5th Edition Genetics

for sharing again!!!
Mood: Happy

I have been.... *enlightened mood* yesh, enlightened today..
Let me share with you some stuff I read in this book I've borrowed..

From the book of "Open Heart, Open Mind - Practical lessons in loving yourself" by Swami Chetanananda:

"A counter-intuitive approach

The logic of love is a logic of paradox. It tells you to relax when your first instinct is to tighten up. It tells you to let go of boundaries when you most want to defend them. It tells you to stop controlling things, even when you have no idea what will happen if you let go. It tells you to give of yourself completely when you might rather be thinking of as your own needs. In other words, it is a logic that is counter-intuitive: It calls you to go counter to all the things your intuitions ordinarily tell you to do.

This means that when you feel like holding on, you probably ought to let go; when you feel like taking something for yourself, you probably ought to be giving. On the other hand, when you have the big urge to give, you ought to think again; when you find yourself chasing after something, you should slow down and wait; and when you find yourself running away from something, you at least ought to turn and meet it.

These are all examples of a counter-intuitive approach. You start by observing your initial, intuitive responses to situations, and then practice them around.

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There is no thinking or reasoning our way through the challenges in our lives, either. This is because of the nature of the mind, whose favourite question is some variation on the all-time favourite human theme-song, "What's Going to Happen to Me?" So once we find ourselves trying to think these things through, we tend to get lost in that question. Any answer we come up with is going to have little to do with real Love, and more to do with some form of self-interest."

Yup.. I will put more up tomorrow if I have the time and strength to do so.. hahas...

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Lecture in BioChemistry today rocks!!!! I'm starting to like this Alvin aka Snape fellow.. hahas.. he puts his point across really well and yeah, I kinda respect him. :)
heh heh.. taking a closer look at this lecturer, there's only one thing to say about him:

HE LOOKS LIKE YIHAN!!!!!


bwahhas.. omigawd, omigawd!!! >__<
Seriously, he does you know... tsk tsk...
But anyway, he seems a nice guy when lecture's over and all...
I will enjoy this teacher's presence...

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After school, I wished half of the class "Happy new year". um, well....
just the half who were present.. heh heh...
My class's attendance was horrid today. 1/3 of them didn't turn up I'm thinking. *shakes her head*

but anyway, yeah....
Going over to debra's place later for dinner!!! *grins* I shall want to bring a bottle of champagne or wine over to celebrate with them! haha!!!
Pity though, rica and ninah don't wanna come.. haiz.. oh well.. :S that's half the fun gone... =(

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The sky is crying. (but it's just the monsoon season you see..)
But in the event of that blasted tsunami (which I still regard as "WAAAAY COOOL!!"), I'd say, the sky is mourning, for the lost of that 123,188 people (as on today's papers).. and I'm sure it's risen up to nearly 150K now... *sighs*

The sky weeps for the lost, the sorrow of the others, the pain that we all feel.
I don't know who'd feel pain for all that lost, or who'd be ignorant enough not to know what's going on.. but I'll be sure to keep up with it..

My condolensces goes out to the families and countries (including my country too!) for the lost of those little lives of the many thousands.

Soon, epidemics would arrive too. It's something we can't really prevent at such a short time.

I just watched the news...
How a muslim mosque would stand unscathed in all the midst of all that debris and sodden mess is beyond my understanding. Perhaps it's the spiritual faith that sits in that holy place, I wouldn't know, but it gives the people there a place to worship and look for shelter..

But how it sits there unscathed, is really beyond me...
This is truly a work of the higher beings. They're showing me that they exist, for this once.

dammit.. everytime I view new stuff about the Tsunami, my heart breaks to watch the little ones cry or parents crying over the death of their little ones.. =( it's a sad sight..

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well, I'm gonna cook something to fill this stomach of mine.. I'm starving! >__<

Toodles for now! ;)

yes! finally SOME free time!
Mood: tired out

Well, okay! :P Finally, I found some free time!!! (which is now) That's why I'm blogging a little.

Today, freaking shit hell bloody *toot*... -_-||
blardy hell! PS, I shall NEVER support you and your cranky ideas ever again. dammit.
PS told ally and I to put on our pinafores and wear a shirt over it and go for class.

Gawdammit.

Gawd-damn-fucking-it. >__<

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Anyway, so yeah, that's what we did.. I got to school earlier than those two old hags and (yes, you're HAGS..) I realised that I'd left my Organic Chem text on the bus.. so PS and I went to college bookstore's next door to get a NYP t-shirt, and then we went to drop off our bags at the band room and headed down to the Bus interchange's control station to see if the kind bus driver had my book left there.
We met ally alont the way, and YEAY!!!! ahahas.. got my lost baby back and we headed for school..

