2003-12-31

Responses, responses... :) Topics responded for today..
(refer to Jezzeler's blog)

Faith
Many would know, I am definitely not up for a conversation that's dealing with religion, or parts of it with snippets of religion put into it. (long story, but to make it short: 9 years of catholic teachings drilled into a buddhist's mind, with all extremes of preachings involved.. i had to sit in together with others for mass, the only thing I enjoyed was the Homily. Whatever that meant, but the philosophy of it, were at times enlightening when the minister was just speaking in terms of common sense.)

But anyways, just to talk on faith alone. Faith is like trust. It is the basics of basics in terms of the fundementals of putting a part of your personal space in the hands of someone whom you have a strong enough bond with. In order to trust a person, or an animal, or even your ball-point pen, you have to have that little bit of faith.

In my perspective, Jezz, I think Faith and Trust, these two subjects (how else can I call them?) are a married couple.. they complement each other perfectly well. It's like the only natural thing to do.

(heh.. in all truth.. I didn't read all of what you've written there.. the green is just killing me... Pastel colours go best with black)

But anyways, faith... is this universal thingy that sorta like holds and bonds people and the world together.. Don't really know what sense I'm making into this... but --- oh, nevermind. Next part of the topic...



Trust
I strongly agree that trust is a... Trust thing. hahaha... okay, no sense in that.. Let me try again.. Trust, is usually a mutual thing that's really very misunderstood. It kinda blows things out of proportion most of the time.

Well, see... since trust is more like a mutual thing, you tend to assume that the other person knows how much trust you lay in them.
However, it is important to acknowledge the fact that Trust, is like Love. You HAVE to say it to let it be known. you have to be totally frank when you trust a person. That's how you get the things done your way sometimes..

Just recently, I've been lied to by a person whom I thought I could trust. Rather pissed off and a whole load of disappointed as I was, it took me some time to think things through.
I realised, I didn't tell that friend of mine how much I trusted him. Rather, I just told him what sort of trust I put in all my close friends. I treated him like a close friend, in fact, he was rather dear to me. I'm afraid he still is, even though he's lied to me(i think).

So you see.. You have to tell people exactly how much you trust them. Make it known. show it, say it, write it out. Coz only then, you can gain the person's trust and you can in the same time, he/she would gain your trust too.

In trust, honesty plays a HUGE part. I must emphasize on that. Honesty plays a really really huge part. You'd agree with me, that you'd only trust a person when he or she is extremely honest. Honest as in sincerity, truthfulness and humbleness.

Don't you think so too?

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well, it's friggin' 0136, 1 Jan 2004!!!!
Happy New Year everyone!! :D *does a new year's dance and makes LOADS of noise*

anyways, I have no idea what I was talking about..
Perhaps, if my mind is clear tomorrow, I will re-do this response thingy....

but..
As of now,
I'm going to sleep. Zzz....

Revelations again...

Ever knew or remembered how much it's like to be a kid all over again?
I bet that feeling is so fleeting, you can't recognise it most times.
That's just because you were enjoying that short period of time so much and you were too busy filing away that ghost of a memory, to even enjoy and savour that feeling, of being a kid.

Often times, I have many childish antics that I do and say that triggers those care-free feelings. Albeit quite cruel, but I get the fun out of it. Yes, I love people dissing. *sheepish grin* But other than that, having just plain teasing fun with my lovable friends sets off care-free childish feelings too.

But, you know, I hardly remember things from my childhood that has happy feelings and care-free thoughts.. It's only the darker side of childhood that many remember. Like how we got punished for doing a simple wrong thing. Or how we fell down and got our knees scrapped while practising for the B-ball Inter-schools Zone competitions. It's the painful, sad stuff that we tend to remember.

I suppose we only remember them coz it's part and parcel of how the brain works. I don't know.. I'm just assuming that the brain remembers the mistakes far well better than the good stuff so that with these filed up memories of mistakes, it'll be like a constant nagging reminder not to repeat that same mistake another time.

