again!
=) won't have to re-watch mai hime for now coz jasrie's burning it down for meeee!
whahahahs...
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