hmm.... i'm tired.. so so tired
Listening to: Hilary Duff ~*~ Come Clean
Mood: *tired*ExHauSteD*
hahah... didn't update for one day and junie's asking why...
funny shit lah, that guy..
Anyways.. I was kinda out of it yesterday.. so busy and then I was rather tired out already.. so didn't update.. don't think I'd trust what I type..
Okay.. hmm... Yesterday.. went out at 9, came home at 11...
let's see yah... went with mom to the clinic.. walked down from Hg Polyclinic to Hg Mall to develop that roll of photos.. then, went down to school to give Charmaine the biology notes.. and then went home to get something, only to be called out by mom again.. met up with her later to have lunch.. and then after that, went to Cheng San Library to search for some books that Gary needs to read.. Found them, but I have to go to Orchard Library to get them.. Then.. I met up with Rica.. she had an interview to go.. needed someone to accompany her.. after that, we went to orchard library.. and went home after that. When I got home.. I only came online for an hour odd... only to remember I had to collect the photos.. coz I had to get a letter sent to fabio asap, with the pics too.. so ran out to get the pics.. nearly got knocked down by two cars along the way, got to Hg Mall, only to realised that I had forgotten to bring that slip of paper that I needed to get in exchange of my photos.. And then when I got home at about 6.40pm, mom told me that I had to go to some acrobatic show with my aunt.. I reluctanly obliged.. haha.. but it turned out to be a really amusing show.. got home thru Mr. Yeo's car.. and stepped into the comfort of my home at 11pm..
Phew! now.. that's a mouthful!
Well, while at school yesterday.. that visit was, to say the least, rather emotional and happy... haha.. seeing all my juniors.. they're all like my little sisters.. (even though I don't have an official and blood-related sister) I miss them so much.. and then, they asked about studying and all that.. it just brought back such a forceful blow of memories, you know? Happy, sad, angry, angsty, depressing, amusing.. all the memories.. ahaha.. and I'm surprised to even hold back the flood gates in front of the girls.. It was kinda hard.. and weird.. haha.. guess I've just stepped up another stone in my life.. oh well..
Rica was to go to Grand Central Hotel for her interview.. She was really nervous.. and very very unprepared.. she didn't bring an extra copy of her resume, no certificates, no thought-of answers, no nothing.. just herself, and a overly-matured look of 23 in a 17 year old girl.. >.< weird..
Oh.. and I went on a spending spree yesterday too.. bought stuff from PS.. that Fila sale they were having. I bought this nice Lime Green T-Shirt for Gary.. he was happy.. haha... ^^ at least he likes it.. *grins* and then, this khaki duffel bag.. and this other weird bag.. haha.. cost me about $50... mom yelled at me for spending so much money.. :S oh well.. not gonna spend the next month or so.. :S haiz.. Have to save up for University fees.. ^^
The acrobat show was amusing.. but the audience was terrible.. the troupe was performing such gracious acts.. and that stupid old man was just talking sooo damn loudly..
oooh... I was watching this trio doing Acrobatic Ballet.. and omfg.. they were so poised.. and graceful.. there was a contortionist too.. and my gods.. the contortionist
actually did ballet on the guy!!! yes, ballet on a human who was doing ballet too.. ballet on a ballerina! Can you believe that? It was just soooo soooo soooo beautiful! It'll most definitely be a memory worth remembering.. ^^ only coz I get to see it before the Royal Family in Britain gets to see them perform!! but that's not all.. there were so many beautiful acts.. Like the "Jovial Diabolos"... that was really chinese, and really graceful... really
gu niang.. loved that..
Well then... today.. what did I do today.. I went out to deliver the letter to fabio.. I had to go to Char's Grandma's place to post it into her mailbox.. Fabio told me... well, I can't tell you.. but anyways.. He was really depressed.. and so was Devon and Stanley too.. and coz all three of them were so depressed, char was depressed too.. and that made me equally depressed too.. actually it made me so much more depressed too.. haha.. I wonder how I managed to pull off such a cheerful facade today.. ^^ that's so weird.. usually if I'm just depressed, my feelings would be skimming all over my shirt sleeves as bright as day.. and I'd be so cold and mean..
haha.. I remembered how I was informed of each and every death of my loved ones.. no way it's gonna just run off like that.. Jan's.. was.. a shock. I don't want to talk about Jan.. it still makes my heart just shatter just thinking of her.. :(
And grandfather's was during English Remedial.. Mrs Poi was giving us remedial.. and some couselling at the same time.. Sharon Sng, Rica, Ninah, Joyce and Yan Fen were there when it happened.. my mobile was just ringing and ringing and ringing.. and I just stood up, and walked out of the classroom.. and answered the phone. Dad told me to get out of class that instant and go down to TTSH to bid my first farewell to the dead grandfather.. I wasn't really shocked.. coz I knew he would die.. 2 days before he passed away, I visited him. He thought I was my mom.. coz I look exactly like mom... well, not exactly, but I have a really strong resemblence to her. It hurt so much to watch him call out to a person who wasn't there with such sadness.. :'( I kept telling mom to go visit grandfather.. but she didn't want to.. saying she'd go two weeks later.. I knew he was gonna go within the next few days.. but noooo... she wouldn't listen.. not till I insisted soo badly for her to go. then she went..
she was 2 hours late.
And grandmother's.. her's was very very stressed up. They wanted her in an old folks' home. she wanted just to go home.. but they wouldn't allow... haiz.. they meaning my relatives.. so, on the day before she was to go to the Old Folks' Home, she choked on food and slipped into comatose.. I saw her only four days before that happened.. then going to the hospital to visit her from then.. was pure torture to me.. oh man.. i can't go on about it.. :'(
Anyways.. Charmaine said fabio's to call me.. but haha.. I accidentally hung up on him.. :S heh.. he hasn't called back since.. oh well.. in due time, he'll explain himself to me..
I'm tired. very very tired. and depressed. and nervous. and anxious. and scared. and apprehensive. and angry. and stressed. and... and... well...
and sad.
just sad.
yea.
why's the deleted stuff still on the blog?
Listening to: --
Mood: -- *just don't get me angry*
err... We've got a problem, Michelle.. Can't find the post.. coz I've deleted it.. it should be out of the system already.. :S
but anyways.. alright.. i'll apologise.. for the insensitivity of my behaviour and attitude towards the religion of chrisitanity.. in the heat of the moment, I just blabber and well, guess I should get some other form of anger management.. but oh well.. can't stand me, just leave with my insanity.. or you could live with it.. take your pick.. but I am truely sorry about that biasness.... and.. hmm... i'm not great with apologies.. :( so.. yeah...
Angeline
wahhhh.... so heroic!!
*kicks the pidgeon* Grrr!!!! I really hate this...
Listening to: The Secret Garden ~*~ Song from a Secret Garden
Mood: Frustrated
Stupid mobile
isn't working!!! How on Earth am I to get started on asking Fabio questions at this rate?!?! And suddenly I've just remembered, I've got to start choosing and focusing down on the courses I want to do in Poly or JC!!!
WtF!!! I'm practically screaming my head off into my pillows and
sooooo damn frustrated, I just can't comprehend what's actually going on!!!
haiz.. forget it. I think I'll just go to Ngee Ann Poly to study Diploma of BioMedical Science (BMS).. or Dip. of BioTechnology(BIO)... so long as it lets me do alot of reading, researching and genetics, I'll be happy. Or Veterinary Science would be good too.. Says if I can do good, I get to apply into Medical School in either Uni of Sydney or Uni of Melborne when I graduate. That prospect looks good to me.
What else is there..? Everyone's online, and no one's talking to me. *sighs* Is it me, or is this song just making me more depressed? On a calm day, this would prolly set me feeling much more peaceful. And now, I'm just frigging frustrated. It's just making me sadder. And the sadder I feel, the sadder I want to be. You know that feeling? Nah.. you probably wouldn't. *shrugs* Sucks. Everything sucks. Only because I want to view it as such.. Illusions, bleh.. all this sucks..
Anyways, Fabio's chatting with Michelle now.. she's a wonderful girl. I just don't see why everyone dislikes her.. She's got a level head.. very much like Charmaine in fact. I like her attitude.. she's up and game for anything. Sporty and all that..it's a pity I can't really disturb and intrude on her this year, coz she's got her exams to do and all that. I hope Fabio doesn't distract her too much like what he pretty much did to me last year.. ahaha... I can just remember the many times my mom scolded me for sms-ing too much..
But talking about a good and trusted friend (meaning michelle) makes me smile.. coz it's all very fun.. haha.. we both like to crap alot.. she likes to make fun of my phone.. it's the LG one.. haha.. she calls it the "oh
THAT noisy phone.." how I wish I can have my Sony Ericsson T-100 back.. with all the numbers and all that. Miss talking to Kevin and Alex (my two other 'brothers').. haiz..
Edwin's sick.. and he passed his germs to me.. (well, I
was walking in the rain while going out to meet Jezz) but anyways, I'm coughing, and I feel sick.. and oh, there's another bruise on my head. That's 2 bruises now. How on Earth did I get that? well, the usual tossing and turning during the night.. I banged my head on the bed frame rather strongly while I was sleeping. *shrugs* well, it happens. It's just something you can't take control of, coz you're literally in coma when you're asleep.
What else what else... haiz.. I'm so fucking bored... Am I
THAT invisible? I mean, yeah, besides Junius and Jezz... and Jon.. (oh wow, all J's.) no one else ever talks to me unless I prompt them you know? Okay, so there's Eugene and Yihan, but they're
hardly online anymore.. meh.. sucks man..
Sometimes, I really wish my life can end quickly, yet other times, I just stay here just to annoy the living hell out of other people.. and then there are times that I just don't know why the fuck I'm even alive.. and other times, I just don't know what I'm here for.