Ally and PS watched Naruto while I busied myself with copying down ally's org chem stuff.. hahas.. ;)

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Class was a bore, as usual...
Today's Clement's birthday.. wished him happy birthday twice..
Ummmm.. then practical was with Lisa Cha. She is the cutest lady I've ever met!!!
^___^

I have my classmates to vouch for that! *grins*

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After school, PS, ally, Ian and I headed for Food Junction (FJ).

Josephine was playing around with her camera-phone, and she aimed her camera at me and of course, if one wants to look good on camera, one has to smile so that's what I did and she said that I was photogenic coz I smiled... heh.. okay...
so those who DON'T smile.. aren't photogenic? hahahahs...

We met weisheng at FJ, he was with his friend geraldine.. then yeah, I had ban mian.. it is delicious!!!!

Well, I left before any of them to rush all the way to somerset MRT to meet this alex guy from debates club. He told me that we were to meet him there so he can bring us to the coach's place for class..
And then.. and then hor... alex told me last minute.. (After I STEPPED ACROSS the blardy barriers) that coach was sick so class's cancelled.

Blardy annoying coach.

OF ALL DAYS.... WHY today!?!?!?!? >__<

*sighs* oh well.... can't be helped.

So I called mom up to tell her I was going home.. then I gave amanda a call to her home, no one picked up, then to her mobile, still no one picked up.. so I gave up and trudged home.

Going home was a miracle.. or at least it seemed to me.. haha.. I caught many stares to my book, my stupid pinafore and yeah, I was just staring right back at them..
didn't know how I managed it, but they seemed uneasy when I stared back at them.. hahs...

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Well, okay, I'm gonna go read some naruto now!!! bwhahahas.. byeeeee...

Balls of Fish? what the hell?!?
Mood: ridiculed

PS came up with some lame term the other day, yesterday I think.
She'd change Fishballs to Balls of Fish.
So assuming anything ending with "ball" becomes "balls of ______"...

Then we'd have this:

Balls of sotong
Balls of ping-pong
Balls of basket
Balls of meat
Balls of soft

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wtf?!

Dammit. it's been going on non-stop between the Sinister Trio all through lunch and Micro B e-prac.
Madness...

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Naruto has taken over me!!! >____< it's sooooo fun to watch that cartoon.
You know, actually I vowed not to watch a serial cartoon like Naruto. Coz I'd end up getting hooked on to it, and I can't survive without it till it's over. That's how bad my addiction to cartoon is. I can ignore everything and everyone just for the sake of watching a serial cartoon I love watching.

So, sorry if I don't pay attention to you. heh heh heh...

naruto rocks!!! *does the head-banging thing*

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Was reflecting on the situation of that cool blast of tsunami in Thailand... but that means that once again, my trip overseas has been cancelled.. =(

Though it's killed over 68,000 people.. (and the numbers are still going up..

It's heart breaking to watch those broken people, telling their stories of the things that were so precious to them, it was their lives.. now, they have nothing, no one, and will have to start all over from scratch.

This is worse than before... the death rates are rising slowly but surely, and increasingly saddening every second more that I keep hearing it...

This won't end very soon.. not very soon indeed.

I'm blessed to be in Singapore. Although should a tsunami or volcano erupt and hit the shores of singapore... that'll be it for me folks! I'll see all of you in like 6 months then.. ;)

Hahaha... anyway, I am off to do my organic chemistry tutorial homework...
See you guys in a bit.. expect lesser blogging from me.. toodles!

heh heh, there WAS a thought that I'd wanted to tell all of you when I get home everytime I went out.


That is, the life lobbies of my side of the block.

It's called a War zone.

A freaking war zone, I'm telling you.
Rubbles of chipped out concrete, jack-hammered granites...
pfft. Every morning, a few hundred of us (me included) have to tough through that never ending war zone of The lift lobbies.

It's all over the place, 1st floor, 5th floor, 9th floor, and 12th floor.

Massive, crazy, head-ache causing jack-hammering by the blangadeshies are annoying the hell outta me every morning, but hey, at least they get me up for school on time..

But anyway, since the major renovations all over my block, side A-B is nearly done while C-D still looks like it belongs to the 70's.. poor things.
It's a no wonder the residents from THAT side of the block ALWAYS use OUR side of the block.

Anyway, there's school tomorrow. Love tomorrow. I am going to slack tomorrow.

