ZERO.....
i am now
TWO HUNDRED POSTS old on THIS blog!!!
Anyway, today, last day of orientation... oi, rica, where on earth is that comment?? don't see it anywhere....
Besides that... hahahhaa.... hmm... went to get those tickets for the IJ fest for saturday.. saw michelle.. she lost
soooo much weight ah...
sis, EAT MORE!!!! >__<
you wanted to know what's in the letter right? I'll tell ya when you get on MSN or something.. I don't wanna just blare it out like that.. hahaa...
Hmm... went to Takashimaya for lunch with debra just now. We went to Mos Burger's... Met YanFen there.. she's changed loads, that's cool.. she's going to ITEclementi to do Administrative Office work.
there's nothing much to type in today... I got a letter from Charmaine.. and then a hell load of stuff I still need a little bit more time to digest.. had a long chat with jezzie kor... hahaha... more stuff to digest.. and along with today's e-learning stuff.. i have even
MORE stuff to digest!
hmm... anyways, orientation today was boring.. met the professor mentor. His name's Jay Kaelash. he's damn fierce you know? so frigging fierce! heh.. dunno whether to like that or not... and well... e-learning was rather informative.. I wanna see if i can go get my individual timetable yet not..
Anyway, it's so boring today... like, okay lah... didn't do anything much anyways. so can't complain much. I'm just having lots on my mind now....
ONE.....
more post... till it hits the big 2-0-0!!! :D
Orientation was such a blast today..
Although I was
really disappointed that only
16 people in my class were left behind.. the other 10 were missing... it was so pathetic, but we managed to get by..
I've nearly lost all my voice now.. oh well.. hahaha...
Leon was a good emcee throughout this orientation.. which is cool, it's good.. haha..
he kept the crowd lively and all that, really, it's all thanks to him! oh, that fella's got
Dutch blood in him and he's got
FIVE names excluding his last name.. he beat haydern's! well, haydern wanted one other name, but obviously I can't say it here... hahaha..
hmm... i smell paint at the moment. yeah, they're repainting my block. It stinks man... >__< drives me insane.. giving me headaches..
Okay, I really have
NOTHING to do online, for once. Besides all this blogging to do, that is. I think
my class will stick together and strive to be the best in the MB'04 co-hort..
We HAVE to anyway. We can't just let 0402 just get away with it like that!
*huffs* not after WE won the treasure hunt,
AND the telematches!!! =(
*shrugs* oh well.. I'll get someone to bring a digicam to school when school starts.. and we'll take pictures, so that I can post it up here. I think that'll be cool... ;)
And if they're all cool enough, we can have a
class blog, AND a class website.. whoa, way cool? ;)
My OGLs, Melvin and Noraisha (aisha for short) they're both really laid-back coolios-worthy people.. Melvin's so much like Daryl, I guess.. hahaha.. Daryl's my cousin, btw.. and aisha... aisha's just plain cute... ;P they're nice, cool OGLs!!!
Hmm.. tomorrow I'll get to meet my personal mentor. Hope I get a really good caring one.. whaha... I hope it's Lionel Lau. He's really cool.. but he's the Discipline Master for my batch. oh well, I just pray I get one that cares for my class lots...
Oh, I think I'll be great friends with that indian guy in my class... Kumaran, yuppo.. that's his name. And ee ren, he's from Montfort. And I'll be least friendly with.. hmm.. dunno... hahaha.. maybe nadia..
*shrugs* i dunno.. perhaps xiao hui or yumei.. depends really.
Anyway, I'm off...
I neeeeeed rest. have another day tomorrow. okay, toodles for now..
Two......
you know, it's not everyday that I would tell you about my boyfriend.. haha... well, you'd think it's rather gross to hear about me babbling all the mushy stuff about him. (like, D'uH!!) heh..
ANYWAY...
today, I shall tell you about what haydern's like to me.... well, I'll just cut all the mushy stuff out as much as possible...
He's just
THAT one-of-a-kind person. You know, the one who could make your heart melt by just doing something so simple as buying candy for the little kid who accidentally let go of his balloon? yeah, he's like that...
And he's the kind who would just be like this little puppy... whenever he does something nice for anyone, he'd rush to tell me about it, and obviously that makes me so proud of and happy for him, and I'd praise him for his great job done.. and he'd be like that little excitable puppy barking away happily! hahaha..I just find that so adorable and cute.. =)
Every morning, previously, that is...
he would send me a poem through text messaging to my mobile.. it'll always be something sweet and wonderful. I'm amazed by how he does it, coz he's never done poetry before.. (he used to find it a total bore) and he could just whip up poem after poem just for me! his first poem to me was only about 8-10 lines.. and it took him over an hour to conjure that up! hahaha... I found that really very sweet of him to do that! ^__^
Every night, (also previously)
he'd stay up till it was midnight, singapore time, just to chat with me.. it'll be around 2 or 3 in the morning, depending on the season.. While I constantly nag at him not to do that and to get more sleep, he still stays up to chat with me every single night..! pray tell, isn't that the most greatest thing ever? haha.. to have him as my boyfriend who would sacriface his sleep for me.. i mean, that's rather bad.. but i always go
"awwwwwwwww......." just thinking about those lil' gestures that he does just for me all the time..
heh heh heh....
but, well... he's been such a difficult person lately.. can't seem to even get to him...
nevermind, i shall... perservere!!!
*determined look*
Anyway, school was rather unexpected today...
I thought orientation would be something so plain and dumb..and that I'd have some really
unenthusiastic spastic idiots for classmates. When I got there, I
REALLY REALLY thought I'd have those sort of classmates, coz they really looked so dull and out of life... but heh... after introducing ourselves, those little devil horns started poking out.. ;) whahah! i shouldn't have been fooled by their quiet exteriors...
*shrugs* oh well...
The other classes, they were like.. acting like they were too cool to do anything. Seriously, that sucks the fun out of it.. but well, it's better than to have those that
DELIBERATELY tried too hard to have fun..
We won the treasure hunt! Honestly, honestly! I think we're the
FITTEST class ever! We could run sooo fast, solve our clues even faster, and found all the little puzzle pieces faster than ever! really, we're the fittest class! I mean, sure, we don't have the greatest looking of people... but well, I do hope my class is the best that they've got there... =) really, I hope my class excells in everything that we do.. it'll be so great!
Oh, I'm going to take up French as a course module elective.. it'll be 60 hours.. they had only french, german, japanese and business mandarin.. but yuck, not gonna take jap and chinese again... i ran away from Junior college just not to do those two subjects..!
Hmm..what else is there? yeah, my classmates are rather okay to me.. they're all cheerful..they're all so jovial and all.. haha.. not too bad.. =)
and umm... oooh.. hahaha... the other girls and I planned to do this "go to the campus pool" thingy whenever we're free... heehee... =) get a reason to go swimming lah.. hurhurhur... now i can get a tan... hopefully!
Well, I gotta go... my mom's frigging nagging at me... to go sleep now..
toodles...
Three.....
more posts to go......
I just got home from the mall... (i dragged my mom with me, so it's okay that I went shopping even though I'm grounded.)
I haven't got the heart to tell her that Haydern's down with that brent's sickle cell anaemia..it's brent's right? if it's not, then I must've misread it. Anyway, it's beta-thalassaemia major that he's got. I'm sure all of you know that by now, but for the benefits of the newer readers, thanks for bearing with all that..
I haven't had the heart to tell her about his condition coz she'll probably start worrying.. about me. not him. Honestly, she said she couldn't be really bothered with what goes on with my love life. Although the boys i date have to be decently dressed, no crazy stuff and all that. (she means she wants a momma's boy) Her best friend's daughter though, is the reason why she'd worry about me. It's all because of that stupid bitch! ugh.. making things difficult for me. Not that I have any connections with her, except that HER boyfriend's 2 times older than her and HE's sick with chronic asthma... he's weak as hell and guess what? he's her teacher... jeez... you just heard the "fairytale" romance of the "teacher-student" love relationship. That stupid girl, she yelled at her own mother in front of her useless boyfriend (he makes her work for the money even though he's a professor) and even disowned her own family. She took a flight over to china to start a life there. end story.
My case.. is so much similar to her's such that my boyfriend's sick with sickle cell anaemia and he's all the way in sydney. If I even so much as tell my mom about his condition, can you imagine how she'd freak and ban me from dating him?
"he's a sick fella, why stay with him?" *heart breaks and shatters* ugggggh.... this is so depressing..! I wanna stay with him coz i love him... heh.. i can practically hear her ask me the next few questions..
"what would you know about love? you're too young!" oh puh-lease! she was just telling me I was old enough to get married out already. jeez!
uuuggggghhh... enough of all that. I'm staying next to him and with him.. coz he means lots to me.. i can't even start to tell you when he first started meaning the world to me!!
Anyway, shopping shopping shopping... i bought two pairs of jeans... at $19 each (what a bargain!) and then a green racer-back tee... whahaha... that alone was $14.. the cashier rang up $52.. then i dragged mom up to M.A.D to get a new pair of sandals for me... my current ones are well-worn out! hahaha... and it's only a year old.. >__<
All in all, I spent $62 tonight.. >__< so much money... haiz...oh well.. *heart breaks* my pockets are empty now.. have to save up for so much more stuff again.. i still need more tops though.. heh heh heh... ;)
Oh, I just had a sudden thought, just wanna put it here... just trusting those gut instincts of mine..
Should you realise that I don't post for more than 4 days on blogger, you'll know something's wrong. So what you do, is to send me a text message to my phone to ask what's up. if i reply you, then i'm fine, if i don't reply, then you know, you'll have to call me up or something... hahaha... it'll be obvious by then that i'm either dead or something's dreadfully wrong..
That's coz I always reply my messages.. if it's phone calls with numbers that I do not recognise and it's a missed call, i'll never call back, okay?
That said..
I just found out that I've got a bruise on my arm. Dunno how that got there, but it sure hurts loads.. I've been bruising alot lately, and most of the time I don't know how the bruises get there... i do know about the bruise on my knuckle though.. haha.. that one was caused by the dry ice. it froze my skin!
hmm... who shall I introduce to you tonight? I don't remember introducing my boyfriend to y'all, right?
okay, everyone, meet Fabio.