I think it'll be better though, if one could remember the good stuff better. The brain allows that too... just that it allows that only when you're in the extremes. Meaning, when you're at your wits' end. On the verge of giving up hope, only then, the ghost of a good memory would come up. It also highly depends on how you work. Would you continue being that negative? Your brain has given you little hope, it's really up to you to fight your own battles.

But anyway, back to the topic at hand... As I was saying on how the extremes.. I've touched on one extreme, the other would be when you have everything going on perfect for you. It's only in the times when you don't take things for granted, then things start going the way you want it to be. Like just being plain humble. Yea, I guess if you were plain humble, you'd remember stuff better. I think that's because you don't give too much thought to comtempt and greed or any other ill thoughts that lead to corruption of the mind.

I think you get what I mean by now... but just give this a further thought in your free time.. :)

2003-12-30

heh...

just decided i liked the piccies... so, here you are!


Dark
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Quizzies!!!

I do hope these turn out fine....


innocent kiss
innocent kiss - you're cute and sweet and like it
that way


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mysterious
You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.


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You are DORY!
What Finding Nemo Character are You?

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cho
You're chocolate. You're the old soul type, people
feel that they have known you their entire
life. Many often open up to you for they view
you as thoughtful and trustworthy. Although
people trust you, you have a hard time trusting
them. You prefer to keep your feelings bottled
up inside, or display them very quietly. It is
alright to open up every once in a while.


Which kind of candy are you?
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legolas
Congratulations! You're Legolas!


Which Lord of the Rings character and personality problem are you?
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Artistic
You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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Beautiful
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My inner child is sixteen years old today

My inner child is sixteen years old!


Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.


How Old is Your Inner Child?
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You're Betty Boop!
Bettie Boop


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spearmint
You are Spearmint.
You are quick-witted and sharp. You pay close
attention to details and you can tell what your
friends are feeling. You are always the first
to understand a joke and you are valued for
your insight and advice. However, you
sometimes isolate yourself from other people,
afraid to share your own feelings.
Most Compatible With: Cinnamon


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Your Heart is Red


What Color is Your Heart?
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kiss my ass2
congratulations. you are the kiss my ass happy
bunny. You don't care about anyone or anything.
You must be so proud


which happy bunny are you?
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Neo Queen Serenity
Neo Queen Serenity: You are mature and responsible,
you have to be. You have saved the world from
ruination, and are the mother of your dear
Small Lady Chibi-Usa. Saving the world took a
lot out of you, and your powers are not what
they once were.


Which Version of Sailor Moon are You? (v1.5)(Pretty Pictures Included)
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HA!! Revelations!

No doubt, they're lame ones...

1)
a) More and more people are leaning into negativity nowadays.
b) Most of them are in their late teens.
c) Alot of these people are in denial.
d) They think the world is out to get them.
e) I honestly think that they've got an identity crisis to solve.

2)
a) The happy people around me are just too happy.
b) They reek of such happiness, one could barf at it.
c) Their optimism is not as effective as before.
d) They sometimes try too hard. And you can see that.
e) I honestly think they've got inner battle issues to solve.

3)
a) My parents aren't as strict as I may describe them to be.
b) They're lovely and extremely practical people.
c) Too practical, I might add.
d) On the whole, they're the typical parents.
e) They haven't got any issues to settle; lest for the fact they comment too much sometimes.

4)
a) Being mature wasn't as hard as I think it to be.
b) Acting my age is even much more simple than I thought.
c) Being immature is a silly thing. Silly, but fun.
d) Being mature means paying a lifetime craziness in many degrees.
e) Yes, I might have some issues to solve as well.



Er... four lame and might I add, useless revelations. But, all for the fun reading! (^__^)

Response to today's topic... of Dreams and Ambitions..

As always, you think what I think once more, Jerry..(or Jeremy,or -- whatever..) Getting abit miffed over that.. but nevermind, I will try to take a different perspective along the same lines.. Although it ends up like some garbled nonsense all the time.


Dreams, simply put, are the wants of something that are sometimes usually out of grasps. More like a fantasy, or having a state of mind characterised by abstraction or the momentary release from reality.. That's what dreams are made of.