McD's delivery, call: six-triple seven-three-triple seven
that's 6777-3777

yeah, if you want Pizza Hut's, call: (well, it so happens i just conveniently forgot their number. =S)

blah blah blah... this is super nice, I'll be stuck at home. debra's working, rica's out somewhere. (god knows where. she don't tell me anything)


I am SO going to redo my blog layouts. The current one is getting dull.

Life is a blessing of many kinds, it is perfect and imperfect in EVERY way.
You can never be too happy or too sad about something that has happened in your life, for the happiest moments were spent in your mother's womb before you were given your first breath of life, of soul. And your saddest moments were when you lie on your dying bed, about to give your last breath, when you watch tears of sadness roll down the cheeks of your best loved ones.



Treasure your life. And appreciate it for all it's worth now.

just majorly bored outta my mind
Mood: bored

Well, yesterday, I meant to do a meaningful entry, but I ended up watching tv, and sleeping, so yeah.. even my studying was put off on hold. Today, I shall TRY to study...

Whatever it is, if there's anything you need to talk to me about, call me. Well, that's if you know my number lah, if not, you can contact me over MSN Chat.

so yeap....
anyway, I'm.. I dunno... getting out of touch with my friends.. =(
Gonna go crazy again, I'm telling you...

hahs..
but first, I shall go study.

Blog later.. (hopefully..)

Toodles! ;)

christmas is a time of sharing... my thoughts with you..
Mood: bored

Nah... hahas... well, not much thoughts...
Here's some songs I came by... from an old CD I found in my room a week back..
It's by Billy Gilman.
So, I'm sharing these lyrics this christmas! :)


Billy Gilman ~*~ I could... If they would

If they would find a cure when I'm a kid
I could ride a bike, and sail on rollerblades, and
I could go on really long nature hikes


If they would find a cure when I'm a teenager
I could earn my license and drive a car, and
I could dance every dance at my senior prom


If they would find a cure when I'm a young adult
I could travel around the world and teach peace, and
I could marry and have children of my own


I could... if they would
I could... if they would


If they would find a cure when I'm grown old
I could visit exotic places and appreciate culture
And proudly share pictures of my grandchildren


If they would find a cure when I'm alive
I could live each without pain, and
I could celebrate the biggest "thank you" of life ever


I could... if they would
I could... if they would


If they would find a cure when I'm buried into heaven
I could still celebrate with my brothers and sister there, and
I could still be happy knowing that I,
Knowing that I, was a part of the effort


Possession
One of my greatest fears is "It"
I can't touch it, but I can feel it
It does not have a taste or smell,
But I can hear it in my spirit.

CHORUS
It is deep inside of me,
It makes me fear my memory
One day I’ll live peacefully
Without the fear of "It"

It is something I can't see
It can never possess me
It always tries to take control,
I can defeat it if I believe it.

CHORUS
It is deep inside of me,
It makes me fear my memory
One day I’ll live peacefully
Without the fear of "It"

It keeps running through my mind,
I have to fight it time and time
And time and time and time
And time again...

CHORUS
It is deep inside of me,
It makes me fear my memory
One day I’ll live peacefully
Without the fear of "It"
The more I understand about it
The less my world revolves around it
Then I can just live out my life
Without the fear of "It"

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There's a whole lot more.. but I think these would do for now....
anyway, time to study....

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

Toodles! ;)

so blardy effing tired.
Mood: exhausted. okay, not quite..


see, I had this wonderful nap on the way home in the car Uncle Philip was driving...

Friday Afternoon

Today, Bertram upped and ditched us to go gyming again!!! >__< Spastic guy...
anyway, yeah...

Russell decided to tagalong (ugh! that rascal) with us today. so annoying that boy... haiz...
Anyway, he complained and whinned like a WHOLE lot today. blardy hell. Shall shove a shoe in his trap if he whines the next time.

We went to NYDC for dinner. it was an elephancinno (Iced irish cream coffee) for me, and I shared some lagsana and 2 mudpies with deb and russ..

After NYDC, we went to paragon, to Quicksilver to get Russ's belt, and then he left after that to go home. He was waiting for his girlfriend to call.. hahs.. that boy.. eh, I'm telling you, he's fuckin' pervertic lor!!! grrr....

So yeah... deb and I went to the konica hill.. hahas.. we were there like super super early! I was standing right in front of that ice skating thing (it's not real ice, it's just polymere or something like that. it's like hard slippery plastic) and then after 5 minutes, I realised that I was at the MAD Movement Hub building. And then I saw Mr Raymond, so I told deb to sit still while I went in to talk to raymond. Boy, was he surprised to see me there! he was like "Came to take a look? it's great to have you here! got free time, just drop by any time, okay?" he was rather busy though, on the phone constantly, but he spent about 5 minutes talking to me and filling me on the stuff that had been going on. :) hahs... so cool...