That's his actual name, he just added in Haydern recently into his birth certificate coz that's the name his grandfather wanted him to be called after. He's been using that name ever since his grandpa passed away.
Haydern... in a frigging nutshell, is a mega all-rounder.. literally.
He excels in anything he does.. in his academics, sports, music, human interaction... everything!! even in poetry too.. well, he's getting better at the poetry section..
He's good looking, that's for sure, he's an avid sporty guy.. jogs quite a lot, does tennis, break-dancing, blades, skates, wake-boards, i think he'll give a shot at learning how to surf too, since he's in australia..
He's like a human magnet.. really..not only does he makes the girls in his school drool, he makes old ladies' hearts melt by carrying their grocery bags and walking them to their homes. (he did that for this old lady he calls Grandma Grace) and he plays with the kids in the hospital practically everyday if he can help it.. he's great with his friends, and he's just so likeable and lovable.. haha.. i fell in love with him coz.. well, he's the only person who knows how to cheer me up at my most depressive of moods with just a few simple words...no one else knows how to do that..i mean, they do say the same words, but they do it at the wrong time, or at the wrong tone...and when i'm happy, and need someone to share my joy with, he's always there to listen to me ramble on and on about it like some babbling idiot.. haha, that sweet gesture that he always does, always makes me smile whenever i think of him.. =)
well, he's too good to be true, isn't he? on the plus side, he's a level-headed thrifty guy.. knows how to get all the good bargains and all that.. hahaha.. mind you, he's superly rich. I've never known a person who lives in a house like his. haha.. i won't bother with trying to describe his huge palace to you.. it's just amazingly gorgeous and wonderful!
hmm... well, that's my boyfriend as what any one would see him as...
tomorrow, when I get back from my course orientation in the campus, I'll tell you what makes him so special to me.. ;)
okay, I gotta go sleep now.. my mom's nagging. haha.. good night and toodles!
P.S: heh... just talking about that fella brings me smiles already! ^__^
Four....
posts to go.... it said 195 already...
never knew that when you try
NOT to think of something, the
urge to think of that something would
come back 3 fold.. you end up thinking of that something so much more..
*shrugs* I guess everyone knows that, but don't mind my tardiness in matters like that. I'll have you know that
I've had a rather deprived childhood. Too protected, I don't know so many other things that other children had while they were younger.
Anyway, I dreamt that haydern replied my post... whahaha.. (in my dreams, LITERALLY!) Perhaps I've been hoping too much to the extent I even dreamt about it.. Then again, the reply I dreamt of reading was something I'd expect him to give me. Stuff like "You wouldn't understand, and that song, said it all, yes, but stop trying to stay with me. It's bad and hard enough for me to do this already!!!" or something along those lines..
I don't think he'd post something up like "I'm really sorry, I've been a jerk.." it's utterly impossible that he posts something like that.
Oh, and when school starts, I'm going to coop myself up in school 24/7 and be a school freak again.. as in I'll be studying, playing, studying, playing, studying more and doing more co-curricular activities... I was thinking of joining the string ensemble section of the school's symphonic orchestra..
And the campus's ambassadorial team.. and I dunno.. maybe the track team. I'll do LD running.. muahaha.. okay, maybe not.
In any case... I'm buying that pair of blades after school starts. And I'll be blading and jogging every so often.
And I'll make myself too busy to for anything.. did that once.. didn't go out to meet anyone, or I'd be in school studying, out at tuition studying... hahaha.. i'm a book freak...! some one save me! =( my saviour's forsaken me... guess I'll have to pick myself up again, no? haiz... always have to pick myself up again.. life sucks loads now..
But I've got my friends..They're great friends.. I could never live without them! =)
6 more posts to 200...
headache headache headache... no, really... i've got a stabbing headache going on in my head..
oh you know what..? heh... even after eating all that food last night... I still feel hungry now... heh heh heh...
*shrugs* oh well...
Right...i'm typing this one handed as my cat savages and bites off my left wrist...oh, grounding goes on for a month. I'm sooo sad by that... ugggggh...
*slides down the wall and dies*
anyway.. pictures.. for everyone to see... heh.. i'm a camera hogger, i'd say.. Neoprints are fun.. ;)
yeah... that's about it.. i haven't received the ones from the digicam......
enjoy enjoy... you'd better anyway... coz we spent like $15 on these....
hmmmm....
yeah, i'm back from the living lands of the dead. well, not quite anyways. I'm just lazing about, telling my younger brother to finish up his homework.. and watching my cat go wild over one stupid plastic bag.
HAH!
Khai, thanks.. really, for the encouragement.. haha.. Guess I forgot what's it like to hold on like how I used to back in the good old days of secondary school life, huh?
*sighs* I think I got overwhelmed by all this
shit that i've been going through all this while.. ;) no worries, I get over it soon, I guess.
Anyways, woke up about 2 hours ago..talking to my aunt over MSN now.. i don't really like chatting to relatives nowadays.. they're so fucking nosy... asking me about stupid things.. "starting school yet?" hello? you've been asking me that one stupid question over 20 times already?! and NOTHING in the family changes... so you can quit asking about my family every damn time... and..
I DON'T WANNA KNOW ABOUT HONGKONG'S NATIONAL DAY!!!! ugh, ferget it.
Was talking to michelle just now.. she's at lunch now....
chelle... don't feel so upset all the time, ya? hahaha.... well, I guess even though you always say you love the gloom, it's coz you've got all the happiness you've got.. it's always the opposite of things that one loves best.
SO a new life starts for me this july 5th...new friends and all that.. jeez... don't know if i'm ready for it not.. i need new clothes for school.. i bet mom wouldn't buy ANYTHING for me...
haiz...
Oh, I got grounded today.. coz I came home a little later than the other nights yesterday.. she never told me what my
'limits' were.. I was merely testing them.. 1.10am too bad? geez!
gary comes home at like 3.30 in the mornings and she doesn't give him a single damn fuck about it. What's it with the biasness? dammit..
last night was so unsatisfying. I didn't get a drop of alcohol, and my mom's pissed at me. dad? he
IGNORES me all the time. well, hey? guess what?
I've got a dysfunctional family. I just hate them so much sometimes.
I'm tired of every damn thing too.. tired of this, tired of my life, tired of haydern being such a stubborn mule, tired of my family, tired of everything.
Haydern, you wanted to know what being a burden is?
My life is being a fucked-up burden to ME. Thought you could relief and save me from it. Guess I thought wrong when you started all that bullshit of you being a burden huh? You're not making things any easier for anyone, you included.
*shrugs* takes two to play any game.
We're game on. one on one.
I will win this game..
GRRR!!!!!!
I DIDN'T GET DRUNK JUST NOW!!!!!!!
Not even ONE drop of alcohol! can you BELIEVE that? all thanks to Russell's mom!!! >=(
ugh.... made me walk about so much.. stupid woman... urgh... oh well..
*shrugs*
Anyway, let me tell you what I did yesterday....
I went to debra's place at like 1pm.. we hitched a ride using uncle philip's van to kovan's to pick rica up and then we went on to dhoby ghaut's... to meet bra's other friend, elanor. I think that's her name. Anyway, her friend was this super tall girl. we'll just call her tall girl till i get her name from debbie..
tall girl looked like a model. aneroxic thin, and pretty.. (when she gets those braces off, she'll be prettier) =)
we crapped and laughed.. I nearly got knocked down again.. this time deb and rica didn't know.. heh.. coz we were all too busy laughing to notice that i was NEARLY knocked down again.. (you're just not that observant lah, admit it, k? i wouldn't blame you if i DID get knocked down anyway!) heh.. oh well..
-shrugs-
We went to play pool.. it's the first time I played an actual game. I was pretty good at it, for a beginner... ;) While playing our game of pool, Russ came down to join us, too bad, he was too young, so I forked out $10 so that he can go entertain himself at the LAN shop..
After winning only 4 games... I was the last one on the game, we decided to wrap the game up and head out to find Russ.. we found him playing Counter Strike. He still has got about an hour of gaming left.
Um.. after that.. we walked... and went to Mos Burger's after OG Orchard. I did that "got milk?" thing... heh,
debra took a picture of my retarded "got milk?" face. I'll post it up when I get the chance to.
then I
grossed all of them out by trying to scrap out this black substance (most prolly the mussell shit) from this fried mussell...
I fidled with the digicam.. took lots of pictures of rica and tall girl.. and a few of bra..
hmm... we walked down to Cathay Cineleisure after that..and I was being a stupid idiot all the way through cineleisure... we went there... and saw
BINGWEI!!! hahaha.. he upgraded his shirt to this
fire engine RED instead of the usual pink. he laughed when i pointed that out. Rica was telling me that all TP students wear RED.. and I should be in that campus coz I love the color red so much too. I just shrugged her comment aside and told her that NYP has students whose dress sense proves to be bold.
(we all love black, then we splash some really wacko bright color on it)
they all laughed at my remark like they were laughing at a retard who thought she told a super lame joke. anyway, we went to level 3 to take those
neoprints. I have to scan them in later, so i'll post those up too.. you're gonna love them! ;)
after 30 minutes of photo taking,
I got a call from Mrs Angie Ong. I made arrangements to get those IJ festival tickets from her on monday.
For all those who want those tix, tell me. I have to change them tho..I just remembered I have orientation on monday.. haiz. see?
I'm so frigging forgetful.
Nonetheless, we all had fun chatting with our dear old teacher..
well, after that.. we bid tall girl good bye after walking her to the traffic lights... we went over to heerens. you know, we bought this $69 dress for only $55.. deb bought it...
it's fuck gorgeous! and there's only
SIX of those around.. dammit. Bra, you're lucky to be the only child. your parents sure spoil you real good..
anyway, we walked walked walked... had lots and lots of fun.. then we met up with debra's parents and we bought that dress yah...
hmm...
we went searching for a place to eat....
it was like 7.30 by then, and i was
STARVING...
we ended up at
COCA restaurant in Takashimaya... and we ate from 8.30 till 11pm!!! it's the first time my dinner lasted THAT long!!!! gods... >__<
Oh, Russ showed me this stupid viagra thing made out from Olivia of pop-eye... she ate those viagra pills and her breasts (which look like mosquito bites, btw) expanded into milk bottle lookalikes and started squirting milk out.. ew...