Doesn't life just feel so meaningless and pointless sometimes? no.. most of the time? Wait, before you start on it, save it.. I know what you're going to tell me.. it's something along the lines "yeah, so it's meaningless and pointless sometimes.. but it's the pleasant once-in-a-while stuff that perks it up.. bla bla bla bla bla..." blah. Shut it and save it. Sorry for sounding a bitch. I just hate being so monotenous, although I'm an expert at it. I just love being a person with a short attention span.. (Actually, I'm not. I just love zoning out.. ^_~)
But anyways.. all this shit about deciding schools and all that. I just hope I'm eligible for BMS.. or if not.. bah.. I don't know.. Just wanna study again. I feel so damn deprived not being able to take something to study. I think if I'm not too lazy tomorrow, I'm going to clear out my room of any papers, and my sec 4 and 5 books, I'm going to stack them up. See who wants them.. Oh, reminds me.. have to get back my Add. Math text book from Sharinder, pass her the photos at the same time. And oh, Sharon Sng's pics too.. ugh.. why on earth do I have to be
this nice? I really ought to charge people for making me be so kind to them. And I'm sure a doctor's job is best suited for it. I get my pay, and I help you get well, at the same time, I'll make sure you get the best treatments. ^^ Sounds lovely, right? Haiz... but like what my parents say, I can keep on dreaming.. and what Jezz tells me sometimes.. can forget about it lah.. wanna be doctor.. need to go JC. And I
CAN'T go into JC, so I can just fuck that idea off.. coz I didn't go for that stupid 3 month JC thing. Please lah, heard of catching up? *rolls eyes*
Ahh... fuck y'all... and don't mind my vulgarness. You've just seen a frustrated and pissed off and getting bitchy and ice cold me. what a combination! Get used to it. ^^ resolution number 3 just half way done...
Be what I want to be. ye?
okay, that's it for today. bye.
LatTaZ...
wahhhh.... so heroic!!
wahhhh.... so heroic!!!
Listening to: R Kelly ~*~ Ignition (remix)
Mood: *frowns* grr.. bleh.
Junius, for the last time,
quit flooding the tagboards!!! honestly!
Sugar high went the wrong way, I'm full of complaints now. okay, maybe not.. but..
*mumblegrumble* So damn fuckin' moody now.. someone, remind me not to have such a heavy intake of sugar from now on.. it certainly does me no good. (I was eating this HUGE packet of popcorn just now.. ^^)
Went to cathay cineplex to watch Last Samurai with Jezzie kor kor.. ^^ it's good, have to admit.. was proven wrong leh.. all this while, I was told by Rica
very very strongly that it was a fucking pathetic movie.. remind me to give her a questioning about that.. puh-lease! it was as good as LotR!!
Anyways, when the movie was over.. whaha.. I suddenly became sooo sadistic...
haha.. there was this pidgeon waddling in my way... so I had this sudden urge to.. you know.. kick it.. I told Jezz about it and he was like, "*huge gasp* wah lau eh! why are you so sadistic?" oh well.. sudden urges.. heh.. I'm like that when I'm hyper.. ^^ what else is new? when with me, (and a sugar high me, that is) be ready to expect the unexpected, okay?
Fabio's in hongkong again.. This time for good.. Migrated there.. he's living.. well.. can't really say now, can I? haha.. but anyways, he's invited me over to his house-warming party.. but it's over in hongkong!!
how on earth am I going to cover for THAT??? I mean.. it's gonna cost SOOOO much, even if Fabio says he's gonna fetch us over to his home by the private jet and the limousines... *le sigh* oh well... there goes another trip.. haiz.. why does
EVERYTHING just have to weave a way of intervention from meeting up with a good friend? man.. this all sucks.. my life sucks... haiz...
Now, mom and dad just bought this punching bag for gary, but too bad, I think I'll be using it more than him.. muahaha... bullies beware! I'll be sure to pound you into mince meat! This girl here is gonna pack a punch if you so much as insult her! ^^
bleh.. i'm tired. I don't wanna talk anymore. byeee....
As of nows,
LatTaZ...
er.....
Ow!!! Pat the phoenix's raging feathers!!! ^^
Listening to: Hilary Duff ~*~ Come Clean
Mood: *happy*
I'm happy, but...
OWWWWWW!!!!!! It
friggin' HURTS!!!!! *waves thumb about as if it's on fire*
okay, so, I watched the nurse cut off --okay,
scrap off-- that wart.. (it's a virual one, says
two doctors) and that was like within a matter of 6 seconds..
And the worst part was the deep freezing part.. they told me --meaning, nurse and two doctors-- that I had to put
LIQUID NITROGEN into the wound.. and MAN!!!! it HURTS!!!!!!!
it fucking HURTS!! *sobs* i was like 'ow ow ow owwie.. OW!!!'
the actual cutting away the wart part didn't even hurt at all.. it was until the liquid nitrogen touched the insides of the wound that it hurt loads.. it's like.. well.. *shrugs lamely* freezing up my thumb.. for 5 minutes, all I felt was pain.. it was enjoyable actually.. ^^
I'll show my thumb to you later, Jezz.. ^^ [meeting up with jezzie later!!]
oh man.. *sighs* but well, the trip to NSC was definitely fun.. to say at the least.. hahaha..
okay, it's kinda settled.. I think I'd enjoy being a doctor.. hee hee.. at least I get to command people to do stuff, at the same time, help them.. ^^
definitely my forte!! ^^ oh well, being a diplomat would be good too..
Will update later when I get home tonight... ^^
LatTaZ..
whatever it is.. *sighs* whatever I become..
whatever it is.. *sighs* whatever I become..
Listening to: Frederick Lin ~*~ One
Mood: er.. [not too sure]
Just woke up, as a matter of fact. Not that you needed to know that anyways. (it's been like 4 hours since i woke up anyways..)
Read those horoscope thingys, half the while, they're only true after you've read them when the day's over, you know?
It's now telling me stuff like "you're week's gonna be a tough one. Sit back, buckle up and go with the flow." and another saying "on tuesday and wednesday, you will be on the razor's edge of passion and pain. which will you choose?"
pfft! It's pretty obvious that I'd choose passion right? who wants to suffer in
pain? Well.. as much as it's advising me.. RAzor's edge on tuesday, is so true.. tomorrow's operation day!
The only thing I'm scared of is not being able to get there on time! haha....
People worry of not being able to wake up, of not being able to stand the pain..
Maybe for tomorrow, I'll grit my teeth and bear with the pain that's gonna be inflicted on me. I don't suppose for such a pathetically minor operation, they're gonna give me any pain killers to numb the pain... *shrugs*
I think I've felt worse before...
Nevermind, I'll have to see how they go about with this operation thing.. hahah.. I've always wanted to watch doctors pull off their stuff... (no matter how disgusting they can get)
haha.. maybe that's about the passion the stars are talking about.. :P
anyways, I went onto Astrology.com... to see what they've got in store about my stars for me..
Imma Tiger.. *RaWr!!* so yeah.. haha.. let's see...
Tigers may not be the king of the jungle, but these striped cats are no softies! Magnetic and self-possessed, Tigers are born leaders. They have an air of authority that prompts others to fall in line, which is exactly how they like it. Although they are magnetically charming and fun to be around, Tigers like to go it alone sometimes too. A Tiger's main interest is in following its ambitions -- and maintaining control.
Tigers are courageous beyond compare and generally come out ahead in battle, be it in the boardroom or the bedroom. Seduction is one area where the Tiger is definitely king! Noble and warm-hearted, Tigers have a natural, raw appeal that's extremely attractive to other Signs. They're not just about attraction, though; ever on the side of right, Tigers will fight the good fight to the bitter end if the cause is worthy. Opponents are wise to fear this feline.
A bit of caution is a good thing around Tigers, since they can pounce without warning. They experience mood swings and often feel things more intensely than others, the latter quality being both good and bad. They can react poorly under stress and are prone to emotional outbursts. This Sign's bristling sensitivity can send friend and foe running for cover.
A lesson that Tigers would be well-served to learn is "moderation in all things." Once these cats can find their center and direct their considerable energies toward worthwhile endeavors (as opposed to racing through life), they will accomplish much.
Well.. hahah... let's see ah... Am I a softie? I dunno.. :S Don't like to think that I am one.. Born leader? ha.. all my classmates beat me to that.. but I suppose if you gave me a group and a task, I might be able to take it on just fine.. wow.. I'm charming and fun to be around with.. hahah!! yea, agreed on the fun part.. but.. Charming? *raises an eyebrow* now.. that's not quite right..ooh.. follow my own ambitions! oh well.. mine and not other people's ambitions for me.. ;) Just hate it when people try to dictate my future for me.. but, that's them I guess..
well, says that I fight for what I strongly believe... that, so much, is very true. If I think the cause is worthy of an arguement, I'd argue till I win that round.. if not, you'll find me snorting and scoffing the topic away. And very often, you'll find me doing that.. but seduction? heh.. er.. *shrugs* call it second nature to me, yeah? haha.. I have no idea how to seduce a person romantically.. hahah... but to seduce a person into thinking stuff that I want them to think, is another matter altogether. That latter, I can do with much ease, although not to perfection yet. I am still learning how to do that. ^_~
ah hahahahahaha..... Junius ah... see that? I'm more the tiger than
you are! ^^ man.. you'll never know what might get to me to trigger off a mood swing. Most of the times, I'm okay.. but you say something the least remotely insulting about me, I'll just bite you with vicious comebacks that I hardly even give a thought to think up with. Just ask Junius.. he can tell you how many times I suan him one.. ooh.. I react poorly under stress? that's not right.. I work best when I'm under stress!!! I get the best ideas and solutions when I'm being pressured somewhat.. haha.. I guess they're talking big time stress.. then.. that one of course I can't handle.. I'm
THAT sensitive ah? heh.. ^^; didn't give much thought to that. well, perhaps I am quite sensitive.. oh, who cares.. but when I lose my temper, haha.. everyone just chills and try to keep me calm.. (especially my dad and my mom.. haha!) So, you'll just see me fume and fume.. but ah.. fuming's no good, coz sometimes I just bottle everything inside.. then I explode.. wahaha.. I've been mad at someone for like 4 years once you know... then after that, I just thought that bitch to be some stupid assholic person who wasn't worth my time, so I just turn my nose up against her.. (she's an ox.. not a tiger)
Ahh.. this one last paragraph, Jezzie kor have to know very well.. hahah.. which I am sure he is quite aware of.. moderation of all things.. bleh..it's a
no frigging wonder why I'm a Libra as well!! >.< haiz.. just ask around.. I just look for what's best at the moment, make do with it, and I'm happy and I can do many things within that moment of time. but ah.. finding what I wanna do in my life at the moment.. man... this one's really tough... why? coz I have no idea where my center is.. I can't focuse much.. bloody hell.. I don't know where I am.. Imma lost cause, right? >.< !
but anyways.. yeah.. that's about it for the moment!
As of nows,
LatTaZ...
Just a note to everyone..
Just a note to everyone..
okay, I've put that comment board up like sooo long ago, but no one seems to be using it... Must I take down my dekap board just so all of you will use it instead?
anyway, that comment board right..
is that thing that always goes "*gasps* (0) speakers!!" at the end of every blog entry.. it's not there for show, okay? it's for you to comment about the entry's contents..
now, it's your cue to click on that "speakers" thing.. and write some stuff in... preferably some good stuff.. try not to diss me too much lah, yah? haha..