Anyway, after about an hour later, they allowed us to go into the rink after they'd covered up the floor. and then, deba and I took some front seats. Her classmate Terrence came by a little later on. He reminded me of Ken.. hahas.. as in Hirayama Ken.. coz of his built and hair.. hahas...

So yeap... chatted a little here and there, then deb's mom came by and then she and mah neh nek (Yati, deb's maid) went to the back to sit down. Then after that, show started.

It was rather boring.. then the City Harvest Church youth groups performed a variety of stuff that looked oddly copied from NYP's fusion dance.. either way, I think NYP fusion dance work sucks a whole lot, can't be compared to CHC... man.. those CHC dancers are SOOOOOO cheographed and synchronised, you'd wonder if they were programmed to dance that way, with the arms in that particular angle and all that...

Yeah, a hell load of performances later, it was THE countdown to christmas day... it was soooo fun!! hahas.. then later on, Jay-jay lin came on stage, he got caught in the jam outside...

he performed a little and yeah, I dragged them out of there coz Aunt Jean haven't had her dinner/supper. and I wanted to pee badly.. (try 5 hours with LOTS of drinking of water and going without the toilet) my bladder was about to BURST i'm telling you... so yeah, we walked down all the way to that McD's after Hilton Hotel (i've always wondered if the Hilton hotel belonged to Paris Hilton's family? someone, please enlighten me if you know anything about it)

Yeah.. so after all that peeing... we walked a hell lot more, and yeah, got sprayed by some ass with lotsa lotsa foam.. actually, we were attacked with so much foam at Wheelock Place. crazy bastards.

Anyway, we took a cab down to Chinatown.. to this place where they served their reknowned porridge... I had century eggs and cuttlefish in my porridge... yummy! hahahs...

After all that porridge, when uncle philip was around... we went back to the car...
and yeah, Uncle philip sent Terrence home first... he'd turned back to find me and deb fast asleep...
hahs...
oh man... >__<

Well, yep... that's really about it..
and it's like 3.45am now... time for me to sleeeeeep!!!


I am SOOOO tired!!!! >__< thank goodness there isn't meeting tomorrow, or I'll die i'm telling you...

Well...
Toodledidoodays!!! have fun peeps!

Happy christmas! ;)

=)
Mood: a lil' bored


Hee... gonna meet up with Bertram and Debra later!!! to watch Oceans 12 with the both of them since the other 2/3 of My Sinister Trio didn't want to...

Hahas.. Kung Fu Hustle is great though!!! hahahs.. that Buddha's Palm Move was spectacular!! hahas..
I loooooove Stephen Chow's films.. hahas... or rather any good movie he acts in.. hee hee.. they're worth the watch! ;)

I can't wait for Meet The Fockers either!! hahahas.. another Ben Stiller movie.. I lurve it! :D

Anyway, tonight is the Christmas countdown @ Orchard, I'll be there with debra.. Not sure about bertram, but yeah.. hahs.. mom allowed me to go for tonight's late night event, but she stated her reluctance about it. "I thought it's only New year's eve countdowns.. why is there a CHRISTMAS countdown? this is retarded!" haha.... oh well...

So yeah, had 1/2 day of school today.. didn't have cell bio tutorial (coz it's like e-tutorial alllll the way) like SWEEEEEET!!! *mwah* i love cell bio tutorials! hahhas..

So yuppidodups! ;) the Biochem lecturer is MAD i'm telling you. he's like this paranoid freak who's got this impulsive thing about time management and punctuality. Bloody ku ku in his head.. i'm telling you.. hahahahs...

I came into the lecture theatre like TEN minutes late.. no, FIVE... (since he said he gives a 5 minute lee-way. however you spell that) and he's like "It's 8.10. EIGHT TEN!!!!" I turned around and looked at him like he was some psycho-maniac on the loose and he just said "next time be earlier please ah.." heh. whatever doode.

Like how Jasrie described him to be, he IS truly a Professor Snape wannabe, just with this really dark sense of humour. Good desciption there, Jasrie.. really good one..

Anyway... Dr Izzac Lim became Dr Lim Tian Khoon. (or something like that) and he's this bloody vulgar guy, with a bloody annoying bastard attitude. He even admits that he's one helluva bastard, so yeah, kudos to his own confession, I don't really like him. But ironically, he likes my class. like daaaaaaammmn! >__<

Today, PS and ally gave out candy canes and a jar filled with purple-dyed water and stars with glitters and some words written on this plastic strip. it reads "Merry Christmas!!! hugs and kisses, PSA"

*grins* thanks soooo much girls!! I love it! :)

And then Ian gave me a card and his little present.. awww... hahas.. thanks ian!! it's lovely!!! *grins some more* i liiiiiike it..! hahahs..

and then Clement ended it off with his chocolates.. yummy marshmellow chocolates.. ;) thanks!