*shudders*
heh.. but it's only due to that stupid animated comic that led Russ to dance in that wet toilet and caused him to fall down... and
he chipped his front tooth!! hahaha!! :P poor Russ... now he's got to go make a denture for it!!! muahahahhaaha... see lah, russ...? tease us girls too pervertically, that's why god punishes you like that.. heh!
okay... we walked like one HUGE round from Taka, to Marriot hotel, and then over to Terrazza... before we decided to go back to swensen's... to get that ONE small birthday cake for debra..
we destroyed TWO cups while at swensens... and we made an awful mess. see... we had sooo much dry ice around... and well... we found out that when you put warm metal against dry ice and keep it pressed there, it'll make this awful screechy noise, like how the tattooist's pen goes.. or when you're duplicating a key... that annoying scratchy sound... it's how metal sounds like on dry ice... it's horrid... but we found fun in it, so we were busy playing with the dry ice..
Oh, before that, we were singing debbie her b-day song... and we took a few pics too..
hmm... i got 'burnt' by the dry ice...there's this red patch on my knuckle.. doesn't hurt yet...
Let's see what else.. oh righT!! hahaha... the cupS! debra said she wanted to see some solid dry ice, so I picked up a small piece and dropped it into her glass of iced water... and it got stuck into the cup after a while.. hehehe... so did the dry ice in my cup..
*sheepish grin* heh... we're just THIS crazy.. so yeah... two cups were destroyed by us.. :D
okay, we ate the cake till it was like 0030hrs!!! My gods... i'm telling you, i've never eaten a meal
THIS long you know? sheesh! never once in my life... oh well, this the first time then! hahaha..
well, on the way home in the van, we took soooooo many pictures... hahhaha... it was just so fun taking those pictures.. okay, i have to admit.. I love taking pictures.. heheeh... all the attention on me!!! :P i'm a camera hogger! >.<
When I got home, it was 1.10am.... rather late, but mom was like "next time not so late please.." yeah, okay, whatever...
*rolls eyes*
Hmm... oh right... after we took those neoprints... we went to
bits and pieces... it's this really cool silver jewellery shop... I saw those rings there and couldn't help but think of my boyfriend.. I was saving up to buy a pair of rings for us.. to surprise him with.. Should I continue saving up for them? I don't know.. well, all I know.. well, I don't know.. I'll think about it again, when I'm not this exhausted... it's like 4.30am... but I do know I want to buy us a pair of rings.
"cheapo ones." heh heh.. ;) i'm such a cheap-skate.. ;) I'll save up like $40 and go to hougang mall to get them.. muahaha.. and I'll do it soon too... and i'll get the best designs i can find at that lil' shop by the corner there.. whahaha!! =)
but only when school starts, then I'll buy them.. heh.. i'm broke now.. i still have to pay for the IJ fest. tickets... :S have to pay like $25 leh.. haiz...
hmmm...after school starts... I hope by then, everything clears up...
and everything goes back to what it was before this month ever started....
*sighs*
how things can just change within ONE week. it just took one day to change everything, actually... :(
i'm so sad...
Kimberly Locke duets w/ Clay Aiken ~*~ Without YOU
Never even thought to cry
When I heard you say goodbye
Never said where you were going
And theres no laughter in the air
Only silence everywhere
And so much left unspoken
Since you've been gone
I haven't been the same
I wish that I could see
Who's to blame
Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
And no love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am i supposed to live my life?
Without you
oooooo
Was in lost in you and ne
To the point I couldn't see
That what we had was dying
Now it's all that I can do
To see photographs of you
And stop myself from crying
I should learn to live without your love
Got so many memories
But it's not enough
Without you, where do i belong?
Without you, how can i go on?
And no love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life
Without you?
I feel helpless and oh so alone
Like I never felt before
You made feel alive
I don't remember what it's like anymore
Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
No love, no love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life, without you?
Without you, where do I belong? (where do I belong?)
Without you, how can I go on?
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life,
Without you?
Oh baby, where do I belong? (without you)
Please tell me how can I go on?
I'm going to think... yeah... it's coming 5am in like 10 minutes.. so yeah.. i'm not going to get any sleep tonight, am i? heh.. =/ oh well.. i ate too much anyway...
Gooooood morning to you too! =) new day, new stuff... new life... hahahhaa....
a new world awaits for me!!!
Time to get drunk...
Today marks debra's birthday..
I haven't told my parents that I'm going to
get fuck-drunk at debra's place, I don't think aunt jean would allow it anyway. Who knows, maybe the whole thing was to see me and rica get drunk.
*shrugs* doesn't really matter, I'm gonna get drunk, so you won't hear from me for a day or two..
Anyway, you know what....
Last night was a damn surpriser for me.. I thought I could be strong, really, I did.. But then I had to turn on that shit hi-fi radio of mine, and all those songs just came through.
It was just ripping me up and apart. ArGh!!! The one song that triggered that all was
Kimberly Locke and Clay Aiken's duet of
"Without You"
I didn't exactly have the dam pouring out like a waterfall...
it was more like 3 or 4 drops of tears...
*shrugs* like that would change matters..
Khai and I had a chat last night.. before her sis took over the computer..
She was great, telling me to stay strong and all that..
she said she'd confidence in me that I could stay strong, like how I through the previous 6 years.. :) thanks for that boost in believing in me.. I really needed someone to tell me that...
But gin.. I don't know.. she's like one of my most trusted confidants.. she'd always tell me the right things at the right times.
It's almost robotic sometimes. Like she's here to carry out saying those words to me. But she's been so busy as of late, she doesn't know what's going on, I did tell her last night, but she
just cut me off with "I going offline now.. laters babe" and then she went off...
*sighs*
I don't know, after that chat with gins, I just felt so out of it... even snapped at felix..
sorry dude.. I didn't mean to snap at you like that.. it was wrong of me to take my disappointment out on ya...
I had this depressing and angsty chat with michelle.. dunno.. I told her I didn't wanna hang on anymore, that perhaps it would be better if I died really really soon, so that I wouldn't have to worry about anything else anymore.. I could see she was going "ugh.. not another one too.." Sorry to pressurise ya like that.. last night was tough..
Blah..
Feeling down is I one the most tiring, time-consuming things I've ever done...
It really sucks the life out of you, and you just don't feel like doing anything.. where're the endorphines when you need them..? nevermind, in about 3 hours, I will be with two other people whom I can never be bored with. Their presences bring joy into my life..
Come July, I won't be online for longer times.. which means shorter entries
*hears the crowd cheer* yea yea... and lesser visits to blogs too. =( that really saddens me lots..
*sighs and shrugs* oh well.
I'm starting school in abit. Scares me to think of it... heh..
Coz I really don't know what to expect in school.. come to think of it, I do know what to expect, just that I don't feel like expecting it... blah, i'm talking rubbish....
Anyway, I don't feel a tad good now....
*sighs*
I'm off on my way then...
Update y'all in a few days then...
9 more posts..
till it hits 200..
And I'll be an old bloggist.. muahaha.. no, I'm just kidding really.
Received a message from the boyfriend (the very stubborn one) and he was indeed being very sweet and cute and understanding. Thinking way ahead of me, always putting me in front of his own needs. But sadly, I still don't know how to accept that. (as usual)
Debra was telling me that I was so fortunate to have such a guy. A guy who's always there.. a guy who's so sweet, caring, understanding and most of all, loving. Here he was, fighting a losing battle, and he tells me to walk away from it all while I can.. for he doesn't want to be a burden to me for the rest of my life.. ever the hero, isn't he?
Tears my heart just thinking of it..
why can't he see?
That I won't walk away now... that I won't walk away from it all even though I can.. that I don't want to turn my back away on him, to hang my head down and to walk off like a coward?
I know the consequence when I stick to him,
and I accept it.
Why can't he see that?
that he's more of a joy than a burden.
he's my life, my world.
I wouldn't want any other..
I would love him so much more. We will be happy together..
but it's so sad, he doesn't see it that way..
he won't see it that way.
He
REFUSES to see it that way.
he's forcing himself not to see it that way.
There's nothing much I can do, really... everything I say, he still rejects me. Soon, there's nothing else I can do to change his mind. What do I do then? get down on my knees and beg? Actually, I'm doing that now.
What next?
It's bad enough that I don't get to see him, unlike the other regular local couples in love. I was looking forward to meeting him again when he returns at the end of the year. Guess what, as usual.. I'll never get to see him. Something
ALWAYS interfers..
Are we never meant to be? All the more I have to cling on with a vice-like grip..
It's really depressing to know that he's forcing himself to let me go just like that..
he doesn't realise the hurt he's causing me.. it hurts as much as it hurts him to do all that.
*sighs*
Why go through all that trouble when every thing can be made easier when we stay together?
"United we stand, divided we fall"
Unfortunately, the boyfriend doesn't realise that little piece of advice now. I will pass that message on to him the next time I reply him.
On a lighter note.
Tomorrow's debra's birthday, like I've said.
rica and I will go to her place early. Then we head out for lunch. We will go play pool if we have the time and money. Then we spend time in the cafe till dinner time, where we will meet debbz parents for dinner at Marche's.. and after a long dinner, we will go back to debra's place, where I have whole bottle of white wine waiting for my indulgence.. (debra knows i'm in need of some alcohol.. oh bless her!)
*grins*
We were supposed to go to
Boom Boom Room to watch this gay guy, Kumar, do stand up comedy.. and drink and have fun there..
But I can't stay out late.
(damn those people called parents) So, we're going to debra's place to
get me utterly and dead drunk. I'm telling you, when I hit 21, I'm staying over at a best friend's place, and I don't care. Damn parents. Haven't they heard of such things as
SLEEPOVERS?!?!