I'm only human after all!! ^^
but hope all of you will know what to do after each entry.. :) hope you will add in a comment or two to spice up the blog abit... yah? ;) thanks a million peeps!
P.S.: remember to leave your name.. or nick name.. and your email or summat... yeah? thanx!
[Angeline aka Anjelline]
okok.. wait.. *thinks of lame title* ah hah! ^^ Wake the bunnies' dragons!!!
okok.. wait.. *thinks of lame title* ah hah! ^^ Wake the bunnies' dragons!!!
Listening to: Namie Amuro ~*~ Come
Mood: ^^; Lame and cranky
why am I feeling lame and cranky?
1) I am having a headache
2) My head is spinning round and round
3) I think I'm gonna be sick
4) I just had a cuppa hot coffee, extra creamer
5) Are these enough reasons? ^^
haha.. yeah.. you're just lucky it's not angry-cranky.. but happy-and-fucken-lame-cranky!
I hardly get this way anymore. The last time this happened, that was when I was studying for my N levels.. During the NSS (
Night
Study
Sessions) in September'02.. was it 2002? *thinks hard* >.<
yeah.. it was back in Year2002.. hahah.. my memory hasn't quite failed me yet.
Oooooh!! I had so much ginko nuts again today! My mom was like "girl ah, le ai zia peck guai mai?" * haha.. I was like packing my bag, about to rush out to meet Sharon to spend the day with her.. and my mom was standing at my door, holding the cup full of that cheng ting.. only with the sugary soup and ginko nuts in it (my brothers somehow hate eating ginko nuts.. they're weirdos!) and I just really literally
perked up at the words "peck guai"!! hahah... my mom just
had to laugh at me... hahaha....
Today.. Gods, will you just give me an ability of advanced curiousity? Make sure I ask stuff that sounds least remotely suspiscious.. >.<
You know why?
Coz Sharon asked me over sms "hey, gal. free this afternoon? cum out wif me can?" obviously I'd agree.. I even asked why would I have to go accompany her today.. (Hey, that means I
DO HAVE a curious mind already.. >.< just not curious enough..) and she told me, "tell u later. very long story." pfft! I should've known better actually.. her long stories just don't turn out long enough for me. (y'all know me by now, I'm a fucken long-winded biatch.. ^^;)
Sorry about the language.. just been reading --and watching-- too much American Urban flicks.. ^_~
Anyways..
She actually wanted me to accompany her to go
visiting her 'god-brother's' home. For some gods sake! I mean. Heavens and Hells.. I'm
NOT allowed to visit!!!! -_-;
I just feel like I've just betrayed my grandma's honour.. (my grandma's a lovely lady. you'd be jealous of me.. coz she'll go all out to do stuff for us kids.. i'll tell you ALLLLL about my grandma one of these days.) but anyways.. I had to be this anti-social person at her friend's place. Mind you, I wasn't a slight pleased when I was told
last minute by Sharon herself that I had to
accompany her to that fella's home.
Gary was nagging at me when he heard that.. So did dad when he came to pick me up at Ang Mo Kio.. >.< That's why I'm asking the Gods to give me an ability of advanced curiousity for matters that concerned me... hope I do get that ability.. so that I won't be played out like that the next time.. ^^;
Haiz.. the things I do for my friends.. All you friends out there.. just so you know, I'm a very good friend, okay? hahaha.. *sighs* haiz.. the things I go through for all of you ah.. End up.. I always kena by my parents and my brothers one leh.. Yes, including that little squirt brother of mine...
but anyways, that's about it for today...
hee... will update tomorrow..
As of nows,
LatTaZ...
* -->> "girl ah, do you want to eat ginko nuts?"
hmm...
hmm...
Listening to: Craig David ~*~ Booty Man
Mood: *frowns* contemplative I guess.. oh, I dunno..
Everyone's been out of the country lately.. either that, or they're going off soon...
Fabio's just back from Hong Kong.. he was there.. dunno.. 4 days?
And so did Jasline.. she was there for 3 days ago.. she just got back yesterday..
mom's side came over just now.. in the evening.. before dinner.. at least my cousins behaved themselves.. and my aunts too.. not too bad.. quite surprised too.. coming from such a rowdish bunch...
anyways.. went to the golf range today.. just nice.. fabio messaged to tell me he was going to play golf too.. jeez.. talk about freakiness!! what's this? telepathy?!? my gods...
but anyways.. I lost my swing.. dad certainly isn't happy with me.. his face was sooo disappointed.. I just felt so bad and guilty.. haiz.. damn.. *sighs some more* so depressing... I just hate to see my parents disappointed in me.. it's like THE most heartbreaking thing to me..
oh, ate cheng ting this morning as well... it's like wow.. soooo much ginko nuts!! ^^ just love the way my aunt does it... ^^
what else what else.. oh talked to Jezz earlier on.. hahah.. lucky dude.. so much money.. unlike me.. poor church mouse!! haiz.. oh well..
Boring start to my year.. no matter.. i'll just have to spice my life up loads.. haha.. I think it's quite spiced up as it is.... (-_-*) yes yes.. it's NOT spiced up at all.. rotting at home all day..
jeez.. the weather's soooo damn cold today.. it's been raining the entire day.. I do hope aunt doesn't fall ill.. she's already sniffling the whole day since she got that cold a week ago.. and now the rain.. jeez.. should have sent her home..
What was I THINKING?!?!? ugh.. stupid me.. *bangs head on wall repeatedly*
oh! And I downloaded GunBound.. silly game.. but Jon talked me into it.. taught me to play it as well.. :) so nice of him.. hahah.. obviously he'll be nice lah.. he's my best friend!!! If he doesn't, I'll force him anyways!! *triumphant smirk*
haha..and fabio says that his letter for me will arrive earliest by tomorrow.. Jon was like "are you sure you can trust that ass anot? I mean he's... blah blah blah..." haha.. such a nice boy.. I meant Jon.. haha.. he's prolly blushing to the roots of his hair if he's reading this now.. hee hee!! ^^ right, Jon.. ? *winks and makes a face at him* haha.. and I know you love me too.. so you can't do a thing to me.. hee hee!!! he's always telling me to tell everyone about him.. haha.. so WORLD!! listen up!!
hahaha... blushing now, dearie? :P
okok.. enough of my poor best friend.. he'll prolly hide in his toilet till the day he dies due to immense embarrassment now anyways..
hahaha.. alright.. i think i'll stop here for now.. Junie the human wants my attention.. or well.. he just wants to read this latest post coz he's bored.. still bored right, dude? ;P hahaha...
As of nows,
Pee's out!!
LatTaZ...
*sighs* why is this new year so depressing and boring?
*sighs* why is this new year so depressing and boring?
Listening to: Frederick Lin ~*~ One
Mood: *wince*
*sighs* Lunar New Years for me have never been
this BORING....
Like what my friends have been telling me endlessly yesterday.. "Go and find something to do lah.. then you get to kill the time off as well.."
Surfing the net has been routine for me.. dunno what's new.. oh.. the encyclopedias are new.. but, as interesting as those books are.. the good books are constantly taken by the boys.. :S oh well..
haha.. like I told Jezz a few days back, for this year's new year, my schdule would be to either:
1) sleeping
2) reading
3) on the comp
4) annoying someone else by sms-ing them, or....
5) eating till i get sick
well, I've done.. sleeping, reading.. on the comp.. annoying someone else by sms-ing them and... yeah, i ate till i got sick.. having quite a tummy ache now.. but a few trips to the potty would solve that problem.. ^^;
haiz.. i've exhausted all my options.. later, I'll be heading to the golf range.. edwin's last lesson with that good-for-nothing golf coach.. I think daddy's a better coach than him.. I love mom being my coach too.. she coached me while eating crackers from the benches.. haha.. but that's where I get my great swing from.. (which i so considerately lost) bust since not playing for like 4 months already.. my mom's pretty pissed off with me.. I better go play today.. so that she doesn't get to pissed off with me for being a 'useless dolt'.. heh heh..
Oh well, mothers.. you just can't stand them, but you still love them in the end.. ^^
anyways.. I think I will go do some reading now.. or talk abit with Jezz..
As of nows,
LatTaZ...
second day of new year
second day of new year
Listening to: Cafe Del Mar ~*~ Volume 6 - Chill house music
Mood: *on a high but i'm not drunk* ^^
oh yeah.. I stole a cup of Gin.. mixed it with coke.. Gary told me it was too strong.. but hey, it tasted like water to me. No doubt I started smiling, coz he called me a
Siao Char boh for drinking such a strong liquor right before dinner.. but I managed to point out to him.. 'hey, you're crazier than me!' ^^ haha.. he just grinned and whispered, "just don't let mummy and daddy know, okay?" Honestly, I should be the one telling him
that.. not the other way around.. ^_~
But anyways, AAAaaaacccck!!!! Gillian came over to my place for dinner!! ^^ Thanks, babe!! it was
wonderful!!! haha.. miss your crazy antics.. we had steam boat for dinner tonight. *lop-sided grin* apart from the fact that I was slightly drunk (i mean, hey, Gordon's london dry gin's only 43% alcohol.. it was only
one cup..) I hold a rather nice conversation, don't I? I mean, my face wasn't even red.. but oh well..that's only one cup..
Anyways, downloading
gunbound at the moment.. so boring..
Oh..haha.. i think fabio's family was calling the two of us cute yet crazy... why? coz fabio was wishing gillian and I a happy new year... and all that, and I sent back a reply saying gillian says thanks and a hi to him.. and that the both of us wishes him and his family a happy prosperous new year ahead too.. haha.. but I can't help it.. sending greetings was fun.. well, it was at that point of time.. I
WAS bored... oh well.. hahah...
argh.. it's like 4 more days till the operation's here.. haha.. I wonder what procedures they will be taking.. what with the bird flu all over asia.. I do suppose that's god's way of getting rid of people..Let's see.. first, disasters strikes one after another... from place to place, pole to pole.. country to country.. those were physical disasters.. we couldn't stop it, but we could try to save lives..
Then, came those islamic proclaimations of "Faith"... thousands were killed.. and the Iraq war.. and then SARS.. that alone killed hundreds. I swear I was convinced that it was God's way of trying to have a population control on Earth. He was smart enough to start at the best place -- China. Why? it's got 1/6 of the World's population there.. it's got the worst-off hygiene... and the people there are too stubborn. Best way to kill humans and save his animals.. So, SARS came about. I thought that was really intelligent of him. He's merciful enough.. allowing us to prevent it from coming.. but I know it
will come back soon, one day.. of course, he needs to divert our attention, so he calls on one of the most basic of illnesses.. Bird Flu'. Smart? well, that's how he's doing things. Somehow, I know I'm quite prepared. I don't fear death.. I feel that it's a thing in life that I have to go through.