So yeah, that was school today.
OH!!! We're having Dr Xu (the 'google' guy) for Biochemistry practicals!!! I LOVE IT!!!!! :D

Even though this semester, I dread it for some teachers are a little sadistic.. (more like bastardic for dr izzac lim)

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Alrighty, I'm gonna go get ready to head down to town.. maybe if I feel like it, I'll go surprise debra by going down to bugis to meet up with her first.. hahs..


You still have a few more hours, be good! ;)

Luv y'all lots! Have a happy merry christmas, may your little trees catch fire and burn your house down!! bwahhahhahas.. just kidding..

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Toodles! ;)

all thanks to that one cuppa earlier at 1.30pm..
Mood: hyper and happy!

hahahs... happy coz meeting today was CANCELLED!!! WOOOOOO-HOOOOOO!!!
whahahhahas... okay, well, the happiness is majorly due to the caffine. I'm telling you, caffine tends to make you happy.

And whatever it is, I'm starting to like organic chem a whole lot more. It made me know inorganic chem in a whole new way and I'd need some help on Inorganic chem still...

So yeah..
I think it was the lecturer.. Dr Lim is good.. she's good.. although she reminds me Ms Adeline Ng.. hahas.. freaky okay... she LOOKS somewhat like Ms Ng, she sounds very much like her, and she's got this attitude exactly like Ms Ng, only a little better in terms of stringentness...

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I have a NEW haircut!!!! hahhs... this is waaaaaaaaaay cool.. coz it's relatively cheap... paid like frigging peanuts for it.. $22, cut and wash.. bwahahahs.. i'm happy!

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My dad's not feeling well.. he's got fever.. mom's gonna bring him to the doc's later. Usually dad falls sick only 2 times a year.. but this year, he fell sick only once!!! hahas..

Usually dad's sickness is coughing really badly.. I think his body's just trying to cough out all that tar... he should stop smoking.. maybe stop for 3 months.. coz I heard that it will take the body to get rid MOST of the tar within 3-8 months.. so yeah.. We're gonna try to stop him from smoking..


Anyway, off to study!!! :)

Appreciating books and studies once more,
Toodles! ;)

Thursday Threesome didn't have any put up...
Mood: tired

here we go, here we go, here we goooo! :)

Friday's Feast!:

Appetizer
What is something that never fails to grab your attention?
Terra!!! (my pet feline)

Soup
Who was the last person who gave you money, and what was it for?
Mom, for allowance..

Salad
If you were a Smurf, what would your name be?
I dunno.. I'd stopped watching the Smurfs when I reached 5.. I forgot what the names were..

Main Course
Do you believe in astrology? Why or why not?
yep yep yep.. coz 90% of the time, they do come true. the other 10% was plainly due to the fact that there's about a million over Librains, it can't be THAT exact.

Dessert
Have you seen any snow this year yet? What's the weather like today in your area?
YESSSS... in March this year.. bwhahahs.. in Switzerland too! it was cold at first.. really chilly with cold winds. LOVELY weather!! ^__^ and then it got warmer.. such that you could feel this lovely warm toast on your arms and shoulders..

Unconscious Mutterings:

Perfect Gift :: There is nothing like a perfect gift. it's tosh!
Santa :: claus never exsisted.. not in today's world. He couldn't come to singapore in his thick read suit, not can he?
Lucy :: Liu is a charlie's angel and is rated one of the world's most sexiest asian women.
Buckets :: are being kicked. I wonder when my turn will be?
Recital :: the plays that are such classics. Much talked about, but actually very boring.
Stamp :: out the warm and give me the cold bay-beh.. it's sizzling hot in asia, we need some coldness.
Teacher :: teacher, he's a liar, so his pants had caught on fire!
Matchbox :: 20, canadian singers, right?
Spit :: the pits and go ta hell...!
Feeling :: tired.. so very tired... *snores*

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Against all that black, darkness.
A round ring of red, like fire.
A rich shade of yellow deep within, like royalness.
Lay the moon, half in it's glory, yet shining so bright.


That's how the moon was last night... really beautiful. Yet...
it lasted only for that while, I couldn't take my eyes off it.
I probably spent about 20 minutes staring at it's beauty, it felt like it lasted for an hour long.. I dozed off into sleep anyway.

hahas..
yeah..