I am seriously VERY deprived of a normal girlish life. Blame them if you find me too tom-boyish, my dear friends. I don't interact with females well because of them.
Anyway, leaving you with the lyrics from a song.
It's
Fefe Dobson's "Take me Away"
I have waited all my life to know you
All about you
And now, I'm staring in your eyes ocean blue
I'm all about you
And in our minds it comes so easily
But there's a feeling coming over me
I wanna show you but there's nowhere we can really be free
Everybody's watching
Wouldn't it be good if we could be together
Take me away
Take me far away from here
I will run, with you
Don't be afraid
Navigate and I will steer
Into the sun
We will run
I try to remember when I was just a child
In my room
My imagination used to run wild
But I never knew
That nothing's ever what it seems to be
When a dream collides with the reality
I should be easy when two people love each other truly
Everybody's talking
And wouldn't good if they could understand us
Take me away
Take me far away from here
I will run with you
Don't be afraid
Navigate and I will steer
Into the sun
We will run
Wouldn't it be good if they would understand us
Wouldn't it be good if we could be together
Take me away
Take me far away from here
I will run with you
Don't be afraid
Navigate and I will steer
Into the sun
We will run
the brand
No Frills, it's a household brand.. they sell all the household stuff.. from eggs to tissue paper, to mops and rice packets.. They had a feature in today's newspapers in singapore. What I read is that they had an amazing turn over of $3billion last year. For a local chain brand, that's pretty good!
Oh well..
Anyway, I've been thinking so much, I seem to have forgotten what I've been thinking of so far. You know sometimes when you think about a topic, and then you sidetrack, sidetrack, sidetrack too much, till you try back tracking, you back track till you get yourself so confused, you go "huh? what was I thinking of again?" Yeah, that happened to me the last 3 days.
I have no idea what's it like to have something so precious as
MY life to be taken away from me.. I've seen lives of others being taken away. Trust me, I have. Not that I've witnessed a horror murder scene (only in my dreams), I've watched my best friend fade away and lose her hope in life. It's sad...
And watched both my grandparents (one from mom's, the other from dad's)... I watched them slowly fade off... It's so easy to tell that they're going. It's scary to know that, and not being able to ease their way into death from life.
I don't know what's it like to die.. maybe I do.. I've dreamt about it so many times, where I die, in so many situations. but I've come to accept my terms on it. Perhaps it still scares me now, but I try not to dwell in that for too long a time.
But I've never felt what's it like to have all my dreams and aspirations taken away from me...oh wait, I had everything I dreamt of taken away from me, due to the lack of funds..It's hard up being in an average family, I know that, you know that, but not everyone will accept that. Even I still don't accept it sometimes.. about not having enough funds.
I wanted to get an advance in my eduction to getting a bachelor's degree last year by taking the Foundation Year course.. but my parents thought it was too expensive and it was unsafe where I wanted to head to, so I'm left with taking a three year diploma course that would be ultimately useless in my opinion. Coz for the degree that I want, I'd still need a FY course certificate.
Maybe I'm meant to do things the longer way.. it's always been like that.. I pick things up fast, but I let it develop slow. Get what I mean? You could teach me tennis in a day, but I'll let this new skill of mine develop 2 times slower than a bright person's. and almost 2/3 of singaporeans are super bright. So, go figure.
I don't know if my boyfriend ever reads this, and if he does, perhaps he'll know now.. that, yeah, I may not understand it wholly and fully what's it like to be like you.. for i'm never you, but I understand what's it like not to achieve something.. so don't say I don't understand, coz I do understand part of it.
Well, I'm gonna sit my butt in front of this laptop today, listen to my mom bicker with my dear old aunt over silly silly matters about nothing at all.
Had a dream again last night.. I remembered it just now, but I can't seem to recall it again..oh right, i stabbed some villian last night.. he was trying to kill me.. but i took a nearby swiss knife (we've got 3 of those at home) and stabbed him in his abdomen.. i freaked when he told me "i'm sorry" I ran out of my house after that and woke up to my brothers yelling at each other.
Ugh.. anyway, I gotta go.. I don't get a good feeling... =(
Okay,
blogging definitely is addictive. And it seems to me that I can't get away from it even though how upset I'm feeling at the moment.
Still, I won't talk about it. Although about 20% of you would know what's going on.. you, meaning my friends..
Here's a nice little
quote that I felt was really interesting and meaningful, at least to me..
"As we advance in life, it becomes more and more difficult. but in fighting the difficulties, the inmost strength of the heart is developed." - Vincent van Gogh
I don't know, today, everything I do, everything I listen to, everything I read, everything I touch, every
single thing.. that I come to lay my eyes upon, seems to tell me to hold on strong, and to reflect on everything that's happened. It's interesting how things works. Well, how things work for me anyway..
Whenever I'm feeling down and out, I seem to pick up signs faster and see things in their more obvious ways.
Heh, I don't know.. all the songs I've heard on the radio today..
so depressing!
Anyway, today went out with rica.. for just like three hours I guess.. we went to get my present for debra's birthday.. Then sat at Starbucks to drink that new Strawberry and cream.. it's just strawberry ice-blended milkshake.. but not as thick as mos burger's..
Um... didn't do much.. Coz I didn't really feel like doing much.. just walked about the whole of Compass Point.. went window shopping, rica did more looking rather than me. I just walked about taking up pieces of clothes and discriminated the awful designs on them. One day, when all this mess have been cleared up, we will both open our own fashion label, and produce our own clothes, as a side hobby. muahahaha..
We went to the library as well.. I tried looking up for that thing.. but too bad, library doesn't have it.. oh well, the net's still the best, I guess?
Hmm... after that.. we pretty much sat in the bus interchange's metal seats.. big and spacious, but most definitely
NOT comfy. Oh well.. nothing seems nice anymore, do they?
Okay, make an
exception for my bed. I love my bed too much to call it
UN-comfy..! ^__^
Hey, rica!
Thanks for keeping me some company today... :) I appreciated it very much..!
On friday, we'll have to do lots and lots of drinking! :D I'm looking forward to that.. But I doubt Aunt jean would allow more than a flute of wine.. :S oh well..
I'll just drink as much as I can then! ;) hahaha.. then I can see you and debra get drunk and laugh at you two crazy girls, and forget about my problems for one night..
Sweet! ;P
so, yeah... I'm gonna go do some other stuff.. I feel like i'm burning up a slight fever.. so gonna rest for a while.. yeah..
Michelle... you can't tell charmaine..
you know how she's gonna
FREAK OUT, and then i won't know what the consequences would be. You remember what happened last year.. I think this time it'll be worse.. so don't tell her anything..nvm, i'll just send you a sms later..
Anyway, today, started out flat. You know, when you feel really down and out.. yeah, that's how I felt. But, I'm meeting up with rica later. To get a cheap present for deb..
(bra i'm sorry i can't get you an expensive gift.. i'm awfully broke!) =(
And I don't know, maybe i'll spend the afternoon over at rica's. Or call gins out to the beach.. I know I need the beach at a time like this.. Or some place where I can run to without anyone bothering me all the time.
Maybe I'll go there alone.. haven't told gin what happened..
oh well...
i'm outta here... toodles..
this ultimately sucks
if I had the money...
Mood: exhausted. upset. depressed.
You probably won't read much the next few days. I have lots of stuff to talk about to with my boyfriend.. it's giving me splitting headaches, and I do hope every ounce of effort I put into him, will pay off after all of it.
My family still knows nothing about what's going on.. I think mom knows something's going on, but she's just still not sure about it. Oh who cares..
Anyway, I can't believe my aunts call my cat
"Bitchy"!! that term really offended me. For I love my cat loads, even if she's mean to any one that she's not familiar with.. Perhaps I will take her out with me... down to the lobbies on evenings..
Went to downtown east today.. To play with michelle.. sadly, we didn't get to play much.. coz of that stupid ivy woman.. (no offense there, chelle, but I hated her character) We bowled a little.. my score was 83.. and michelle's was 56 I think. that next lane fella, Yi Yong Hua guy, I think he's a pro, coz his score was like 164 kinda thing.. with so many spares and strikes.heh.
We found out about haydern's condition at the net kiosk while walking about. I don't feel like talking about that here, coz it upsets me so much. Makes me feel like crying. But I just found out, I ran out of tears.. so my heart's doing all the crying instead.
I don't know..
*sighs*
Well, got home about two hours ago..
interesting fact for the day: Mich's mom's name is angeline too.
To Mich: Sorry I haven't been the greatest of guests today yah.. I just had too much on my mind, you know that too.. Trying hard not to break down there was a really tough thing to do, really. But with ya there, at least it's not so bad.
Well, at least you know stuff no one else knows except for me. Just keep on reading that thing.. but don't tell anyone else of that page. It's supposed to be a private thing. There's probably alot more stuff I wanna tell ya, but I ain't got the mood to right now.
anyway, my head's spinning somewhat. I'm just gonna go jump into bed, then write something stupid in my journal, then try to get some rest (rica's advice).. so yeah.
bye.
I have been deprived... again..
of sleep.. of so many things..
Mood: =/
See.. a human can NEVER be satisfied no matter what.
Actually, I was satisfied just a week ago. SOOOO satisfied with my life, my own world.. but then things just change, and everything's pretty much crashing about me.
Well, at least I'd have a double reason to drink at debbie's birthday party this friday.
1) to celebrate her turning 18, and..
2) to drink off my problems, and..
3) i just wanna get drunk. Again.
I hate hangovers, really. Sorry Per, last night's "I love hangovers"... that was just a half-lie.. Usually I wouldn't lie, but I just love saying 'I love hangovers'.. well, it was a part of the truth anyway. The reason I gave per why I loved hangovers, was the ability to shut everyone up (including my parents) in a nasty way and they'd actually obey me.
Other than that, I'll just hibernate.. just like what Per does. But unlike her, I don't have my boyfriend to come over to my place to nurse me, coz he's being such a jackass, Per says she'll wring his
THING if she comes to know that it's all just some bad, sick joke.