Often the motivation of most sorts, dreams are like fogged-up aspirations of a person. My perspective, thus far, is that Goals, ambitions and the like are spun from the miss-matched form of dreams. I do suppose you could put it this way: There's nothing short of persuing a dream you've always dreamt of. Dreams itself, are the causing determination-factor that drives most people to achieve them. They can often times be unrealistic, and the world usually call such dreams: DayDreams. haha, yes, day dreams.. like building castles in that air... That's why most people just laugh themselves foolish of thinking of having unrealistic dreams.


What of Ambitions? The actual, technical fact that the term 'Ambition' is a synonym to 'Dreams' sets it rather confusing for many. Me, included. After searching for its actual meaning, the term is rather quite far from a dream. No pun intended.

Ambitions, according to WordNet(r)0.2 (not new, i know, but the base-line meaning is there) states that it is "a strong drive for success", and ofttimes "a cherished desire". Likewise to what Jezzeler has touched on, it is another level slightly higher than a dream. Ambitions are very often found in today's political society. That drive to perfection, that will to succeed, the need for status and power. Those are just plain biased examples.

One could suppose that Ambitions are just dreams that are prepared to take off for its long and no doubt, bumpy ride ahead. It is a dream with an intention. A dream with substance, as what one part of my mind is reeling to say now. A dream with a need. A dream that is wanting to be completed. I could give you many other descriptions of what an ambition is, but it'll bore you endlessly. But if ambitions are said to be a cherished desire, I do suppose that's how we get the baddies in all societies of all times of Human kind.

But all that aside, I am still wondering what my dreams and ambitions are...
Leaving you with yet an infamous quote that one often thinks of when considering the options of their amibitions:

"To be; Or not to be: That is the question." --- Hemlet.

Weee!!!!!!!!! Thanks to Jerry (and here i thought his name was Jeremy?? *thinks real hard then shrugs* ah... Jerry or jermey... no big deal.. it's just a name!) for that tip on that resource window thingy...

but.... I'm so darn proud of meself! *hugs self*
erm, right.
*big grin*

but seeing those linkies there... whahaha!!!! major boost in making this blogger look gooood...
(^-^) what? don't think I can't see you chuckling at that corner!
*narrows eyes and clears her throat in a dignified manner*

oh, you're all full of tosh as well! Hmph! *proud snotty look*

But, you gotta admit right... For a stupid IT-illerate like me... this isn't too bad!! oh well...
get back later!

So, I've decided: start my own little musings while here..

Oh, a few links to the world outside and around me...

Gary's (my older bro)
Jerry's
Junius's
and... my Class of 2003

these are just few of the places I love to hang out at:

Profile @ FaceParty
Harry Potter FanFictions(mostly Drco/Ginny stuff)
Lord of the Rings FanFictions
a column I love reading endlessly..
Jonathan Parker's way of flowing a fan-ta-bulous writer, his words are soothing and oddly.. nice.
My Sanctuary to relieve my words at.. Psst.. Please join!! it's a wonderful place to be at!!! Aside from constant craziness, of course.. (^-^)
Be a person to be MAD!! Volunteer stuff, really... but, it'll be really nice if you could help the needy around!!
Tristen's tears Another fan-ta-bulous writer, I must add! Leans more to depression, but it's a beautiful world..


And to end it all... A link to whom I feel is the best author ever to grace this Earth..
Raymond E. Feist


I'm just about half done with "Magician" actually.. I must say, it's a really nice book. Easy to put down if you're not at it's more entising parts. But, it'll just lure you back for more, as always. A good read if you're done with Lord of the Rings. (Wonderfully christened by Jeremy's friend as "Lord of the Urine"... now, really...)