"To be wise, is to make sure stupid people are around you.
Then again, no one is wise. For stupidity runs in the blood of everyone." -- my quote.

hehs.. okay i'm bored.. so?


I blog, therefore I am. (wasting alot of time and increasing my stupidity level.) this sucks a whole lot.

bored bored bored....
Mood: bored

I nearly slept in William How's lecture this morning.. and to think
that it was merely a one hour lecture. I knew everything he was
mumbling about... so, naturally, I switched off..

Anyway, woke up like damn early, but I procastinated in my laziness
and slept for like another 20 minutes and finally woke up at 7.15am...
Headed out of the house and I missed the 7.30am bus to school.. Dad
had to send Gary to school early today..

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Life is technically speaking, well, full of life and zest and it is
said to be very interesting. Life is virtually speaking, very much
about dissing and sob stories or filled with endless ramblings just
like mine. Life in personal terms, is full of drama. Drama, drama,
drama...

Well, today, it's not half gone yet.. so yeah.. I'm not sure of my
day's outcome, but it's been a bore today. Passing very very VERY
slowly indeed.

Ian's complaining about the blocks the administrator's been putting
up.. heh.. I wasn't really very pleased with it either.. but it ain't
my computer, so what the heck, I'll just play nice too! hahas...

Ally and PS are looking at mobiles and drooling over them right as I
type this... and I'm like super super bored.....

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oh, and dear administrator, if you're even reading this while I type,
please practice privacy rights, and leave my typing alone. It's not
very nice to butt into peoples' e-mails, now is it?

Thanks to blogging via e-mail, I love blogger.
Buuuuuurrrrnnnnn blogger! love lovin' 'em lovely blogger.
This bloggist is on da loose, bay-beh!

(okay, don't mind me... i'm bloody bored.)

Anyway, since I have nothing else better to do.. shall end here, and
try to start on my revisions and my NE projects. yep!

Toodles for now! ;)

Colour in picture is like enthusiasm in life. --Vincent van Gough


Stupidity is but the essence of mankind, child's play is just the excuse of it. -- my quote.

well, not quite.. heh.
Mood: lethargic

I don't think it's a very good sign if I keep feeling so lethargic and all...
PS got stung by a passing jellyfish while going for her kayaking thingy last week.
She's got like rashes all over her right arm and leg.. poor girl..

Anyway, was reading YaMei's blog today.. she wrote something about the Middle-Child syndrome. While what she says is so obviously and theoretically true.. well, yeah, I do get the best out from both worlds. In more ways than what she described it to be.

I get to feel like a single-child, yet, I get to experience being stuck between two moronic brothers for siblings. Neat, huh? *smirks*

See, like how I'm stuck in the middle of the three of us, and I'm a girl, the other two are baboons who go absolutely barking insane at the very instance of a minor problematic issue. So, while I take all advantage of being alone and getting out of the house as often as I can (and my parents, particularly my dad) doesn't really bother about my whereabouts unless I'm 3 hours behind curfew and not home yet.. I still feel lonely at most times, coz evidently my parents don't give a damn about my work or what I do. (I don't suppose they'll really bother till the cops call them up and tell them about something I did)

SO anyway, yeah, middle child syndrome, while half the time it sucks like hell, I enjoy the world of "freedom" I manage to sneak out of it. ;) nice entry YaMei, btw.

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I am so absolutely bored. The two said baboons are playing at the X-box, mom's watching, dad's napping in his bed...

Let me think about what to type out for tonight's "digest". really an unofficial thing.

I'm gonna pull out something from the archives.
One of Jezz's OLLLLLLLD topics (it's about a year old by now)

Faith, and Trust.

eh.. not really sure how to go about these topics again..
okay, definitions, let's get them straight.

faith
n 1: a strong belief in a supernatural power or powers that
control human destiny; "he lost his faith but not his
morality" [syn: religion, religious belief]
2: complete confidence in a person or plan etc; "he cherished
the faith of a good woman"; "the doctor-patient
relationship is based on trust" [syn: trust]
3: institution to express belief in a divine power; "he was
raised in the Baptist religion"; "a member of his own
faith contradicted him" [syn: religion]
4: loyalty or allegiance to a cause or a person; "keep the
faith"; "they broke faith with their investors"

trust
n 1: something (as property) held by one party (the trustee) for
the benefit of another (the beneficiary); "he is the
beneficiary of a generous trust set up by his father"
2: certainty based on past experience; "he wrote the paper with
considerable reliance on the work of other scientists";
"he put more trust in his own two legs than in the gun"
[syn: reliance]
3: the trait of trusting; of believing in the honesty and
reliability of others; "the experience destroyed his trust
and personal dignity" [syn: trustingness, trustfulness]
[ant: distrust]
4: a consortium of independent organizations formed to limit
competition by controlling the production and distribution
of a product or service; "they set up the trust in the
hope of gaining a monopoly" [syn: corporate trust, combine,
cartel]
5: complete confidence in a person or plan etc; "he cherished
the faith of a good woman"; "the doctor-patient
relationship is based on trust" [syn: faith]