Well, it's better than him being dead anyway..
Anyway, meeting michelle at noon by downtown east later.. and then, well.. we'll see what happens... i'm just so upset right now... and I still have to put up that happy facade.. heh heh.. oh well!
will update later then..
Toodles!
2.15am and i can't sleep
insomnia hits me again
Mood: upset
I will face michelle with a pathetic look later, and she will go "what's wrong, sis?" And then I will tell her everything that happened. She will get pissed off first, then worried and then she'll give me that great big hug she gives and then I will be the
Psycho girlfriend caller and ring haydern's mobile till he picks it up.
Hopefully, that will all happen.
honestly, I really don't feel like doing anything much.. But Per told me to call him like over 10 times, so I will give him a call anyways. I just hope I don't blow up at him though. Really, he's the one and
ONLY fella that I let my tears be shed for. (my heart broke for the ex, but i never did cry, I just faked it) No other person alive has that ability to make me cry willingly you know.. Well, not besides my mom and the primary school teachers. I haven't once in my life shed a tear for any other human alive and breathing when the reason wasn't one that included chidings and punishments.
Haydern, you will have to fear your life.. many people would be after you should this turn out to be all a joke.
Then again, I hope it's all a joke. It's all just a bad joke... Like before. ugh...
I gotta go.. I just don't feel like typing anymore..
Then again, I have to type... so that I can vent it all out..
argh!!!!
whatever.
I just... don't know...
I just don't know anymore.
Serene, a cousin of mine, had her nick over MSN as "OMG! My cousins are all so young yet their thinkings are so mature... am I being childish?"
Chances are, no, you're not.
It's always in the innocense of the younger children that you find the maturity of the wisest. Well, most of the time anyway.
Finally heard something from haydern...
you know, I could really use a good screaming vent session now. I'm happy to hear from him, that's no doubt. But he's talking rubbish that I don't wish to hear and seriously, that scares me a whole lot. So right now, I'm in serious thinking of whether to cry out of joy coz he's alive somehow, or to cry out of frustration coz he's talking about death to me.
Seriously. I need someone to kill me right now.
ugh...
perhaps those nightmares were worth it..
More nightmares would come, and then perhaps I'll die in my sleep one night.
Isn't that pleasant? to die in your sleep?
Anyway, i'm gonna see what I can do with that stubborn boyfriend of mine...
absent-mindedness strikes...
AGAIN!
Mood: much better mood
I had in mind, again, something to post. That was
only 45 seconds ago.
Damn me and my short-term memory. Actually, i had a few things to post. I just seem to have lots to speak of lately. That's good, y'know. Least I have something to talk about. Even though it's too wordy most of the time, coz let me remind you, everything I have here on the internet are all
spur-of-the-moment things.
Even this post, it's spur of the moment.
Really, if you'd have enough time, I could invite you to read whatever nonsense I have on this blog alone, and I bet you'd need approximately
2 days to finish all that is here. (assuming you are a regular human, with regular and
NORMAL reading speeds)
Alright, enough of all that nonsense.
I can't seem to remember what shit I wanted to post, so I'll post some other shit on here..
Instead of clearing out my wardrobe today, I actually fell asleep.. heh.. nah,
it wasn't pure procastination. I was actually very tired, what with the lack of sleep the past 5 nights. I really needed some rest, the sofa was empty, the TV was off, the desktop wasn't busy producing bombing sounds made by my older brother's constant online-gaming.
So, what more could I ask for? Jumped on the sofa I did, and sleep I got.
But
Terra had to
butt into my well-needed sleep, she
pranced about the whole sofa,
chewing at my shorts, my toes, my hair.. she
nearly got to my lip (yuck), but I managed to throw her off the sofa and get some more sleep.
After an hour, during which she gave up meowing and jumped on to the seat next to my sofa and proceeded
imitating me by stretching her whole body out on the seat and slept belly facing up.
20 minutes later, I found her jumping and walking all over my stomach.
Man, did she get fat.. she's so heavy! hahahaa.. anyway, after that, I decided to quit sleeping.. went to my trusty lil' laptop here and replied a few messages, but promptly got knocked out again for another 15 minutes, this time in my bed. hahaha..
For once,
NO dreams! haha! :D
You know, you'll hardly see me this happy.. heh.. :D
Oh! tomorrow, I go to
Michelle's chalet! this is gonna be great.. but as it is,
I can't help but worry about haydern. That fella's been
MIA for 5 days too..
another 2 more days, and I know he's been avoiding me.
Right, I found out that Terra broke her tooth earlier this afternoon. Just now, she accidentally swallowed her tooth while having dinner. So, she looks like
Bucky from
Get Fuzzy. What's more, it's the same side where
Bucky's tooth got snapped off..
Well, I'll be changing the layouts for the blogs soon.. It'll be fresh new looks.. ;)
Look out for them..
Argh! where's mich when you need her? hahaha.. I'm gonna have a problem finding her for tomorrow's meeting place.. :S oh well...
bored.. bored...
Mood: bored..
Right, I found this is
Khai's blog>. Thought it'll be fun to get rid of my boredom for the while..
1. describe in detail wad's in ur wallet/pouch/bag:
In my wallet:
- receipts
- useless cards
- papernotes (that have currency worth to it)
- coins (euros, swiss francs, s'pore coins)
- those brass plates my mom makes me keep in my wallets.
In my cardholder wallet:
- cards, lots of cards.
- EZ-link card
- Indentification Card
- ATM card
- cool-looking poker cards just to beautify my cardholder
- picture of my boyfriend
- namecards of business people.. (i buy things from them)
- discount cards
- membership cards
- all my important cards..
In my Bags:
- waterbottle
- pen
- my wallets
- organiser/planner
- I love carrying light.
2. Tell us what's on your study/computer table:
- books
- papers
- stationary stuff (pen, pencils, high-lighters, rulers, the likes)
- laptop
- mobile phone
- glasses
- shades
- my handy little portable hard disk
- watch
- newspapers
- hairband + rubberband
- keys
- waterbottle
- food
3. What's in your wardrobe?
- clothes (just 1/2 of my clothes and it's full. Time for a new cupboard!)
- um.. junk. (old papers, bags)
- soft toys!
- belts
- caps
- mothballs
- hanging thing for my folded shirts
- a box of rubbish that i need to throw
4. Lastly, what's on your bed?
(ON my bed, huh?) heh..
- two pillows
- a bolster
- a MacD's foldable hellokitty soft toy
- Mashimaro stuff toy
- a stuff toy golden retriever puppy (no dogs were killed, i can assure you)--i bought that.
- my toy monkey called "Dumbass" (gary gave it to me)
- that Shrek2 "Puss in boots" huggable cushion (dad bought it for me, it was only 3$, so?)
- my trusty snuggable red pull-over. (love it! i hi-jacked that one. it was meant for gary)
- bedsheets.
5. What's under your bed? (i added this one!)
- Sony hi-fi set. it's half damaged. I can't play anything except the FM radio
- notes, LOTS of notes.
- books (I can't even start to count. it's too many)
- folders
- junk
- photo albums
- files
- papers
- plain paper
In case you were wondering, I bought my dandy bed from IKEA.. design from Switzerland, I think. In any matter, my bed frame is actually a cupboard. The top is where I sleep. And what's beneath me, would be my books that I use for school.
I have LOTS to clear.
*aHem* yeah..
*sheepish grin*
Anyway, since I have many things to clear in my room. I think I should start with the wardrobe.. yup yup.. Time to clear the wardrobe. yup.
byeeeeeeee...
yet another night of tossing and turning...
:S this really sucks..
Mood: tired
you know, although last night's nightmares weren't too bad, they're still nightmares. I mean,
walking about a headless corpse, with missing fingers, and it's seated upright in the chair. My aunt was cleaning up the corspe.
*shudders* Ugh, enough of
Six Feet Under. But really, I haven't watched that show in
AGES! =(
Well, yihan, I dreamt that you and eugene were in my dream too, but that one was an okay dream.. We were all at Esplanade. You called me before I went there saying you two would be there watching a recital I think. I was supposed to be there to supervise something. I only know I had something to do there. But anyway,
yihan came up with this really cool thing. From totally casual clothes, he managed to transform it into a whole lounge suit.
Blah, it's just a
DREAM, so I can't say much.
Well, I'm off to do more blogging.. in other blogs.
Check out my new blog, (i did it with my two best friends, bra and rice, go ahead and check it out! :P)
heh......... eh...... :(
damn damn damnations...
Mood: bored.. tired... headache...
Went out with Gary this afternoon to Kinokuniya's.. was searching for
Matt Ridley's "Genome: The Autobiography of a species in 23 chapters"... it's a really good book. It's more like a thesis... in a fiction, story-like form..
It's much more interesting rather than reading a pictureless textbook from the school library that just beats about the same bloody point over and over again without progressing anywhere.
I'd have borrowed that book from Jezz previously. And even though I read only 32 pages out of the entire book, I still thought it was interesting. Well, it is for me.
I can assure you, it's not a good read if you're one for all about testosterones.. no action in this one.
Anyway, my headache's back.. :( so, I'm just gonna do other mindless stuff, like chatting with my friends.. and well, yeah, just that...
Good night to the other worlds..
I'm in my world once more..
4 days... 4 frigging days...
of nightmares...
Mood: exhausted
Alright,
who's that frigging smart ass who's been giving me nightmares?
Dammit... not one night in this week, have I had a decent sleep! This is so annoying..
Slept at 0030 last night.. and I have to wake up at 0700 just coz of 3 nightmares in one sleep!?!? argh!
well, I've forgotten what I dreamt the other nights, but they were scary too... argh!
Just hope it all goes away soon.... :(
Mom says my past life's enemies are after me.. heh.. I have no idea who's out to get me, but man, last night's dreams were scary. Here's what happened: Some sleazy looking hippie-wannabe asshole was at the front door of my house, trying to force his way in and put in drugs into our homes. It was some powder drug. Heroin or estacy in powder form I think. It's really stupid. The more I tried resisting, the more persistant and violent that asshole became. I nearly took out that butcher's knife to stab him, but by then he ran out and I slammed the door in his face.