"You don't know it till you do it." how true those words are.
but anyways.. where was I? oh yeah, the operation.. haha.. just a small minor thing.. I can just walk out of the place after I'm done with it.. ^_^
oh yeah.. fabio caught that dreadful bird flu too.. fortunately, he's okay.. he's still recovering, but he's much better now.
blah. soo tired.. been doing nothing all day.. You know, if you drink alcohol once in a long time.. like say.. once in a month or summat like that.. you actually boost your tolerance level alot... it's like learning how to eat chocolates.. you have to get used to eating chocolates.. or you'll get sore throats, fevers, nose bleeds, hyperactiveness and what have you... so, that dry gin was pretty much nothing to me.
~_~ oh dear... I'm sure Jezzie kor will be going to call me an alcoholic.. :S jezz.. I am
NOT an alcoholic, okay? I just appreciate drinking wine and liquors better than you do.. haha.. I know 2 mugs of beer is enough to make your face go red, no? ^^ I'm not sure if my face flushes when I drink down that alcohol.. *thinks* actually, only a little bit.. it's not as if I went beet red.. just a slight tinge of pink is all.. hahah..
oh crap.. i better get going.. have to learn how to get up early from now on... school
might be starting in a few weeks time.. (that's if I'm going JC..)
-->> Jezz, don't start on it. I planned it out a long time ago actually.. if i'm good enough, i'll go JC, if not, I'll go poly. That's the life of a N(A) student. You can't just push all your luck on something just coz you're confident about it.. Being stranded and branded N(A), you have to keep your choices versitile and open. I just realised... (not just, but more like refreshed my memory) that you can't just place your eggs in one small wicker basket.. What I'm actually doing at this point of time, is placing my bets on serveral horses.. so that if I lose out, I don't lose much, and if I win, I might win big. The most annoying and confusing thing now is just waiting for the finale to come.. This wait is sooo antagonising.. I do know "Patience is a virtue" but.. damn. My patience happens to be running thin at the moment. Why can't they move a little faster?!? :-/
oh well..gtg now..
As of nows,
LatTaZzzzz...
waaaahh... *starry eyes*
waaaahh... *starry eyes*
Listening to: DJ Venom ~*~ Insomnia Remix
Mood: wahhh....
This morning.. around 9.30am... My brothers suddenly shouted "My God! Fire! Woah... shut it abit!! Is
THAT a CAR?!?!"
The thing just burst into flames, I'm telling you.. it just went
BOOM! and then the flames were just licking it black.. a person or the door dropped out, rolled abit and burned on.. it was a horrid sight.. it only took 5 minutes for the whole thing to get totally charred down..
The fire men came only when the whole thing was burnt down already.. what a pity.. The burnt thing is still on the road.. too hot to handle.. :P
Wah.. how I miss Hong Kong.. the MTR's.. I miss Kowloon.. New Terroterries.. Times Square.. Central Park.. the Science and Space Center... Victoria's Peak.. wow... haha.. And Macau!! I miss it sooo much too!!
oh well..
As of nows,
LatTaZ...
Every step that I take... is another mistake to you..
Every step that I take... is another mistake to you..
Listening to: Linkin' Park ~*~ Numb
Mood: void
lolx.. the many times I would hear my mom tell me how much she like
Lin-con-poot's songs.. namely "numb"... that lin-con-poot is actually linkin' park. *chuckles*
Anyways, today has been such a tiring albeit uneventful day..
only
one relative came by.. the other stays next door. Perhaps one day, she'll re-write that will and give me the house.. muahahah.. i'm sho sho greedy.. U_U oh well.. human greed. It's such a tempting.. thing. Like what I heard a man say to me once.. "One can never have enough of material things." How wise and true his words are. It's a no wonder I try to be happy with what I have. What I don't have, I try to make it up with something else.. maybe something like the satisfaction in seeing someone happy, or vice versa. I don't know, sometimes I am just so polar-like. I can be evil, and I can be good. Really depends on how I feel.
But anyways, Fabio's migrating to hongkong in 3 days time.. said he'd be staying close to Stan's, and the place in hongkong is much bigger than that of the one in Rodriguez Palace..
and 4 days from today, I'll have to be at NSC at about 7am.. operation starts at 8am.. well, that's if you can call that an operation.. oh. right. NSC stands for National Skin Center. For those who know why I'm going there, yeah, you know. Those who don't, you don't have to know anyways. So, shut up and read on.
I have no idea why I'm being so damn mean now.. maybe i'll just stop here..
yeah, I should stop here..
As of nows,
LatTaZ...
tired.. again
I am soo so tired..
Listening to: Britney Spears ~*~ Toxic
Mood: blank
You are a
PHOENIX in your soul and your
wings make a statement. Huge and born of flame,
they burn with light and power and rebirth.
Ashes fall from your wingtips. You are an
amazingly strong person. You survive, even
flourish in adversity and hardship. A firm
believer in the phrase, 'Whatever doesn't kill
you only makes you stronger,' you rarely fear
failure. You know that any mistake you make
will teach you more about yourself and allow
you to 'rise from the ashes' as a still greater
being. Because of this, you rarely make the
same mistake twice, and are not among the most
forgiving people. You're extremely powerful and
wise, and are capable of fierce pride, passion,
and anger. Perhaps you're this way because you
were forced to survive a rough childhood. Or
maybe you just have a strong grasp on reality
and know that life is tough and the world is
cruel, and it takes strength and independence
to survive it. And independence is your
strongest point - you may care for others, and
even depend on them...but when it comes right
down to it, the only one you need is yourself.
Thus you trust your own intuition, and rely on
a mind almost as brilliant as the fire of your
wings to guide you.You are eternal and because
you have a strong sense of who and what you
are, no one can control your heart or mind, or
even really influence your thinking. A symbol
of rebirth and renewal, you tend to be a very
spiritual person with a serious mind - never
acting immature and harboring a superior
disgust of those who do. Likewise, humanity's
stupidity and tendency to want others to solve
their problems for them frustrates you
endlessly. Though you can be stubborn,
outspoken, and haughty, I admire you greatly.
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~* brought to you by Quizilla
Long quiz analysis.. Lovely answer too.. ^_~ yes, I
am a very stubborn person.. outspoken, yes.. rather frank too.. haughty? lately, I have been very haughty without realising it.. perhaps it's because of the people that I associate with.
Anyways, this quiz somehow told me lots of stuff that's kinda like me.. Didn't do much thinking just now.. but I got this 'fortune angbao'.. on it, it says
kuan hong da liang... it means that I have to.. be humble and generous.. not be so haughty and all that.. give way to others..
*snorts* oh please.. am I able to even able to speak to my lil' brother without so much as yelling at him? I didn't think so too.
Anyways... that's more or less me.. hahaha.. now to figure what I wanna do.. o.. reminds me.. have to finish jezzie's book and return it to him on tuesday.. wait wait.. tuesday is op day.. sheez.. busy busy day for me! ^^
oh... how I wish someone would come visit.. besides da po (eldest uncle).. haiz.. it's no fun without the newphews and nieces around, laughing with us.. no fun without sharlene barging into my room without knocking.. i miss that girl.. lost contact with her actually..
Why does my family have to be cursed with such a bitter fued? haiz.. it's not fun anymore.. nothing's the way it seems to be anymore..
Then there's elaine jie and huiping jie.. those two adored me to bits while i was younger.. no idea why.. haha.. they're always "you were sooooo cute when you were a little girl!"
but anyways, they're gone as well.. i seldom talk to them now. In fact, I don't even talk to them anymore. Same goes for the rest actually. all because of money.. inheritance..
I'm to inherit my aunt's money.. which is grandma's money too.. i think. I don't think I'm rather happy about that. Coz i'll have over 10 people breathing down my neck about that. It'll be good to have an inheritance.. but.. heh.. let's just hope I'm wrong about inheriting my aunt's money..
Fabio was telling me he's having over 30 cousins over at his place.. therefore that topic came up.. but anyways..
Mom's dad, my grandfather.. he's from china you know.. the HockChew province. Anyways, I have like a step family there.. well, not just one step family.. see, grandfather was quite the womaniser. He had 3 wives back in china.. and apparently, from what I heard from Uncle Ricky (mom's youngest bro), they're all quite ugly.. in looks and in personality.
I think grandfather made coming to singapore as an excuse to run away from them. I mean, honestly, who wouldn't? They a bunch of.. low-lying vicious.. Things.
bleh.. so bummed out now... (-_-")
As of nows,
LatTaZ...
eh..
hoorah. hoorah! ^^ heh..
Listening to: Beyonce ~*~ Crazy in Love
Mood: dettached
I need 8 hours of sleep.... ugh... I simply
can't go without it... anyways, going out now... will be back to update this entry later.
As of nows,
LatTaZ...
I'm coming clean...
Listening to: you guessed it!! ^^ Hilary Duff ~*~ Come Clean
Mood: --
"Come Clean"
Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned
'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no life
I defy
[CHORUS:]
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean
I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin
'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind
[CHORUS:]
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean
I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming...
[CHORUS:]
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean
Let's go back
Back to the beginning
You know, I think best and the most during the early wee hours of the morning.. perhaps coz I know that there's no one to disturb my thoughts, there's no one breathing down my neck, there's no one to entertain.. no one to bother with and no one bothering me.. such solitude, I used to have if I shut everyone out...
However, I know that's not the way to treat others.. I'm the 'ice queen' as it is.. I don't need to say much in class previously.. well, I did talk alot.. only with the people that I feel that I can relate to very well, and that I can trust whole-heartedly, somewhat.. means if I talk to you often, it really means I trust you.. ^^ that's me anyways..
I know people always tend to tell us, young teens.. you have to trust your parents and all that.. trust your siblings and all that.. see.. that's where I find it quite weird.
For I don't tell my parents many things, I don't speak to my siblings at all. I feel practically locked up inside. My only source of relief and all that is through writing.. I choose to write in my journals.. but then again, writing it all down on pen and paper.. I just find no use reading it.. I mean, yeah, I can use that to back date certain stuff, jot down significant events.. but other than that, just writing alone doesn't do much.. I still feel very much.. I dunno.. It's as if part of me is
aching to find out this missing piece in my life..
That's all I know.. I've got this last part in my life that's missing.. once I find it, my life would fall into its place, and I will find my position in life.. and I will know what to do..