While I'm quite done with all this aristocratic tosh, heehee.. it's time for me to get back to my regular 17-year old self... and just be plain crappy for now.. don't ya think so? I mean, come on!!! I can't be THAT serious all the time...! I'd DIE of.. of.. erm.. well, I'll die of SOMETHING!! *frowns*

ahh well... hahaha... Gary said he'd give me a crash course later on web designing and all that!! YAY!!! (^--^) no more bloggie lookin' like some freak website!! hahaha... okay.. *cough* *cough*
anyways, before I end it off for now, Just wishing one and all, Happy holidays, and have a great NEW YEAR ahead!!! *throws confetti around first* HA! I get to celebrate WAAAAAY before hand... nyah! *makes a face and rans off laughing her butt off*

(yes, crappy exit.. but who cares?!?! *smirks*)


As of now,
Laters...

okay, I think I've messed up my blog... *makes a face* oh damn... damn... DAMMIT!!!

2003-12-29

Response to today's topic...


Knowledge
I have been spending like 20 minutes pondering on what knowledge really is all about. And again, you�ve got part of what I though of written out already so this will be a short one. Knowledge is the knowing of something. A form of revelation to one. However, with knowledge, one can always choose not to use it. For some knowledge isn�t as helpful to one in one way or another. Yes, Knowledge is good, and it�s evil as well. Depends on how you see it. You�ve stated the uses of knowledge very clearly, might I add� Often, most knowledge that one has gain, it is purely for the benefit of himself, and not for others, right? While I always read and come to know of many things by accident, or just totally out of curiosity, most of the knowledge gained is to the benefit of my own and not others. Selfish as it may sound, that�s how it is.
And while knowledge is power, I don�t think knowledge equals to corruption. It is only due to greed that leads to corruption. You, yourself, will be a doctor soon. And as a doctor, you have the knowledge to the human anatomy at its greatest. If you say that knowledge is power and power corrupts a person, wouldn�t that mean that you evidently will become corrupt after being a knowledgeable person in the fields of science? Power doesn�t corrupt a person; it is greed and hunger for more power that corrupts a person. Take that in mind� It is good to hear that you guard yourself with that particular oath. Often times, that oath is broken in the political society.

Wisdom
Well, wisdom� is the ability to apply knowledge, common sense and insight on something. Not a very good definition, but I will try to explain it along the way. A quote I picked out from an online dictionary:

�Common sense in an uncommon degree is what the world calls wisdom.� --Coleridge.

I do suppose wisdom is rather more like being sharp and observant to whatever that happens around you and being able to keep your cool and calm when in the most atrocious and anxious of situations.. And yea, I agree, wisdom comes with greater responsibility� and is only often given to those who has a certain degree of maturity, tact and knowledge. You�d have to agree� the most evil of people can sometimes be rather wise. Sometimes being the keyword.

And leaving you with one last quote, from Cowper:

Knowledge and wisdom, far from being one,
Have ofttimes no connection. Knowledge dwells
In heads replete with thoughts of other men;
Wisdom, in minds attentive to their own.
Knowledge, a rude, unprofitable mass,
The mere materials with which wisdom builds,
Till smoothed, and squared, and fitted to its place,
Does but encumber whom it seems to enrich.
Knowledge is proud that he has learned so much;
Wisdom is humble that he knows no more.

In response to Jezzeler's... this was yesterday's topic, btw..


Love
In my short span of 17 years of life, I have only seen and known two sorts of love of which you speak of, Athos and Agape Love. Sincerely, I have never heard of their formal names, but know of them like alphabets at the back of my palm.

You�ve described Athos love as brotherly love, sibling love, and basically love that can be formed between close bonds to people whom one can relate their everyday lives to. I think I relate Athos love as a love of understanding. A love started through an event that bonds two different people together.