Just a dream like that, scares me so much. I have no idea why, but I woke up trembling coz of that dream.
*shudders*
I mean, it scares me to think: what if something like that really happened to me one day?
Well,
least I know what to do next time, get ready a meat cleaver and hack the bastard up. Damn dreams, and damn sleazy looking, hippie-wannabe assholes.. damn it.
What a way to wake up again.
Last entry for the day..
I mean it.. last blog for the day..
Mood: *yawns* bored.
Usually people would blog once in 3 days, or once in like a fortnight.. or whatever..
Me, I blog in like 3 to 4 times a day, depending on my mood. Sometimes once a day, or none.
HEH!
Just put on some fresh sheets on my bed. Sprayed on that perfume for the sheets. I'm telling you, I have no idea why I spray all that perfume just to make myself sneeze. haha.. great. Makes me look kinda dumb doing that.
Well, I think I'm going to head to bed early tonight.
(For once, really!)
Due to:
1) an annoying headache (that's been going on for 3 days),
2) that stoopid twitching eyebrow (ALSO 3 days),
3) the comfy cool weather,
4) the cold air blowing into my home from all the windows,
5) not having anyone to talk to,
6) the radio playing slow sleepy music,
7) the night being dragged so long (it's only 2110hrs?!?),
8) nothing else to blog in here,
9) have some more notes left to read before bed, and lastly...
10)I have EYE BAGS. I NEED sleep!
SO, I bid thee good night, sweet dreams, and allow those bed bugs to chew your butts off.. ;)
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....
if you EVER thought....
that washing clothes by hand was NOT tiring..
Mood: my batt's flat. --___--||
I'm telling you now, you thought
WRONG. but, washing clothes was still a fun thing to do. =P I bet you I'm the only one online thinking that washing clothes could ever be fun. Mich, you'd be going
"uh huh. sis, you're mad again." poor haydern, don't you think? muahahaha.. oh well.. one of the insane quirks he's gotta bear with. ;)
He's rather insane too.. doing rubbish eggs, and drinking crazy stuff.. Parmasen cheese and coke? with pepper and salt..
YUCK! and he still drank it. ew... (blame stanley and devon and aunt veron on that one) but he still drank it anyway.
okay, I'm bored... heh...
went to Ying Jie's blog.. it's neat! I mean it! it's
SO NEAT, literally! hahaha..
heh... i've got the cat...
hanging off my shoulder
Mood: trying to enjoy the last of my holidays
heh.. yeah, I picked terra up and placed her on my shoulder.. she kept really still, like a fur shawl would, while I paraded round my home with her on me.. it's quite fun really, when you find that you've got absolutely nothing to do.
Anyway, this morning, I woke up to the sounds of the TV again. 2nd week since Edwin came back from china.. it's been really noisy since he came home. About 30 minutes after I woke up, Edwin came running to me, exclaiming that
there was a humming bird trying to knock itself out in the kitchen. I walked into the kitchen to find my older brother, Gary, ducking about, trying to avoid the poor little humming bird. It was indeed flying about, nearly knocking itself out in between all those bamboo poles we used to hang all the wet clothes to dry at the ceiling.
Well, it took Gary and I about 30 minutes trying to get that humming bird out of the house.
We should have caught it and sold it off... but well, I reasoned that it might have been searching for food and it flew into the house by accident.. poor bird.
It came back with
3 other humming birds about an hour later. It's the most number of humming birds I've seen together in a group, live, flying and chirping in front of my face.. in my entire life too.. such a rare thing to happen, and I didn't have my camera with me.. oh well...
I could've taken such great pictures...
I had a pimple outbreak overnight.. now I have like this
HUGE acne on my forehead
right smack above my left eyebrow, and lots of little little pimples all over my face.. guess it's time for that water diet thing again.. hahaha..
Oh, I've been bathing that cat of mine everyday now.. I have no idea how she does it, but she gets soooo smelly everyday.. must be something she ate.
She pooped all over my hand last night. You have no idea how pissed off I was at her.
Anyway, while you all read this post... I'll be washing my clothes and getting myself utterly wet and having lots of fun in the bathroom..
Who would ever think that washing your clothes by hand would be SO much FUN? =)
Mood: still bored
well, this looks like a really boring and listless day for me.
Nevertheless, I went poking my mouse buttin (yea, i pronounce it as 'buttin' instead of 'button') into other people's blogs, reading a few lines here and there..
Recommendations from the
Caliblog people.. So, you can see some new links in
:: the Reads section.. feel free to read their blogs. As far as I know, they're better reads than mind anytime.
(for I don't feel the need to blog anything much more, you don't really read anything of substance)
Well, most of the things you read here would be mindless things like what mindless stuff that happens in my mindless mundane life. (okay, so maybe not)
But anyway, within those 7 months of vacation since the start of december'03 till now, my life has been lousily spent (if you're looking at me as
Angeline, the workaholic) or I could make you look the other way and tell you, it's been the best 7 months in my entire life!! (I'm making you look at me as
Angeline, the born slacker)
If there's anything I could do well, it would be to
slack, slack, slack and slack more. I haven't exercised regularly in 3 months, have not picked up a novel and finished it in 6 months, and I haven't maintained a job for more than 18 hours. And while I may complain and whine about it, I've actually come to enjoy all this slacking, and
complaining and whinning about it makes it just about 200% better, coz I love seeing the faces of my friends who are already studying, or still working.
yeah,
it's one of my bad habitual hobbies to watch people's facial expressions. From happy to sad, frustration to anger, anger to total helplessness.... sad to happy, vice versa. I just love watching people's faces change from an expression to another.
Even if it means to make them hate me for that moment, I will do that, just to watch their facial expressions.
Junius calls that habitual hobby of mine as a cruel heartless thing to do, but hey, I
TRIED getting out of it. It just draws me back for more. =P
Anyway, let me tell you, within these long 7 months of vacation, I could pretty much say I've tried it all, but I didn't try hard enough. heh..
*grins* go figure.
Oh, there's this new show that's gonna be aired here on the local tv channel in Singapore. It's that silly show called
The Simple Life. I do suppose it's already been aired over in America. It's got
Paris Hilton, and that other girl in it. Trying to get two spoilt socialites from
Hollywood to do simple household chores..
*snickers to herself* oh man, as much as I'd
hate NOT to say it,
it's gonna be super FUN watching them SUFFER!!!
Really makes me wonder,
are all socialites in hollywood that spoilt? jeez... I'm just glad my boyfriend knows how to wash his dishes and cook his own meals.. =)
at least I know how to cook, wash, clean and make a mess out of everything again just so I can cook, wash and clean again. (a bloody process which repeats every single day)
hahhaha... stupid really, you clean the place up, wash everything, just so you can make a bloody mess out of it again! :P Well, that's me! hahaha...
Okay, time for me to go back to slacking...
Titan A.E. is on TV now... ;)
Mood: bored
Not writing titles is really becoming a habit out of me. hahha.. not that it matters.
Anyway, did some reading of those notes I took from a friend..
he was kind enough to acknowledge my plight and agreed to sacriface his notes for me.. hahha.. thank you ah, yibin.. He gave me a few of his notes, says those very few, were the fundementals to biotechnology.
Well, it seems all interesting enough, truth be told, I read the first page of chemistry and closed the notes and slept my afternoon away..
so much for 'busy reading' eh? oh well, I
WILL force myself to read more later.
while terra goes wild again...
Mood: rather depressed
well, I have feeling this depressed since last night. And it sucks.
I have been thinking, and actually telling rica..
that I'm always there for everyone that I can make my time out for, but will anyone be there for me when I'm in need of them?
Debra and I were there for rica when she needed us, no doubt, I was even helping her out with her work, but I never really solved the sums, coz I wasn't thinking one bit and I knew nuts about pressure. (that's in physics)
And gins, well.. i'm always there for her. But whenever I need her, 90% of the time, she's busy with other stuff and she can't be bothered with me. :S doesn't sound really pleasant right?
But when school starts, both debra and rica are gonna be busy. Deb's gonna have to try avoiding that awful mouse-squeaking gracia, and that gawdammit other girl(forgot her name).. and Rica would be fending her way through school avoiding so many other people she dislikes.. (she's already calling them 'bitches' and 'bastards')
Gin would be finally having fun in school (thank goodness, she finally enjoys school once again) and I don't think she'd have time except for the weekends.
None of my best friends are gonna have time for me! sad! I know I'd gladly take time out for them, but will they do that for me too? I think we'll only know when the time comes, I guess..
That aside, Gary's went out (just) to watch
The Chronicles of Riddick.. with his huge friend, WY. WY's just this fella who looks like a sumo wrestler, he's that huge. He can run fast, but only for short distances. And he's huge sized.
Dad and the lil' brother went out for a game of golf.
Mom's out jogging.
I'm here blogging this stupid entry.
Ugh, this is depressing.
Eamon's song is so vulgar
Eamon ~*~ I don't want you back
Mood: tired
Have been feeling out of it lately, just getting sick, exhausted, tired, headaches.. whatever sort of rubbish, I got it...
Anyway, it's obvious I can't dedicate that song to my boyfriend.. hahaha...
but I've been listening to that song coz I think the beats and the tune is nice, but not the lyrics.. it's so rude and vulgar! The singer ought to be ashamed of himself, but well, it's his song, he was probably pissed at his ex-girlfriend.
Oh, michelle, michelle, michelle.....
how could I ever survive without you? =) you're just so fun to tease!!!
And
do heed my advice not to say anything.. hahaha! You'll be teased a hell lot more if you said anything..
*wink* and I think if we had that conversation while the boys and charmaine were around, you'll end up crying out of frustration.. knowing them...
Alright, alright, I'll just lessen your frustrations and stop teasing ya.. =)
Esther, you're serious right? About having a baby with your boyfriend? wow... hahaha... I find that rather hard to believe.. just give me a few more minutes to digest that little piece of good news...! :D Wow!! haha!! You're gonna be a mummy!!!