You see.. for me, I have to have everything laid out perfectly first before actually doing anything..
it's the people around who rushes past me, urging me to make impromptu decision, forcing me to take on certain goals in life that I don't really enjoy..
Like what many would say,
it's the people in your life that makes a huge difference to it. And I'd agree..
Perhaps, if I can concentrate for a few days, perhaps, weeks.. just really concentrate.. I'd find that missing part.. I mean, I keep playing this song over and over and over again.. For me, (maybe not for you) I think it makes alot of sense.. it's not just some commercial pop song you know...
"Let's go back
Back to the beginning"
I've always done that.. I keep doing that.. running back to the
same damn point many times.. Let's see.. I've ran back to that point for about over 10 times in my life already. Every start of term, every start of year.. every start of anything.. I find myself back at the beginning. I don't want
that.
"'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no life
I defy"
And that's where I find myself stuck at, you know.. just like trying to fit a square into a circle and vice versa.. it's just not there..
I'm not quite there yet.. and this year.. I planned to do something different.. but.. heh.. I haven't.
"I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin"
right now, that's what I'm doing.. I'm trying to find just a pigment, just one fragment of something that's me.. but, I just don't get it.. I know you're getting what I'm trying to say.. but just read on.. you ought to know me better by now.. I have to mull things over and over again.. and I do it aloud.. while trying not to go round in circles.. I just don't see why.. why sometimes I do things.. just to please others. Come to think of it, it irks me so when I know that I have to do things for others just to benefit them. I'm too easy-going.. but that's me.. I'll have to change that somewhat..
"'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind"
Different not feeling so different. I've felt this so many times, I can't seem to start contemplating on that.. Just when you think that you're so different from someone, you find that you're so alike to him/her. Like whenever I feel like I'm so poor and someone else is so damn rich.. I find that, hey.. we're so different.. but after awhile.. I realise.. man.. he/she's just like me.. just a guy/girl who really is so normal.
Sometimes, voicing thoughts out is very much better than keeping it all inside. Doesn't have to be vocally.. through music, through writings.. musings.. ramblings (like mine)... just like what hilary duff sings, "feel the wind" I suppose I very much just have to stand there alone, and very much still, and feel the wind against me.. Me against the wind. The wind being your constant words of critisms, compliments, insults, whatevers.. yeah...
"Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean"
And then, the chorus.. letting the rain fall down.. pretty much feels like soaking up everything's that thrown at me.. I just get the full blast of a minor part of it.. Words thrown at me, more like it.. for most words given to me nowadays, wakes up parts of me that I've never known before.. it wakes up parts of me that I've always wanted to show..
Sometimes, the words.. well, it just takes away parts of me to show the other sides of me.. get what I mean? Words that irk me, anger me, humble me.. I dunno.. words may be words, but words make alot of difference and can be the most
vicious thing that you can have if you know how to make use of it the best way that you can..
But.. good words of advice and encouragement.. well, it just makes me a new person all over, get me?
This song speaks much of what I wanna say.. although it's quite on the tip of the ice berg that is me.
Finding what I want to do in my life, isn't an easy task. I am, however, rest assured.. that I will find it someday.. (it's a hunch that I have) While many will tell me not to trust in hunches.. you're sadly mistaken. I work in so many different ways, you don't really know how to comphrehend. I work on my hunches. And I will work on it till I find what I'm finding.
I know I may seem distracted and all that, and I don't have to explain my distractedness to you, simply because, this is me.
Just accept me for who I am, and trust that I will find my place.. many find it while they are young. And though life is short, and everyone tend to 'enjoy' their life when they are young....
Always remember, everyone works in different ways. Like for Jezz.. he found his place in life.. to be a doctor.. and he's on his path on being one. or like this other friend of mine, Valerie.. she's one lucky girl.. she knows what she wants to do.. she knows where she wants to be.. and now, she's in Canada already.. having her time in life.
As for me.. I don't know what I want in my life. with so many things going on.. perhaps.. all I wanted to say was "leave me be. Gimme my time alone.." haha.. I know if I didn't do things the long-winded way, all of you would be asking me all sorts of questions.. Not how I'd like it, mind you... but anyways, if you still don't get what I mean.. haiz.. I guess you can just ask me anyways..
but the bottom line is just to let me be for the next few days.. perhaps weeks.. I do apologise if I don't talk to you.. but I guess I need to think things through?
As of nows,
LatTaZ...
P.S:
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Quizzies!!!!
Listening to: Sammi Cheng ~*~ 808
Mood: hmmm.... *trails off*
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beauty and just the life that no-one else sees.
Mysterious, calm, quiet... But that doesn't
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As of nows,
LatTaZ...
Let the Rain Fall Down...
Let the Rain Fall Down... And wake my dreams...let it wash away my sanity
Listening to: Hilary Duff ~*~ Come Clean
Mood: tired
yeah,
Come Clean is such an addictive song.. ooh.. reminds me.. Need to write Jackson some lyrics.. heh heh.. ^^ not sure what to write leh, Jackson.. yeah, I promised Jackson that I'll write him some lyrics.. he can edit the song anyway he wants.. put in his own lyrics.. and then go record it.. I wanna hear what's he done with it.. how badly mutilated the lyrics ended up.. hee hee.. it's all just a fun thing..
Maybe I'll try out the lazy drawl method like Sammi Cheng's.. hmm.. it'll most prolly end up an English pop song.. I'm not much a Chinese freak.. >.<
Oh, sharon wanted me to go with her go see F4's Zai Zai on the 31st.. >.< bleh.. i don't like F4.. none of them man.. they are the reason why I hated chinese pop in the first place.. I just hate chinese boybands.. okay, so I can
tahan MayDay.. that group's at least summat you know.. but commercial pop like them f4 and what nots.. its all a no no for me.. I like
Kris Fei Xiang!!! haha.. now, that guy's sure a looker and a good singer too!
But anyways, I had an standing appointment with Junius on that day already.. so, I had to turb her's down.. sorry Sharon!! ^^; just really can't break a promise I made.. I intend to keep my promises as they are.. can't break them promises I made!!
oh oh!! ^_^ dinner time!! Steam Boat tonight!!!
Yummies!!!
Toodles~!
As of nows,
LatTaZ...
a new morning awakens.....
a new morning awakens.....
Listening to: Frederick Lin ~*~ One
Mood: Peaceful on the exterior, but I'm actually bubbling inside.. (^_~)/"
it's new year.. and wow.. can't believe it!! I'm going to be eighteen this year!!! wahaha... I ought to be jumping up and down in joy.. but that's not what I'm doing.. heh.. too conservative on energy.. :P
Seriously, can anyone be so kind to give me $600 so I can buy a new mobile phone? >.< honestly, this stupid phone of my mom's just doesn't want to co-operate with meh!!! hmph! Sardonic little bitchy phone.... *mumblesgrumbles*
Haha.. Gary promised me that he'd write a
SUPER LOOOOOOONG, SUPER LAAAAAME testimonial for me over at friendster's.. coz I wrote this really stupid and lame and really very very long testimonial for him!! ^^ haha... wait.. let me go copy and paste what I wrote for him.. hee!
"Gary curry garfieldie... hee hee hee... this stupid crazie person is my brother. I mean it.. from the same mother one.. look really closely, and you'll see our resemblence..haha... i know ALLLLL his dirty little secrets at home.. what he does at home.. how he sleeps, what time he baths.. please ah... don't be fooled by his "i'm Mr. Cool" exterior.. damn joker this guy.. he always calls himself an 'asshole' at home all the time.. but ah, he's okay lah.. young that time take care of me quite well.. always scold me for touching his toys.. but he let me play with his lego.. ^^ i build house, he scold me wor.. pls lah kor.. i was doing interior designing at 5 can? haven't finish designing you destroy it.. *mumblegrumble* anyways, being his only sister.. I must write an EXTRA LONG testimonial.. you're not my only brother.. ^^ but you're my korkor.. my ONLY kor kor.. Luvfe you lots lots.. thank you for that monkey which I so happily christianed "dumbass" ^^; and all those CDs you bought for me with your own $$.. and most certainly.. [Altho I don't enjoy and like] all those yellings you give me once in a VERY long time, I'm glad for it.. altho.. i'm still mad at you about that most recent one (that was last year lah).. oh yah.. this guy ah.. once you get to him.. he'll open up.. if he doesn't, means you haven't got to him yet. he's actually very very sacarstic, sadistic, funny, very very jovial.. trust me. Why? COZ I AM HIS SISTER, YOU DOPE!! ^^ he's very nice one lah, right, "Julia Robert lips"? hee hee!! yah yah.. later you hoot me at home right? knowing you.. oh yah. this boy ah.. abit crazy one.. why? Midnight ask me go jogging, say, siao anot? (-_- ") anyways.. nice guy, nice attitude, nice face (ouack!)... so you all better treat him nice okay..? don't see me young girl, I'll hantum you till the day you die if you ever hurt my brother in ANY WAY.. and I mean it. (haiz.. usually, it's the brother doing the overprotective work.. we really oughta change bodies, bro) I mean it hor. My threat will be here for all to see.. Disturb my brother, you will face it from me when I find out.. >.< anyways, kor.. you better make sure you eat more, sleep more, drink more water, and for goodness sake, when you get home, PLEASE TAKE OFF YOUR SOCKS AND GO TO THE TOILET AND BATHE!!!! >.<" haiz.. boys.. all the same one.. Ann~* "
"Ann" is my nickname only my parents, Gary and second Aunt calls me.. no one else calls me that.. *shrugs* I dunno, perhaps I give this exterior that tells others, "you
CANNOT call me ANN!!!"
hahah.. but anyways, *laughs* that testimonial sure made my lovely and crazy brother smiled for once -- i think. -- haha...
here's a quote I picked up from some random site... I find it rather true, for I often trigger changes in people in this manner...
"You can't change other people but other people will respond to a change in you."
Man.. how true can that get? I've realised.. that I meet certain people, I change.. you know, like when I talk to a optimistic person, I tend to feel much more positive and cheerful.. Talking to a depressed person makes me wanna help them more.. haha.. oh well..
rambling away.. and i still have stuff to clear...
As of nows,
LaTTaZ..!!
C-L-E-A-N!!!!
wOOt!!!! ^.^ It's CLEAN!!! Wahahaa... C-L-E-A-N!!!!
Listening to: Hillary Duff ~*~ Come Clean
Mood: err.. sheepish, I guess.. ^^;
hahaha.. actually.. *sheepish grin* it's more like putting the rubbish away... paper more like it...
My room's practically a
fire hazard, mind you..
the WHOLE house IS a fire hazard.. 95% of our furniture is made of WOOD...