Anyways, how come you always say what I want to say? Hrrrmph� no fair��

On to Agape love. Perfect love, huh? A love to acquire peace� it is not impossible, and it�s certainly not elusive. The path to this perfect love that you speak of is simple. Yes, easier said than done, I agree� but think of it this way, haven�t you heard of the old dreary saying �Love thyself before loving others�? I think that�s the first step to Agape love. I mean, you don�t have to be 100% in love with yourself to start on Agape love. Just be 90% satisfied with yourself, you do need a bit of negativity to persuade yourself to be upgraded with the skills you thought you knew after all. No one being is perfect. Being satisfied, in the terms of personality and charisma, character and poise. Not physical beauty. I�m sure you�d have figured that out by now. I think I�ve passed that test, the one on loving my enemies. For I�ve yet to find myself hating anyone as of yet. Sure, lots of people get on my nerves all the time, but I just can�t seem to bring myself to hate the source of dispute. I suppose reason being that they just looked like they could use some love themselves. And whilst after learning to love an enemy (yes, I really have learnt how to love thy enemy�), the struggle to attain agape love will prove to be difficult, but eventually not impossible. Like you�ve pointed out, Mother Theresa is one figure of which we can look up to as an example of agape love. And I�m sure if you keep in mind on being satisfied with your well-being, and continue to persevere a sense of compassion for others, you just might attain that perfect love you seek for.

And then to the love called Eros. Bleh� never being one to dwell in such pettiness of such a love that requires much deep commitment and attention to another person besides my family, I haven�t got much to say in this love. In fact, I haven�t any say in this matter! However, this love proves to be the only way people care for each other, on the consideration that they are not related by blood. Often, this love is more of a life-vow. A ceremony is often needed to complete the vows of two totally different individuals to remind each other of this love. Often misleading, most people fall into the traps of this mischievous and often wonderful love. (as what I�ve heard from most) Whilst being misled most of the times, often few are seen to have achieved this love. And with this love attained, these people learn to appreciate their lives more than before.



Compassion
To me, compassion comes like a second nature. Often described by most as mercy mixed with love, as how you�ve described it yourself, I feel that compassion is rather more of consideration and sympathy for another. Love itself is a package. But compassion is the bigger package that�s got love in it, I suppose. Within compassion, you�d find little appreciative things like love, consideration, of course sympathy� and most definitely, a lot of goodwill.
And while compassion is one package, it is packed into that other package called mercy, along side with that other term called leniency.

In other words, one would feel a deep awareness and sympathy for another�s sufferings and you wish to alleviate that suffering. This is often found in Agape love. (who said agape love is impossible? =p it�s just not sustained long enough)
Compassion is not hard to find within the scrapped tops of many�s icebergs. If you get what I mean.. Anyways, I was trying to say that everyone has compassion, be it big or small. I know I�ve been told that I�ve got a big-heart. But, I can be contradictive to that statement sometimes.

But, yes, true to your words, you do get what you deserve all the time. In my religion, we believe in karma and all that. While it all sounds highly annoying and preachy and ridiculous, its words are often true, you get what you truly deserve. As of which, when you show great love for others, you will receive what you give in bountiful amounts in the end, no matter how late these rewards come to you. ( I am straying off topic!!! Aack!!)

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Today...

was an utterly boring day. Well, having to deal with a friggin' headache, the only way to ignore it totally was to immerse myself in that storybook I snipped from Gary. It worked! I am nearing half that novel now.. at 208 pages so far.. it's 681 pages thick. But i'll manage it, I think... once I finish that piece of chem hm/wk jeremy's given me, then, I can delve into that book like how a hungry wolf would to it's freshly slaughted prey. well, will post more later... another response to jeremy's topic today..

2003-12-28

And yet, once again, I have been left to ponder on my past. A past, to which I would rather dismiss off with a wave of my hand, as a case of a very pathetic sob story.

Alas, to which is true, my life's past is rather morbid, to an extent, but highly ridiculous. Whilst you read my riddled words (yes, too much LotR, i must admit), read into my mind, body and soul.. tell me, dear stranger, how is it, that my life, speaks of so little, yet is exxagerated so much by my own? *ponders*

Ever since a little girl, I've been ignored. well, felt ignored, by my own relatives. My aunts and uncles always ignored and shunned me, like i was some plague... while many of you out there would love to cuff me 'round my head to tell me to 'get over it', do remember, I am one who dwells in my past more often than I would prefer to do so.

but that's besides the point.. (just a fair warning, I like skipping around in my thoughts... it gets highly confusing) Just recently, I have been stumped by one whom I though I could trust deeply. Known to me as a person of such noble grandeurs, such amazing interests and wonders in his life, alot of my close friends think this person to be too good to be true. Yes, I am talking of Fabio. But, whether he is a real person or not, remains a mystery to me. why would I say that? Just not but a few days back, I found a picture (an exact replica) of a boy in a magazine, with the name of Glenn Lee. However, the other picture that fabio gave me, was the exact same one. My friends deduced that he lied to me. I was led to think that way too, and not thinking things through, I sent fabio a harsh warning. But then again, that's besides the point. A person, a friend, a trusted companion, actually betrayed my trust..