You know, I'll just stick to my wise-assed words from before, I'm just gonna copy the whole junk and paste it in just for the many late readers to read it up.. (and then I'll add in anything else that I deem fit to be in here):

Faith
As many will know by now (maybe they don't, so here's a news flash for you guys), I am still not up to have an entry dealing with religion. (Although I do allow snippets of it here and there nowadays) And yes, I still do enjoy homily sections of the catholic mass. It's just plain interesting.

I still stand by my words from before: 'Faith is like trust. It is the basics of basics in terms of the fundementals of putting a part of your personal space in the hand or someone whom you have a strong enough bond with. In order to trust a person, or an animal, or even your ball-point pen, you have to have that little bit of faith.'

And yes, after a little bit of experience here and there, I still agree that Faith and Trust, are like a married couple. If you don't have faith, you can never find trust. And once you have trust in a person, you have faith in them.


Trust
Trust is really something that's mutual and it's highly and very misunderstood.
It really blows things out of proportion. It is like Love, you tend to assume that the other person would know how much trust you've put in them. You tend to assume that he/she has put many a trust in you. (which however, might not be true)

Trust is like love, you have to say it to let it be known. You have to be entirely frank when you trust a person. It is important to acknowledge the fact that Trust, is very much like Love.

With love, you find Trust. With Trust, you find Faith. With Faith, you open the doors of so many other things, like Honesty. It is like a multiple chain reaction of sorts.

I won't need to talk about the deeds people have done to me to make me absolutely seething mad and disappointed with. When I do get into the topic of that, it would speak volumes of my stupidity of not stating the Trust that I've put in these people. Then again, they wouldn't tell me how much they trust me, or rather, it is obvious that they just don't bother to use their brains to think about that.


So you see.. You have to tell people exactly how much you trust them. Make it known. show it, say it, write it out. Coz only then, you can gain the person's trust and you can in the same time, he/she would gain your trust too.

In trust, honesty plays a HUGE part. I must emphasize on that. Honesty plays a really really huge part. You'd agree with me, that you'd only trust a person when he or she is extremely honest. Honest as in sincerity, truthfulness and humbleness.


But that doesn't work out as one grows in the cynical world of today's people. You state your honesty, they'd think and re-think and come to the conclusion that you're just another bitch, or bastard, and treat you like one.


So, I will state it here for everyone of you to be enlightened with:
Choose who you place your Trust with, choose who you place your Faith with, choose who you want to be Honest with. It's your life, choose it.

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Okay, so I retained basically everything. *sheepish laugh* yeah.. well, hope you guys gain something from that.

Well, let's talk about someone now...
who shall be my "lucky" victim tonight?

Let's talk about Janet tonight!
hahs..
Alrighty..

Well, Jan's another one like Charmaine.. she literally forced me to be her 'sister' and mentor, back in secondary school.
She'd been an attention grabbing kid, that girl.. she'd diss me sooooo much, I could strangle her alot in my 4 years of knowing that kiddo.. ;) she still disses me out of fun and I diss her right back. It took me quite a while to get used to her way of speaking.

Jan's born in Hongkong, she came over when she was a wee toddler. And she'll be studying in NYJC soon. Once she completes her A levels, she's heading back to Hongkong to study in the Uni there. It'll be cheaper for her, and she'll be back there for good too. I'm gonna miss her when that eventually happens. (i'm hoping it doesn't happen so we can get to meet up and all)

I hardly talk to Jan nowadays, for the simple reason that she hardly comes online, and when she does, I'm always busy and can't find any time to chat with her.

Jan's an only child in her family, so she's rather spoilt for choice. Her mom's a teacher, and her Dad's an engineer. Head engineer for the upcoming circle line and one of the engineers for the NEL in fact.

But anyway, yeah.. Jan loves dogs, she loves all things girly. She's so girly, and so unlike me! >__<
She's like Ms Intelligent and candy-poster girl.. really an interesting combination..
She's a pure science student who's willing to top the school, but she's got low self-esteem of the competition she faces and thinks that she can't make it most of the time.. To her, A1 isn't good enough, she has to get that distinction. That's how she wants it to be.. but she usually cracks and crashes and goes "How ah jie.. I don't think I can cope.. i can't do it.... :("

Don't worry Jan, you'll do fine, I'm sure of it! ;)

Well, anyway, that's Jan in a nutshell..