Anyways... I've been cleaning my room.. found some stuff that Janice gave me a couple of years back.. before we drifted apart.. :S I miss her loads.. anyways, found an exchange letter we wrote back in sec 2 or sec 3... during Lim Poh Yin's class.. (that's our History teacher's name)..
then I found a bookmark which she made and laminated by herself.. it's got garfield on it!! hee hee.. and a quote.. "Through indecision, opportunity is often lost" how true... could she have predicted my future? And then... a few of her books too... with all her scribbling and rubbish all over the pages...
Haiz.. enough about that.. just breaks my heart thinking of her.. :S
Anyhoo... Fabio's in Singapore at the moment.. stop over here.. He just flown in from Hong Kong.. I think he'll be flying off in a couple of minutes.. to Japan for a quick stop over too.. and then back to LA..
He's took pictures of Gereal and some of his other sisters.. haha.. he was like "must be patient all right.. you'll most prolly get them next friday or summat.."
Hope he's got Saraphine in it.. :P I miss talking to her.. She's so fun to talk to! ^^ haha.. she actually wished that she wasn't his sister sometimes.. she wished that he'd be her boyfriend.. only because fabio's such a nice guy.. it's his motto to make others smile.. he told me that before.. make sure that everyone and every single person and being around him and in his presence will have a fun time..
So far, he's been able to that.. haha.. I really do wonder..... *thinks* naaah.... hahah...
Oh, hahaha.. he wasn't able to bring the dim sum onto the plane.. he actually shed a tear about it.. coz he spent all that money for all of us.. only to be told he wasn't able to bring it on board.. ohh.. if only he was on his own private plane, then he'd be able to bring anything he wanted... oh well... at least he gave it to his juniors back in hongkong...
Devon and Stanley's with fabio at the moment.
Devon is Fabio's best friend. I've talked to Devon before.. He's the same age as we are, 17 ongoing 18 this year.. :) He's a really nice guy to talk to.. although I've only talked to him once..
Stanley.. is Charmaine's and Fabio's friend.. so Fabio introduced him to me. Apparrently, his surname's Shaw.. as in Shaw Organisation that Shaw.. and yes, he's related to that company... he's the son of the CEO of Shaw Organisation.. his home is like mega huge!!! it's 6-storeys.. with a man-made lake.. and a man-made beach.. huge grounds... a theme park that looks like it's from Disney World..and he's only from Grade 10... 15 years old..i've talked to stanley twice so far.. he's also a nice kid.. i guess... i don't know.. somehow.. nahh.. nevermind.. oh oh!!! haha.. and fabio told me that Stan's got
"Dumbass" GIANT!!!! hee!! 'dumbass' is actually this monkey which gary gave me.. then when fabio got knocked down by a car in november last year.. i bought him a mini 'dumbass' which i promptly name it as 'dumbass jr.'... hahah!!! and fabio told me just now that stan's got a HUGE JR monkey!! and it's really hilarious coz
it's as huge as fabio!!!! ahahah!!!!
They've been full of praises of Changi Airport.. who wouldn't? hhaha..
ooh.. just got a msg from fabio... oh.. it's about the pics.. one's a modelling shoot, with his friend from canada.. elrich.. what a name! so unique.. another one's lazing about in his car.. ---- woooaaah.. wait a minute.. his CAR?!?! man... lucky guy...---- dexter took that pic.. and another one's taken in his friend's apartment.. in the Jaccuzzi... hahah... (dexter's his bro)
Anyways... heh.. left abit more of my room to clear.. the coffee table area in my room.. and the bags.. and I'm done with my room!!! ^^
and
THEN... I'm left with the computer desk area!!! (^_^) hee.. left it for the last part... actually, it's more or less done... just tidy it all up abit... coz i've already cleaned the keyboards and the actually.. the computer.. hahah...
Anyways, my head hurts somewhat.. so, i'm gonna go have my bath.. and then head to bed... it's like 1.30am now.. anyways, nitey everyone...
As of now,
LattaZzzzz......
P.S: have a Happy Lunar New Year!!!
names names names....
names names names....
so, i've used my nick... Anjelline.. (it just suits me you know..)
http://www.necroticobsession.com/gothname.html
yeah.. so.. using just Anjelline.. woah.. I'm Beautiful Nightmare.. whaahaha... i'm such an ironic person, yah?
bleh.. dinner!!!!
stomach growling liao...
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
EDIT
Frederick Lin's website...
it's such a nice website.. the instrumental pieces are great...
The arranged ones are even nicer...
Anyways, love the site.. He used flash and intergrated it into his blogs and all that..
Everyone should take a look at it.. ^^
lattaZ~!
*yawn* wah.. sho sho tired..
*yawn* wah.. sho sho tired..
was helping mom do some stuff.. er.. well.. fixing up a cupboard that is.. not repairing, but doing a heavy cupboard.. whaha.. so heavy.. took us about 45 minutes to get it done..
Why's the cupboard there? Mum bought a really nice and cool set of
encyclopedias.. ^^ it's got colour and pictures.. usually, encyclopedias are damn lousy.. all in black and yellow (yellow coz of the aged pages)... i've got those you know.. the Britianna Encyclopedias... those are yucky...
one of those annoying aunts gave them to me... coz she thought I liked reading. (yeah, well, I do love reading.. but only books that interest me!)
But anyways, the books.. about 30 odd books, mom paid about $2000 for it... nearly skinned her alive about that... but since the books turned out okay, I'm okay with it...
haiz.. what should I persue in the coming future? I want something to deal with
people... not commerce. Definitely not commerce.. coz I just don't like that sort of backstabbing business.. I just cannot tolerate cunningness.. maybe I'll go into teaching.. like Andy korkor.. haha..haiz.. oh i dunno... this is all so weird and confusing... I'll have to think more about it.. do a little planning.. I bet if Jezz reads this, he'll be going "what little? You have SOOOO MUCH TO PLAN AH, ah girl!!!" ahhaaha...
anyways.. hahah.. poor fabio... got sent to the hospital for food poisoning..
ha! what did I tell you!!
Rotten eggs are yucky!!! they make you sick.. haha.. now he REALLY is sick... oh well.. but he's still in a joking mood.. hope he gets better soon then..
okay...
I wanna go toilet.. hahaha...
As of nows...
will update tomorrow...
byeeeeeeeeez...........
*major huge grin*
lalalalalalaaaaaa.. aHeM!! hahaha... okay, so I'm being my crazy self... so?
heee heee *major huge grin*
Blame it on the happy hormones, I'm just hyped up as usual.. you can't blame meh!!! ^_^
Anyways, went to school for awhile.. whaha.. talked to Mr Seng leh...!!! ^^ That's my additional math teacher.. haha.. still can remember he teach me until he wanted to
vomit blood ah!! ^^ hahaha...
He's sooo tanned now.. Oh yah.. I think he went for the sec 3 camp.. haha.. poor guy.. now like roasted peanut.. so brown and crisp.. Gillian would definitely Drewl.. haha.. won't you, gins?
Anyways, we chatted abit.. he was asking why I didn't go out to get a job.. then he remembered I was studying Chemistry.. heh heh.. sorry ah, I'm not actually studying chem leh, Jezz.. :P Reading, reading.. but dunno if anything go in anot.. hahaha....
Then he asked if I wanted to work in school.. Hmm... you know, I don't mind.. at least can see all my mei mei's ah.. and earn abit more cash too.. hahah... We'll see about it, yeah? ^_~
Then, gave Robyn the books.. and then.. before that, had lunch with mom and dad at Kovan.. we had Yong To Fu.. hehe.. ^^ it was fabulous!! Damn shiok!!
Man.. rained soooo much today.. If I weren't feeling so sick, I'd go out and play in the rain, that's one thing for sure.. that bump on my head makes me nauseous sometimes.. mom was rubbing my bump just now.. she was going
"haiyoh!! girl ah you.... how you hit your head... hit until the orh zeh so huge?? you ah... hai... gone case one...."
Haha.. you know what.. today was fun... even though I didn't really go anywhere far from home.. Dad was being particularly relaxed today.. Bin boh ah neh chow chow..
(that's Hokkien...) haha.. Mum was funny today.. over all, I got along with my parents pretty well today.. Haven't got a clue why... They're so friendly all of a sudden.. maybe it's because CNY's approaching in 2 days..
Anyways, gary, being the protective older brother (not!) was just doing his job today.. asking about who's who and who's what.. hahah.. interogation time.. only coz mom asked him to do it.. I tell him stuff.. he tells mom the stuff I tell him.. coz I don't talk to mom about the stuff only we siblings talk about...
brrr.. it's cold.. haha.. but, it's been a great day so far.... ^_^ who's day has been good so far??
bleh... gotta run now...
LattaZ...
oh gods.. did he really have to do that?
oh gods.. did he really have to do that?
who is this 'he'? haha.. that's fabio.. his junior was asking him who he was sms-ing.. and he said that I was his girl friend that he was messaging.. the poor lil' dude thought I was his
girlfriend... and while he was being
sabotaged by around 2078 campers to sing a Josh Groban song.. (so coincidently the one playing right at this moment) coz they all said that he had a very nice gentlemanly voice... and while I was telling him ways to save himself the humiliation.. he was being embarassed...
"oh, so fabio's messaging his girlfriend..." that was by his junior.. and then every single camper went
"oooooooOOOooOoooOOOHhHhhHhhhh..."
hahaha.. i bet it must have been such a funny sight!! hahah.. then earlier on, by camp tradition.. he had to put on this fruit outfit..it's actually a fruit suit.. haha.. and this year, he's got to wear a banana suit.. hahah.. and made to eat
three types of eggs!!! Raw, half cooked and ROTTEN eggs!!! i was like "eeeeurrgh!!! that's soooo gross!! good luck, dude!! Rotten eggs are yucky!!"
Then, well.. hahaha... he's just sooo funny lah, this fabio...
bah..
it's so late.. i'm sleepy.. and i've got a bloody headache...
night...
LattaZ...
randomness!! ^^;
stags and reindeers, bears and wolves.. randomness!! ^^;
oh don't mind me.. Just being my random self...
haha.. with like 6 months to spare, I'm such a faithful blogger.. aren't I? (^_^)/"
Anyway, do expect alot of ramblings, rants and ragings.. randomness.. ridiculous-ness.. and all sorts of crappy and lame statements every now and then..
Oh, I told you I've got
half a year to spare right? It's only January.. If I'm going to a Tertiary Institute, I'd be having a
half year holiday!!! weee!!!! *major grin* coz usually, schooling in singapore starts in January.. or March.. March only for post-secondary schools.. and June/July intakes are usually for the Universities or the Tertiary Schools (eg.