Devastated as I was, making me highly unaware of my surroundings, leaving me in my deep thoughts, I was robbed. Robbed of my mobile phone.. my only way of communicating with the outside world. literally. All the phone numbers that I had, all gone. Nothing left. Robbed, of a friendship, I thought I had forged.

The feeling of depression and betrayal, along with a sudden rip away from something plus someone I hold dear to me, now, that isn't something I really expected! I've been through heartbreaks after heartbreaks. Of which many have been Agape love and Athos love... something about universal love and brotherly love.. Eros love, I have yet to experience.
Friends have died, so have kins of mine. Strangers whom I have never known, have died too.. I mourned for them, yes, have I mourned for them. It came in many ways, but all in one familiar emotion. Of sadness, of grief. Wave after wave of sadness will wash and crash down upon me. Yet, I still stand today. To watch your loved ones die or vanish before your very eyes, I am sure that is not one many seek to have. I think I may have grown accustomed to this pain. This heart-wrenching pain that is too familiar to me. For I am not even the slightest angry, nor sad that a friend has betrayed my trust for him. nor am i saddened that I have been robbed of my only prized possession.

Many find me eccentric. I probably am. I tend to contradict myself too many times in my simple, yet complicated life. I hardly make any sense to myself, yet I speak the clearest of words in the worst ever situations I find myself stuck in with many others.
Many find me silly, for selflessly giving up my own free time to volunteer to do things for others, when I could easily do the same thing for a price of monetary values.
Yet, I do not seek money. Not at this point of time. What I seek of, is acceptance. What I seek of, is to see the smiles of others, knowing that it is I, who set those smiles on their faces, and not others.

But sadly, no one sees that. They stereotype me somehow. dunno how they do that, but they just do...


ah well...
this will be continued, later...

As of now,
Laters...

2003-12-27

This, was a comment in reply to Jeremy's lil entry on Passion and Determination... bleh.. i think i hardly made ANY sense...

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Like you said, Passion, "is a strong desire for something or someone to an extent that it permeates your entire heart, body and soul." Rather, it's more or less and intense and indescribable emotion to your opinion. Pardon me if I sound rather biased on matters like these. I can be quite controversial in such matters, but these matters are meant to be that way.. Back to the topic at hand.. (yes, i AM the short-attention spanned kiddo around here!)

Truth be told, I have yet to feel such a thing as passion. I mean, I have yet to grasp hold of something that makes me commit myself down totally to the subject at hand. You'd argue, saying that my love for the knowledge on Genetics is a passion to begin with. But, nah... not true.. that's just an interest that has captivated me for a rough estimation of 3 years.

To have a passion for something, would be much more than just daydreaming of something to happen. (like all that day-dreaming of being a genetic scientist one day..) To have a passion, would be to put my entire heart and soul to it (just like what you've said) and also to have an undying, unconditional love for the subject concerned. hmm.. i'm clearly just repeating your words aren't i?
But to hold on to a passion and make that passion stuff all come true, it'll be to exert all will-power and determination to get it done, no matter how long it may take. It'll be to put yourself in a little world, where it's just you and what you love to do. Having a passion, descibed best, is like having a job which you love sooooo soooo sooooo much and you just can't let go of that job, not unless that passion runs dry. (but that's hardly the case) And to have a passion, is to make so many sacrifaces that no one in their right mind would make. You'd give up anything just to do it. It becomes your life-time commitment and dedication.