*gets all teary eyed* CONGRATULATIONS ESTHER!!!!!! :D our class first mommy!!!!!
when the baby comes out, take lots and lots of pictures okay? hahaha.. he/she would be sooooooo cute! just like you!!! and he/she will have your sunshine smile too! hahaha...
Oh! I can't wait to see your kid!!
This is soooo awesome!
I do hope to see you at the IJ Fest at Chijmes, okie? We can have the whole class get-together there! ;)
Aww... thanks on the blog comment.. It's not much hard work on it.. Soon, I'm gonna do up my own layouts.. hopefully photobucket doesn't hang up on me again..
OooH!!!! this reminds me...
The measley pictures of stanley and haydern... (as in small small pictures)
muahahhaa... you can see... but one of them is mine... and
ONLY MINE!!! *does evil laugh*
okay, sorry, I just had chocolate ice cream you see, so I'm really on a bit of a sugar high, and added on with that great news with esther's baby on the way.. =)
Anyway, stanley's up first, then my boyfriend, haydern..
sorry haydern's picture isn't very clear..
He gave me a printed out picture.. so the quality's
obviously not as great as stanley's picture.. I got stanley's picture from Michelle, courtesy of charmaine.. =) through sending of files here and there..
Anyway, there you have it....
When I get Devon's..
(which, will be soon, and more teasing will go on) I will post it up...
So, enjoy those measley pictures, I bid you a good day...
I'm going to tease those two sisters of mine again!
Tata!!!!
29 more posts....
till it hits 200 posts...
Mood: it's just like that..
Um, I
HAD something in mind to post just now, but I've totally forgotten what already..
Nevermind.
Anyways, I'm going down to the old school today.. crap.. didn't tell mich... oh well..
umm.. lets see... going there with rica, then i'll be headed to her place to help her with some geekster's stuff (setting up a blog, teaching her html codings, transfer some new songs over) heh.. yeah, that means I'm bringing along my trusty lil' pocket portable hard disk.. heh heh..
yeah, well, that's about it then..
Oh, I had this weird dream just before I woke up.
What does it mean when you're in this toilet which so happens to be built into the tree roots, and you feel the whole tree moving, and you look out, you're moving with the tree... but when you're done with your 'business', you look out again, you're back at where the tree was originally at? What does it mean?
blah blee blue... bleargh...
now I see the usefulness in portable hard disks..
Mood: bored, exhausted
Yeah, I bought this portable hard disk a while back ago, well, Gary did, and I use it mostly, to store whatever little shit I want to store in it. It's dead useful, really. You can store songs, documents, software... well, it really depends how many gigs you have inside. We bought a 60-gig one I think.
*evil laugh*
It's dead useful..I can just transfer files over to rica's laptop
within seconds instead of having to transfer it over the net. (the ones transferred over the net
ALWAYS fails) at least with my trusty little gadget, I can be sure it gets transferred over properly! =) ooooh... mich, you like what I just typed? it's neat right? hahaha...
I bet devon would be like "oh, i've got one of those too... costly, but great to use!" hahaha..
Who's devon?
okay,
meet devon, a potential boyfriend for our dear michelle. (okay, that was mean of me to do that, but hey, it's just for laughs!) ;P
Anyway, Devon's
one out the two best friends of my boyfriend, haydern. The other fella's
Stanley, we'll talk about those two for today.
but, devon first.
He's this really wild guy, frequently going out clubbing, doing all sorts of wild stuff (but don't all guys do that too? heh) and well, like I said, he's a wild guy.
He's a really cool person, into computers like us
geeksters, doing up websites and if he likes doing websites, he probably loves IT gadgets, RP-gaming, and anything to do with computers.
Into watersports,
just like our dear michelle (you blushing yet?), he loves wakeboarding, but he does sailing too..
(aww mich.. you JUST have to blush now.. QUICK! blush! muahaha)And he loses his cool really fast too. He hates it when you play a bad joke on him.. (argh.. he just loves being the anti-climax, doesn't he?) but yeah, that's him...
Seriously, Devon would rather play the joke on you, rather than you on him. smart move.. muahaha.. so I have to construct a good plan to play a good joke on him... heh heh...
Then, there's Stanley. Stanley's a Shaw. as in, Shaw Organisation, Shaw Brothers, the cinema-organiser, Shaw.. yeah.. you get it? well, he's the son of the big boss running the Shaw Organisation. I think.
But, his father's company aside,
Stanley's this really hilariously funny guy.. He could get you laughing within 5 minutes after you chat with him, and added along with haydern and devon, it's non-stop laughter for your entire outing with them. (information courtesy of Charmaine)
I'd say Stanley would be the live wire among those three, he and Devon would be clowning away non-stop just to crack haydern up..
(they nearly crashed their plane when they showed the pilots THEIR own rendition of William Hung's "She Bangs". They were later told off by the cabin crew to shut up before the plane REALLY crashed.) I told haydern that they wouldn't need to hi-jack a plane just to crash it next time, all they had to do was to show their funny bones, and you'll get a crashed plane.
Anyway, Stanley's got his eyes on Charmaine. I had haydern talk to stanley, so that's how I know.. Devon told michelle too, didn't he, mich? hahaha... Char had a rather long chat with me, and we got to that topic, but she told me I couldn't tell haydern or michelle a single thing, so, yeah, sorry michelle... :S but when the time is right, I'll tell you, okay? she told me to keep a secret, and I have to keep it a secret...
Stanley used to be in his highschool's ice hockey team.. If I could, I'd post a small measley picture of him up here, along with haydern's.. but that's only if photobucket.com would get its bucket upright again and get moving. The server's down.. and really, it's so annoying when that happens..
Oh, back to our subject at hand, Stanley. Stanley's about a year or two younger than me. He loves doing any sports, but well, I guess he loves ice hockey lots.. haha.. looks like Mr Shaw's a school jockey huh? hahahha..
He models from time to time
(unlike haydern: I bet he'd just pose for his picture taken, that guy goes nuts if you told him to model) but haydern says
stanley's camera-shy. (mich, get your digicam ready, okay? hopefully I get mine by the end of the year.. muahah!)
Hmm... Stanley's really great with kids, (actually so are devon and haydern) they help out at this local hospital in sydney.. so if any readers in sydney, you just go visiting the hospital, you hear the kids in the pediatrics screamin',
"BROTHER HAYDERN!!!!" then you'll know.. they're in the house. lol.. The kids go wild when they're there.. just the other day, stanley baked some killa-tastin' brownies for them! hahaha..
But seriously, just by knowing these three great but utterly crazy guys, I'd say, I know life better like this, than any other time else. (well, I love laughing with my sisters too!)
I'm proud to have them as my friends, they're such wild and crazy fellas.. just like me! hahah!
heh heh heh...
i'm shoooo old...
Mood: exhausted..
Another 32 more posts, and I'll hit 200 posts, not too old around here I guess?
hahahaha!
Anyway, I submitted in my application form for the scholarship thing. I'm
only the 19th person in my school, but there's like over 50 applicants from NTU.. I do hope they give scholarships going on a
per school basis. I doubt I'll have a high chance of getting that scholarship, the guy standing next to me had full A's on his applications and he's from the University.. now, that ultimately sucks...coz i'm not that great with my work actually.
Oh, I was in the train today, and Ming, I really agree with what you said about the train thing. In her post the other day, on the
train, she was talking about some fella staring at a spot next to her, and it turned out to be the
NO SMOKING sign.
Today, I had a different incident.
It's that
"Let's all talk and laugh and heck them" and the mobile phone incident.
Most people were sleeping in the train, but there was this group of boys who were in the train, talking and laughing away.. I didn't pay much attention to them, I was paying direct attention to the girl seated in front of me.
She was busy typing on her mobile, sending out some messages. Once in a while, she'd stop, close her flip phone (it was a Samsumg X430) and then look up to the ceiling, stare at me, and then close her eyes and smile to herself. That's only after she sends out the message, probably to her boyfriend, I suppose.
It made me wonder of the many little things in life that people don't bother to stop and look at. I mean, look at david blaine. He had to do something so drastic (that new york thing,
Vertigo, i think), just to achieve something that would be considered as a little thing in life.
But with what that is so little, you don't really come to realise that it actually makes a deep impact in your life. Do you?
haha, so i'm getting all smart and philosophical today.. but anyway,
my point is, when you just concentrate on looking at everyone and observe what actually happens, it's actually in that moment of time when you find out the little things in life more worth while.. hahaha...
Oh, was reading your blog, Junie, (--___--||)
what's wrong with my smirk?
or my grin? makes you wanna run
far far FAR away, doesn't it?
Junius was doing his little "thank-yooou" notes for the people he knew. awww... I'm first on the list of your sisters huh? muahaha....
This is what he wrote:
"Angeline: Although many times I've been pissing you off with the so many things I couldn't do for u in the past, thanks for the understanding you gave. I couldn't thank you more with just a word of "thanks". Have been quite fun going out with you, walking in the rain, and taking numerous no-background neoprints, and sharing so many personal experiences with me in our countless MSN conversations. Pretty sweet-looking person plus a sweet character. Just one bad point, you are a just a devilish angel. Whenever people see a grin or smirk on your face, first thing to do is to run away from you. Haha..
Had pretty good memories with you as my sis, so yah.. have fun when you start school, dun be a slacker anymore yah? Meet up with ya soon. ( I know what I own you, dun have to remind me.. I'll always remember them. =D)"
heh heh heh... beware, I'm not as angelic as you'd think me to be. oh well...
It's fun scaring this 'brother' of mine. muahahaha.
oh my god. this is RIDICULOUS!
can't help but do another post for today..
Mood: in disbelief..
My god... i can't believe it.. scientists ACTUALLY came up with a MATHEMATICAL formula for the perfect joke!
In the papers today, it stated that the equation was:
"
x =
(fl + no)
p
and that takes into account the length of the build-up, the comedic value of the punchline and the groan-inducing qualities of puns.