Polytechnics...)
I guess if I could, I'd go to Post-secondary school.. it's called Junior College.. I'd have to sit for my GCE 'A' levels. It's got its pros and cons.. PRos.. is that if I do really well, I'd have more choices to choose and more unis would want me.... The scope level is definitely much higher than compared to a student in a polytechnic.. however, the cons in doing this JC thing.. is that if you don't do good... no one wants you.. and you're just left stranded..
And as for Polytechnic..you just immediately specialise in an area...I was thinking of specialising in BioMedical Science.. where I'd focus and zoom in on Heamatology or Genetics..
But I just don't know... haiz.. what if I don't do good in my results..
That's my biggest fear at the moment.. Not doing well in school.. Everyone has confidence that I'll do well.. somehow I'm reassured by that.. but, I just can't help but feel.. anxiety?
and nervousness.. and well.. I'm just getting so paranoid thinking about it..
All this waiting just makes me worry and worry so much.. I just.. *sighs* I just don't know what I
should do.. it's so..
antagonisingly LONG you know...
Just hope my patience doesn't wear thin.. results comes out on Feb 28th, or so I've heard. Sucks to be a student waiting for some damned results... I do hope to get something good out from all the waiting. Perhaps I should follow yihan's advice.. to go do something I enjoy..
Debbz, when are you gonna call me? Fix up a date so we can go crapping again... :P
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Gotta love the song playing on
Jackson's blog.. Namie Amuro's "Come" it's rather catchy, albeit not knowing what she was singing except for the english parts..
Also that track I just transfered from
Jonno.. (ahh.. another nick for best friend Jonathan.. ;P) gotta love that fella.. haha.. he's just
soooo adorable..! Anyway, jon gives me all sorts of great songs.. it's a no wonder why I love him
soooo much.. haha... The other day, it was the Welsh lullaby.. sooo soothing.. really calm me down loads, and I
really needed it..
Then came that other instrumental piece called "Song from a secret garden" by The Secret Garden.. nice..
And then just now, Jon just gave me another track.. yah.. I've just repeated myself.. heh.. ^^ sorry if I ramble.. I'm tired.. even though I've been sleeping all day.. ^^;
anyways, the latest track is from "Spirited Away: The Reprise" it's sooo nice... tells such a
beautiful story.. haha.. I nearly typed "Spitted Away: The Prisere" my gods.. I need sleep..
What is wrong with me ??
Okay, honest opinions, who wants the song on the blog out? I'll try to get a good one soon... so, you'll just have to stick to my favourite singer of the moment,
Josh Groban... The track's called
"You Raise me Up" It's one of my favourite tracks on his latest album. It's also one of Jezzie kor kor's favourite track too.. right, jezz?
blah-ness... haha.. Random-ness is overcoming me now.. so I gotta say bye bye now...
LattAZzzzz..... (-.-)
Of Junie and Junie...
Oh, just to clear up a few doubts.. -->> Of Junie and Junie... Of the BABE and the HUMAN.. hee hee.. Junius, you're gonna get what you solely deserve! *wink*
You see.. Fabio bought me a pig.. a babe..
a dwarf pig to be exact.. you know, the ones you see in Uptown Girls.. heh, yea, not exactly a present many would think of getting, but Junie's just
so cute and unique.. so Fabio made his dad buy him down.. haha.. he had half a mind not to give it to me coz Junie's just too adorable.. So when Junie finally got to Fabio (in LA), Fabio told me "it's okay if you don't want the babe, I understand.. soo.. you still want him?" hahaha..
OF COURSE!!! you silly babe-luver!! haha.. But, knowing my mom, I couldn't keep Junie, so we came to an agreement.. I get to name the babe, and he's still mine.. but Fabio gets to take care of my cute little piggy.. ^^ nice and we're both happy with that arrangement..
So, I thought for a while.. wondering what I should name the babe. I can't possibly let Fabio go around calling him "here Pig!! Pigggy...!!! PIG!!!!" haha.. and certainly not some sissified name like "Cuttie" or what not.. oh man.. Fabio wanted to name him Cuddles.. I mean, honestly! Cuddles? *eyebrow twitches*
Anyways, I insisted on Junie, but he wanted Cuddles, so, the babe's called Junie Cuddles now.. ^^ Nice name, right? Yeah, I know Junie would be such a wonderful name!
Why on earth the name Junie? heee!! The fun starts here...
Remember the title? something about Junius getting what he solely deserves?
Yeah, well.. you see.. Junius is my 'brother'.. and as siblings.. you just do stuff.. disgusting stuff that irks others right in front of each other right? well, Junius likes to eat.. and he just stuffes his face like a pig sometimes...
he ate a whole prawn once... shell, head and all... and I was like "eeewwwwwwww.... that's ugh.. gross..." But anyways, Junie, as a babe.. reminded me of Junius..
And I can't possibly let a pet have such a formal name.. so, I had to make the name less formal, a little cuter... (since Fabio said the babe was just soooooo irresistable) at the same time.. Junius.. being the idiot 'brother' he is... he was fooling around, telling me how he'd eat my lil' piggy up.. being angry with him.. I had the perfect revenge plan.. as well as a cute pig to name...
so... Junie came up!! ^^ oh let me tell you.. Our dear Junius here wasn't not one bit happy, oh no... he wasn't...
He was very pissed off with me, in fact.. *wicked grin* serves you right too, Sianie Junie.. who ask you, make fun of my babe.. *sends death glare in his direction*
Anyways, I
MUST say, the name Junie on my cute lil pig is very much appropriate..
Can't wait to meet the little tyke soon.. heh heh...
oh, and other stuff to clear up...
A convent's like a prep school.. you know.. those sort of high-discipline, no swearing, no jewellery, no sports schools, no sneakers, no make up... we've got our uniforms (hell, every secondary school in singapore has a uniform.. save for two schools..) but my school's different. Coz we're sorta like a private school.. government-aided.. but still, we have this high status reputation.. we've got our own school socks, school jackets, school pullovers.. no, no school bags.. nearly though.. soon, we'll have our own unique school uniform that's different from the other CHIJ schools around.. and we'll be having our own school shoes too.. and the girls would have to wear ties on some days and all that..
Oh and Shawn..
I better get on that matter, I said I'd get on to that fool one of these days..
well, Sharon and I know shawn through Tution class.. Physics tution.. and well, we thought he was okay. I mean, he's this nice guy.. abit irritating and annoying, but still bearable.. talking to him face-to-face is okay. But when talking to him over the phone and all that, I think I'll be the first one to wring his skinny neck. He's just this over-ego-ed guy who doesn't know the meaning of "sorry, I don't wanna talk to you now, so piss off.." but anyways, he lied to sharon.. about some stuff.. and then later on, he tried acting the big guy around.. When I heard sharon telling me about that fella acting like some machosist(sp?).. I just didn't like him from then on.. so yeah, Jerk off, jerk. *sends more death glares*
oh yeah, (sp?) means short for (spelling?).. haha.. I'm not the best writer you can find.. you'll still see me making spelling and grammar errors all the time..
okay, what else is there to clear up on...
um... can't think of anything now.. so, okay, that's it for now...
byeeeeZ!!
Let the good lord take me away.. no way...
Let the good lord take me away.. no way...
Majin told me last night.. what a nihilist meant. I've never heard of the word before.. but yeah.. he told me it's the Ultimate Religion..
looked it up in the dictionary.. the description given to me was kinda vague.
But anyways.. I don't like preaching, neither do I enjoy praying. But I know there's this god somewhere... so but anyways, this is such a sensitive topic.. case closed till further notice.
Damn, I sound like a lawyer! ^^
Maybe I
should become a lawyer...be like Eric korkor.. he's a socilitor.. free-lance actually.. he's now working in some company as advising consultant or something like that.. but I don't wanna be him and not get married.. he's coming 40 and still a bachelor.. a bachelor with many good degrees, not just a bachelor degree, mind you. He went to UK to study Law.. whaha..
Or maybe I oughta be like Andy kor kor.. he's on the pathway of his dad's.. becoming a teacher. But he's got a honours degree at 23.. or was that 21.. he's only 4 years older than his younger brother (whose name so coincidently is Eric as well).. yeah, he's got his honours at 21.. he's HongKong's top student, or so I've heard. sooo many scholarships.. and then he graduated from the Hongkong Science and Technology Uni.. I heard it's like the best Science Uni they have there.. He practically went to school for free.. lucky guy.. but he's like pure genius..went through a major neurological surgery years back when he was 16, I think. It was brain tumour at the neck stem there.. all I know is that if the docs didn't operate properly, there goes my cousin.
Eric's another cool guy.. haha.. he's in the
Rugby's U-18 National Team in hongkong.. Previously, he was all about
football, football and football.. (as in soccer) I remembered Man U (or was that Arsenal?) was his favourite club.. and now, it's
rugby, rugby and more rugby..!! hahaha.. but I heard from Aunt Teresa he scores his A's.. I'm not really sure which institute he's at at the moment.. gotta ask him the next time I see him online.. hee..!! I
must boast about this cousin of mine.. He completed Piano at 14 or 15.. and he was in the VolleyBall team.. the soccer team, and now, the rugby team.. he's great in his studies.. hahah.. and he looks a total cross-between his parents!!
I'm not sure how Andy looks like now.. haven't seen him in
AGES!!!
Anyways, they're all so
wei da!! hahah... man.. I oughta stop using chinese in my entries.. usually it's like Singlish that I add in.. haha.. who wants to know how to speak Singlish!!
And
YES, if you haven't noticed (you prolly haven't.. for some blur sotongs..) I am from
SINGAPORE... that's right.. ;P can't say I love it much here.. but this place is all I've got. Unless another country's willing to take me in as their citizen immediately? hahaha.. just kidding.. But, no matter what, I love this country of mine.. the weather's perfect almost everyday, it's eternally summer, you know.. stuff here can get really expensive.. water doesn't come cheap.. so does electricity.. or gas.. or cars.. or houses.. actually.. every single damn thing here is so damn expensive..
Well, compared to school canteen food, it is!! *sheepish grin*
anyways..
I didn't go out the whole of today!! haha.. can you believe it?? I actually had to
find excuses just not to go out.. was sleeping
before and after lunch.. just came back from er ku's place (which is just 3 steps next door).. I was helping her to make the dumplings for the steamboat for the upcoming Lunar New Year..