I guess I'd agree that Passion can be quite indescribable at times.. and that it's just like a dance and what not that is there that a person would make absolute use of when stranded by himself on that determination to get his goal completed. (it's friggin' 0137hrs... i'm going to get stoned here again)


Take that LoTR trilogy as an example (i'm just gonna infuse determination along with passion from now on, yah? just need to go get that chem book completed) If you've read The Fellowship Diary, you'd see Passion infusing with determination at it's climax. You can feel the real essence of Passion that the actors have on dealing with the filming of the trilogy. I would say that Peter Jackson (director of LoTR) and Viggo Mortensen (Aragon) were the two people that stuck me most and left me in awe and wonder. Their passion is like an undying symphony, a music so melodious, even you'd be in awe.

An excerpt I took out from the fellowship diary, a statement from Sean Bean on directer Peter Jackson, "Peter Jackson is an incredible director. He's very on top of things and thoroughly researched...and he knew exactly what he wanted and what was happening at any particular time on any set. He had a little bicycle so that he could peddle to the next set.... "

And like I said earlier, about passion being such like a life-time commitment and dedication thing, I think that lies in the naked truth for Viggo, in a statement from co-star Liv Tyler (Arwen), "I�ve never seen anybody in my whole life work as hard as Viggo Mortensen. The guy did not complain once. He never got a massage. He never took a day off. He just worked every second. Even on the days off, he�d go horseback riding or do something that was related (to the film). "

In it's plain glory, that is passion to me. You immerse yourself so deeply into what you love to do, such immense dedication for something that you live the way you ought to live when being in the climax of fulfilling that passion for the subject at hand. But I guess in passion with the aid of determination, one wouldn't get the success that most would seek. It's only because everyone has their own defination of their passions and what they obsess on, that sets each other apart.

For some, it may to be a doctor, and to help others, whilst for some, it's to be a military general, to fight for the country, while for others... their passion is just to be their plain simple selves. (well, there ARE such cases)

However, to have that immense dedication and commitment and love to the work that one is doing, that, is passion. To carry on that passion, is where determination comes in. It aids in going on with the passion that one has. However, determination is often easily lost. (although always regained as easily)

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and whilst I spent my entire afternoon walking around with Ken and Jeremy in town today (coz we saw such a MASSIVE crowd at the cinemas...) and got stumped at how girly some gays could get.. yes, I'm stumped... literally disgusted at some too... ew.... jeremy, I swear you get grosser everytime I meet up with you... :S ahhh.... well...
wonders of having crazy friends.. heh heh!
Wait!
doesn't that make me MAD as well? *ponders*

*shrugs*

ahhh well... like I care about my sanity.. muahhaha!!!
anyway, about 10 odd pages of chemistry notes to read... ciao!!!


Catching up with the books,
Laters...

2003-12-26

another post, for another day..
hahah... like what Jezzeler (aka Jermery) told me, "A post a day only lah.."
hahaha... yeah well.. perhaps it'll be like 2-3 posts a day, who knows?

*grins*
I think Eugene and I are rather much alike..
We have our friends, but none of them really appreciates us..
Well, not all my friends appreciate me.. guess I mix around with the wrong sort of people..
They see me in a different way.
I have no idea what way, but I do know that it's in a different way.

That aside.. Things to ponder on today... hahah... i have no idea what to ponder on...
We'll see what Jezzeler writes in his blog later.. and we'll see what comments I have to post about it..

As of now,
Laters...

2003-12-25

alright... it's been a looooooong time since i've done this... thing..
so popularly known as.. Blogging.

but anyways.. this is all i've done so far. It looks like shit. i mean honestly! what's up with those statues at the side? (in case you're wondering, no, i didn't do this template.. i just chose the best out of the worst..)

Anyways, thanks to the constant nagging of my evil older brother.. this is my web blog..
i refuse to do a website.. (he says i'm totally hopeless at designing stuff, which, under serveral good and constructive circumstances, I so totally agree with him.) *grimaces*

ahh well, while I lose out in the artistic category, I choose to excel in the linguistic field.
Hope I talk some sense while typing this out. It's rather much confusing 'talking' to oneself in this manner. *chuckles*

okay okay, i'll cut the crap here and buzzz off..
catch up laters...