The jokes are valued on a sliding scale from 0 to 200, with 200 being the funniest.
A value is determined by mulitplying the funniness of the punchline (f) by length of build-up(l) and adding that to the amount someone falls over(n) to the power of (o) -- the "Ouch" factor of pain or embarrassment. It is all then divided by the number of puns, which reduce laughter."
After reading that, I'm like 'What the fuck are these people PLAYING at?!?!' I mean, NOW you want to even EQUATE a JOKE?!?! How pathetic can these people get? That's completely stupid! ugh! That's utter rubbish you know?
It's all about the funny bones! I mean, if you put einstien up on stage to tell a joke... even if it's the best punchline with no puns, hell, he won't even pull it off!
Jeez!!!
This whole joke on having a mathematical formula for a joke... it's not funny.
whoever came up with the formula... like jezz said
"he is THE joke." get it?
You're the funny one now..
I'm gonna have the last laugh at you.
you should try Gmail
it's not advertising...
Mood: just bummed..
it's not for advertising, but g-mail's great.. you get like
1000MB free space to store all your mail, it's really cool.. you know, celebrities ought to get such e-mail servers. They could store as much mails from their fans all at once, although it might just run out sooner or later, there's always the deleting to be done.. lol..
But the thing is, you could store so much mail, it'll be impossible to see how much space you've got left. So, I really recommend everyone to try out Gmail.. it's cool. =)
One of these days, I'm gonna
do up my blog to the extent that I could use actual smilies on the blog content. not those typed out smilies like :) :P ;P =) =D that kinda thing.. but those
animated ones that you can find on the tagger's.
Awww... michelle left me
SIX BIG HUUUUUUGS!!! Mich, you're such a darling! mwah! hahaha... I just love my sisters so much..
Oh, to
Chris from Germany who left his pin in the Guestmap, thank you so much for that! You're probably the first one to do that.. basically coz I left
MY OWN PIN in
MY OWN GUEST MAP. can you believe how lame I can get when I'm bored? heh, well, that's that.
Chris, I tried visiting your site, but I couldn't understand a single thing that was there as I don't know German, except for that word
kontakt (that means
Contact, i know hehe!)... so I really didn't know what it was all about.. I think you're playing in a band? and it's called A Place to Hide ? Yeah? hahaha...
Cool! and all but the downloads section, yeah, I'll go check that one out. ;)
Thanks once again, on leaving your pin there!
The rest of you should follow suit and leave your mark on my guestmap. Here you have someone willing to let you leave your own mark on their property, yet you don't take that opportunity to do so! I just don't understand that rebel side of people. It's stupid.
Ooooh... I didn't see that comment there in my post..
To the
anonymous poster, heh, well, maybe you were concentrating hard on something else than on the pain, so maybe that's why you didn't feel a thing.. hahah.. well, different people have different pain resistance, that's what makes us all so different..
But, thank you for your comment, it's the
first time anyone's commented directly to my post like that. Once again, everyone should follow this anonymous poster's lead and post in the commentary to the posts. It'll be very much appreciated! ^__^
Alright, I'll just go meet my doom with my dad later.
I just remembered I have a testimonial to find, a scholarship application to complete and if I'm gonna submit in that application, I have to take out all those ear studs all over again.
Perhaps, I will take them off.
Mood: outta it...
Mainly coz I kinda pissed my mom off... I pierced my right ear... yes,
again. This time, it's a pair.. so i've got 3 holes in my ear lobe now.
It hurts like hell. Trust me, piercing two studs into your ear at one go isn't a fun thing. Well, it
IS fun... but it's not fun when it starts hurting..
But anyways, yeah, rica and debbie got their ears pierced too.. rica had one on her right ear and debbie had another one on top of her left ear.
Debra decided to take hers out though. She felt really bad about piercing her ear, her parents were really disappointed with her about it. No doubt, my mom yelled at me about it..
She even demanded a body check. "Show me your navel! NOW!" she even wanted to check if I pierced my nipples.. I think that's gross. Ears are enough. No navel, no nipples.. ewww....
Oh, and it's final. I'm never ever ever gonna get my ears or any body part pierced again. Nuh uh.. haha.. As my readers, you have witnessed that solemn vow that I just typed out.
Anyway, I feel like I'm burning up or something.. My skin feels cold and clammy and I feel darn hot inside. bleh.
Heh.. I went bowling with debbie and her younger cousin brother, Russell. I call him Russ. He's a cute boy. He looks like some American Born Chinese.. nice features and all. But for a boy at his age (he's 13), he's too perverted. What do they teach kids in schools these days? nothing but sex? he was telling me that a regular guy would think about sex like 238 times a day.
and breasts were "Two Bulging Things"... boys..
He's a major entertainment source to me today.. had me laughing quite the bit while watching him bowl. He did the Simpson's style bowling.. it was hilarious even though he had a strike and a spare in another round after that..Haha...he's like the little irritating brother that I have at home too. But one with more sense, that is.
Anyway, guess I'm making today's entry short. I still don't feel too good. (I took two hours to type this entry, so go figure.)
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
P.S. And Mich has the Lasalle-SIA Sports team jerseys...
NOT Harvard's... well, it's still cool! hahaha.. but I think Harvard would be cool too.. lol..
shit i'm late
Mood: excited
Today, I'll be going out at 1115hrs to meet my best friends, rica and debra..
Meet them. haha..
Alright, I'll just do simple introductions of them to you.
I've known those two crazy girls for 6 years already, ever since we were wee 13 year-olds.
Anyway, rica... she's always been the shy girl in class.. never speaks unless spoken to, never gets involved unless we make her participate... she's still quite the same as she was 6 years ago..
Debra.. she's the crazy one. She's a part-time model who hates modelling, she's skinny and rica and I constantly call her a science laboratory skeleton. She's still as wacky and crazy as ever as she was 6 years ago too..
They're both my bestest buddies I can find in my life.. always there to hear my constant whinnings and all that.. haha..
alright, I'm running late with meeting them..
I'll blog more when I'm home tonight.. =)
another new day comes to me
and here we go...
Listening to: Mich's fave ATM >> Jamieson ~*~ Complete
Mood: ladidah.. :P
no, there's no such mood, and there's no such word as "ladidah"...
Anyway, mich, you have great taste in music there.. love the beats to that.. ;)
Oh, meet
mich, short for
Michelle. I don't believe I have yet to introduce this wacky cool kiddo here.. ;)
Alright, this is
michelle, she likes being called chel. heh.. =P I met her when I was 15, and she 13.. when we first stepped and bumped into each other in our school club..
She's one of my most favourite people, and she's my 'sister'. That's coz we share quite alot of stuff in common. For one, we love the same music, so it's easy to pass her any song that I listen to. lol. And secondly, we're just
plain tom-boyish in front of alot of people, she's more girlish than I am though. (no, i will NOT and NEVER wear a skirt unless I deem fit.) Loves prep stuff like School Jerseys, school stuff.. she's got like this cool set of UCLA stuff (and she's begging for more), I think she's got Havard too (have you, or have you not? you gotta fill me in on that)...
Oh, and when we go shopping, we end up
eyeing the same things 80% of the time. Freaky when that happens, but sometimes not, if it's like the only one item left. But, I don't end up buying it anyways, coz I probably wouldn't use it anyway.
Well, mich's 'twin sis' to Charmaine, and Charmaine's probably one of my world's most favourite people. (she'll b one entire entry later) anyway, michelle and charmaine, they look
exactly alike from the back view, side-view and probably any other angle except the face-view. It's really hard to try figure who's who from the back view. Especially when they have similar haircuts and well, similar figures. I think they could easily swap clothes and all that.
Both
michelle, charmaine, and I, there're lots of things that just lets us click so well together.
One, is that we each have a core sport that's a specialised sport and we're just pissed that our sports aren't official clubs in school.
Mich, takes sailing. I bet she's got her own yacht and all that..
Charmaine, is one tennis lover. She's got her own tennis court, I think. (that's what I think I last heard)
And I, have golf. Me with the country club membership, daddy's wallet, and a killer driver shot of 190 yards. Yeah, I got my set of clubs that cost me like $2500 with the bag. putter not included.
Two, we found each other in the same club that we were in,
Choir. (so, we're athletes that sing, hooray! -_-')
Three, we just don't take piss from people and let them get away with it.
Four, there was a few occasions where we ran all around school, and we get mistaken for each other again. (yes, this time, I'm included)
Five, my boyfriend's prescence let's us talk. (my boy is best friends with charmaine, and good friends with michelle)
But anyway, this entry is solely for michelle, my dear girl.. lol.. ;P
Yea, you're a dear person to me, I probably can't have you not being my 'sister', that'll be just outrageous.. haha..
She's always cheerful when she's still bothered by some matter or the other, unlike other girls who would just break down at every small thing.
She can be stubborn too.. haha.. my mom once said she had this really stubborn-rebel look on her face, and I'd agree with my mom, coz there ARE a few occasions where she was rather stubborn to have things done her way. (don't ask me to recall, coz I've forgotten it, but I have an inkling that I've seen you being stubborn before) But you've said it yourself the other day,
it's a self-confessed flaw.. lol..
She's an avid digital photographer too.. we constantly take pictures using her funky little digicam when we go out. =) (people think we're mad, but so WHAT?) hahaha...
The many times we can crap together, it's really really fun! And I truly enjoyed any and all times that we had fun together.. =) oh, she was the only sole person who would agree to climb that
spider's web with me at the park during that barbeque. (it's this HUGE 20-foot pole with ropes tied to it, it's like a tangled net such that it looks like a web, therefore, spider's web)
When we meet up again (which is soon), and if it's not too crowded at the web, let's go climb it again, alright? =)
okay, I think that'll be enough for now...
Next up, Charmaine.. my other 'sis'..
Take care kiddos, and the adults who read this insane blog of mine... ;) peace.
Till then, write later..
*~Au Revoir~*
P.S: give me some hugs! it's miserable.. ZERO hugs?!? Aw man... y'all just dampen my mood... =(
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