Just went to see Jayson's school webpage.. he studies in
King's College at the moment... go check it out! Looks nice.. the school's history looks really good.. heh.. Jayson said he and his friend did the site for the school.. nice job done Jayson! ^^
Oooh.. reminds me.. Fabio's in hongkong too.. He'll be chief commander in the collaborated Sports camp that he's going to.. told me it's starting tomorrow.. poor guy.. haha.. he's gotta shout out all his commands and he can't use a loud hailer what so ever.. the camp's being collaborated with ACISS
[Anglo-Chinese International Sports School].. and hahaha.. he bought soooo much dimsum just now!! he was at Sweet Dynasty.. eating beancurd and... ah.. couldn't remember.. but anyways.. he nearly bought down the whole shop by buying HK$528 worth of dimsum... haha.. he's just so cute.. the moment he bought them, he went messaging me.. he sounded so excited.. I bet he was jumping up and down and grinning away.. haha.. I bet he was like "I bought this and that and that and that.. oooh!!! and that too!!" *shakes head*
oh, note to self: need to give Robyn, Jan, Char and ZiQin the books.. whahah..
I'm such a good senior...
*big ego smirk*
what...?
Can't I just be a good senior? *big ego smirk again*
hee..
I'm just soooooo annoying, aren't I?
(^_~)/"
neh neh!!! hahahaha....
LattaZ!!! ^^
ugh... where's me bed.. eh?
ugh... where's me bed.. eh?
This... isn't what I expected. No, not the way I wanted my life to turn out to be. I thought more like.. sports and fun everyday.. not running about shopping malls.. going for huge lunches.. missing out on wedding dinners..
Yeah, cousin Ai Hui is getting married today.. actually, technically, she's married now.. just celebrating it now.. and then the dinner tonight..
If there's one thing I love about us Chinese.. it's the weddings.. It's huge, boisterous.. noisy.. and very very alcoholic. heh heh.. oh, how could I forget.. the fooooooood...
but anyways.. side-tracked there.. oh yeah..didn't really expect to be walking everyday.. you know.. my ankles are swollen somewhat.. I've walked too much. I'm not going
ANYWHERE tomorrow.. well, unless mom wants me to go to guah ma's place..
(wai po.. get it? okay, that's maternal-side grandma.. get it now? no?!?!? urgh! simple simple english... Mom's mom..)
oh and Junius.. my god-bro.. aka.. The Sianie Junie.. The human Junie.. (Junie the babe's called Junie Cuddles.. Fabio and I decided he oughta be called Junie cuddles.. *sighs* such a cute name!) Junius! *sends death glares*
one of these days, you're gonna get slaughtered by ME!! I swear, you're one of the most infuriating people I've
EVER known.. but somehow, I still like ya.. well, on account that you're my 'brother' lah..
Well, I was only complaining about the
EVENING of 15 Jan... didn't you not read 15th's blog? I was with my 'mei'... from 12.55 out of the house till like 5pm leh!!! of course.. we spent like 2 hours eating.. and the other 3 hours walking and talking and standing around...
Tiring leh! the night before I didn't sleep really well.. slept at 3 the night before yesterday.. woke up at 8....
Oh, I slept at 1am last night.. and woke up exactly 8 hours later.. haha.. and then I dragged my way to Suntec again today.. at 11am.. I really took my time to get there.. just strolling right into the shop and saying, "hey sharon.." hahah... sharon was in Reds Hair Dresser's shop to do her hair just now..
Sat there waiting for her.. so boring.. anyways... i'm exhausted...
gonna get some shut eye for the moment..
LattaZ...
*YAAAAAWN!!!* sho sho TIRED!! u.u
*YAAAAAWN!!!* sho sho TIRED!! u.u
okay, since 6pm, I've been walking... and walking.. and walking..
and WALKING...
ALL over Suntec City Mall... my gods.. you had no pity or mercy over me, I think..
Well, I bet it could've been worse for me if I didn't make it known that I was exhausted.. hahaha.. had poor sharon wondering if i could even walk another step after sitting down in that bus..
oh, that bus.. *rolls eyes and glares* these two guys sitting behind us.. they were just talking away
soooo loudly.. about their
pathetic, low-lying, and practically worthless ROMANCE life.. I mean, my god...
"If the girl asks if you're attached, just lie and say no! oh, and remember, dude.. if one of the girls ask if you could come over for the night for a while,
ALWAYS bring the condoms.. you'll never know when you'll need it."
Oh, honey... go hump a tree, then f*ck your ass after you're done with it.. *rolls eyes again* bastards. I had half the mind to turn around to punch their bloody farking faces in... Why? Coz if I'm sure, that
ass hole was talking cheap of a good friend of mine! my gods, he actually wanted have a go with Sheena! ugh! I just really
do hope that it's NOT the Sheena I know.. if it were really her, I'd be the first one to
CASTRATE that bloody son of a bitch.
Anyways.. running around a HUGE place like Suntec, for 5 hours, is
NOT my idea of excersise.. but I
did have a huge lunch.. and a lollipop when I got to Muchas Boutique... but that was at 6.45? oh well...
argh.. i can't be bothered about anything now.. so pooped out....
Gonna go chill out..
LattaZ..
thanks jan!
such a full meal..! Thanks Jan!! luv ya too!
Get it off your sick minds, that's my 'sis' I was talking about.. *smirks*
Jan and I went for lunch today.. at
Compass Point's Pizza Hut.. :) it was goooood... we were
stuffed!!! sooo full! That pan pizza was had a cheesed-filled crust!! Mmmm.. lovely! Though, that was like another $4 more.. oh well, it was well worthed it.. *grin* ^.^ hee! and while everyone else were in Mc'D's just next door and looking in at us eating great pizza.. they're all there eating cheap burgers...
After food, we went walking about.. heh heh.. we found these two identical rings at this shop.. it's got the inscriptions from the LoTR's The Ring.. on it.. while it obviously was a fake.. we bought them down.. haha.. just for the fun of it.. so, we took one each and called it our 'fellowship ring'.. hee.. well, at least we've got some sort of bonding.. lolx!
What else is there?
Bleh.. i'm so tired out now.. walked for 2 hours..oh, hold on.. Sharon wants me to accompany her to go do some shopping.. I'm sooo afraid I'd just fall flat on my face and doze off like that.. drooling all over the floor.. heh heh.. ^^" then she's got to drag me home wor... hahaha.... oh man, that means I've got to
walk again!!!! darn! *yawns* maybe I ought to get a quick shut up and some shut eye for a few minutes.. ugh.. fine.. i'll go now, i'll go now... To
Orchard Road I mean... ugh.. more crowds and more walking...
Have I told you how much I wished I was people hater and an anti-social?
*slouches, sighs, and drags her feet away*
ciao...
P.S.: god, please have some mercy and take some pity on your not-so-humble servant -- wait, I don't serve, I only be a fan of yours.. have all that stuff I just said on your not-so-humble fan of yours... In this, I pray through myself and no one else. Amen. God!! HEAVENS!! SAVE MEH!!! SOMEBADAE!!!
It's anotha loooooong day for meh...
It's anotha loooooong day for meh...
Why's that so?
Hmm... perhaps, this is how I'll do stuff from now on (that's if I can help it..)....
I'll be writing stuff that I'd be doing.. Only so that I can keep track of what I do.. ('sides, no one else except Jezzie kor and Sianie Junie (heh, new nick name for Junius!! ^.^) reads these lame attempts of bloggin'... *grimaces*
Anyways,
1. Clean my room (part & parcel of Pre-Lunar New Year stuff..)
2. Meet Jan for lunch at Pizza Hut.. (yummies! ^^)
3. Complete those writtien songs with a couple of good tunes...
hahah.. I'll let you in on a secret!! okay, maybe I wont.. hahah.. :P It's no secret anyways, no one asks me about it.. (^_~)
Bleh.. I write my own songs.. yippees!! haha.. I write my own stories, and my own poems.. i've got like 46 poems in this computer I'm using.. I'll be printing them out soon, creating book covers, then bringing it to the publishing house to get a few copies done... pass it around to my best of friends and closest of buddies!!!
The songs.. ahh well.. I only write them out. Haven't the heart to sing it out to anyone.. just don't get me to sing. I think you'd die in a face of grimace..
I mean it!! (heh, doesn't mean that I love singing, I have to be a good singer!!)
Perhaps I'll be a songwriter someday... haha.. wow, I'm multi-talented!! keke!! *major grin*
I can play the electone, I can compose my own songs, I write my own stories, I'm okay in my studies, but I think I suck at sports.. *shrugs* 's not like I have to be the best in everything...oh wait, maybe I have to be best in everything I do.. but
SO much to do, in SO little time!!!
Oh!! OHHH!!! Big News Flash!!!
I'm hooked on to chinese songs!! *big drama gasp* O.o why's it that I'm over reacting to that?? I'll tell you why? I hate chinese with a passion.. Yeah, so I scraped past with a C6.. that's just plain 50/100... but still.. I just don't like the subject even though I
HAVE been starting to speak a little bit more chinese nowadays.. (influence is from the courtesy of mom, mind you.. she speaks chinese to me non-stop everyday and won't answer till I come up with an ans. in chinese) oh.. what were the songs again.. that singer.. bleh! I dont know her name.. She's called Xiao Xiao.. she's a ballerina, apparently..
Jian Chi-en and
Ai Yao Dang Tang Tang... mom says I prolly like more songs than those two.. maybe, yeah.. prolly a few here and there from the local singers Sun Yan Zi and Fan Wen Fang.. (Stefanie Sun and Fann Wong) and some from Faye Wong.. Mom kinda dislikes her style of singing.. it's like lazy.. and she drawls.. but her voice somehow seems really clear, in a way..
Oh, you want to know what I think is good stuff? I'm an english-buff freak.. I listen all things english.. lol... not really, jap stuff here and there.. Delta Goodrem's okay, Micheal Buble.. haha.. took me 2 months to get sick of his songs.. the last time round.. It took me... 6 months to get over and sick with Avril Lavinge's
RECORDED tracks.. not the live ones.. the studio does wonders to your voice, you know? ^^ I still am liking her songs on the album, just that I seldom listen to her nowadays..
Billy Gilman's great too.. or well.. he was.. till his voice cracked and he grew up.. but he's got a powerful voice that I'm dying to have.. *two thumbs up* Sweet!
Michelle Branch is good too.. only her tunes are good. She and Vanessa Carlton makes their songs just too easy to lip-synch.. (sp?) they're so easy to sing along with.. I do it all the time with Michelle lye whenever their tracks come on the radio.. heh heh..
oh man, I'm on a music-review roll... And I think I will stop it.. coz it's
NEVER ending.. trust me on that.. bleh.. okay.. shush for me now...
LattaZ!!!
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