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Oh! Gary's friend (she's now my friend coz she came over to our place a couple of times to play with terra) Genevieve Teo, or Gen for short... was featured in the Maksim mag for Jan'05!!! bwahahahhas.. not bad at all.. hahas..

Anyway, I think I know what to type out now...
Char's done her's already in her Xanga blog.. so will I now.

My Farewell letter to 2004.

Dear 2004,

You have been AMAZING!!! well, in the first half of the year that is. I enjoyed it much better than the second half of the year. It's been a helluva ride. Overcoming depressions, overcoming the overwhelming events that have happened within this course of 12 months.

Half the time while you try to kill me senseless with all that emotional rollercoaster and nearly killing my academic grades due to that, I still enjoyed that surprise trip over to Europe, sending me over to see THE sights, hear THE sounds, experience THE things that I know I won't get to enjoy in the years to come. A splendid surprise indeed, I've become more obnoxious than ever after I came home. But that's alright, I've nearly righted myself out from all this wrong.

It's been a tough ride for me this year, and no doubt I know next year will be just about the same. Hopefully, and I do pray, that it'll be a better experience. While Char's letter to you had been interestingly hilarious, I would wish to diss you even more so.

You've given me more challenges this year than all my other 17 years put together, and accomplishing and overcoming them had been a real pest and a real task that worked my wits out to their very cores.

You had me on the edge for one year too long, and I think it's high time that all of it stopped soon. (the sooner, the better) Much to the chagrin of my own self, I still think I'll have you to thank for, for all the many skills I have so reluctantly picked up along the way, as a mandatory means of survival in this hectic and unjust world.

You taught me not to trust people that I've never met, not to trust people I don't know too well, not to trust people who're not in their right frames of mine. Actually, not to trust anyone whom I've not known for less than 2 years. Well, a supposed few are granted out from that.

Anyway, you have been a jerk. A real big fat-assed grilled jerk and I think I rather hate you alot more once after June decided to quit and July came in as my roomie.
July's been a bitch, October even more so, November was slightly okay, and now December's being a pain in the ass.

Oh, how I hate the roomie's for this year. You've been a pain. And I'm glad to see you go. And I won't regret that. I'm willing to let go of you and you can be in my past forever more. Thanks for the crazy months you've given me. It's been one helluva extreme year of sorts.


Truth be told, I really enjoyed it. And while I hear people calling me insane due to all these insanity you've given me.....

Here's a toast to you, 2004...
May you burrrrrrn bay-beh!!! Buuuurrrrrrn!!!!!
And usher in my new landlord, 2005!!!!!




Much love and not very sorry for burning ya,
Angeline Tan.

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This is one very amusing entry, I'd say.
anyway, 2004's ending, and here comes 2005. I'm sure 2005 will be better than this stupid f**king crazy extreme year. And I'm sure your year 2005 wouldn't be as great as mine, so here's to you guys who've been backstabbing me, who've been annoying me, who've been driving me up this crazy hell-owned wall.

Buuuuurrrrrrrrrn in HELL YOU MOTHERF**KAS!!!!!!


*aHem*

so much for being vulgar. Censoring would be a good way to go for the next 50 to 100 entries or so, I'd think.


Cheers to the other good peoples of this world of mine, I love you all.

*MwAh!!*


So ends this silly yet EXTREMELY long entry. (Kudos to my innovative brain for churning all that up)



Toodles for now! ;)

I never seem to come up with the best of titles
Mood: bored n tired


But that's really quite alright with me, so I shall leave it just the way it is for now.. ;)

I got into the lecture theatre feeling really sorry and bored about everything. Another school term, another 16 weeks of rubbish. oh, halt.. it's 15 weeks. heh. crud..

My MSN nick says:
I am PISSED off, dude. (Go f**k yourself)

With the (go fuck yourself) in little sub-titles.
*sniggers* oh like crud!!! Pray tell, if you believed that, you're prolly the silliest person I've ever known! MSN does NOT allow for little sub-titles. That's obviously not my nick, neither is it anyone else's... it's just a sudden, random passing thought.

okay okay, I'm being really pointless here. I'll be serious now..
My MSN nick says:
In my time of need to speak, I find no one to turn to. No one except that one light..

Weisheng thought that the nick was meant for real.. well... *shrugs a little* it might be, but then again, it mightn't be.. It was another random thought that kept bugging my mind for the past few days..
So yeah...

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Anyway, I went down to Bugis to look for Debra... I was supposed to head to Bras Basah complex again, BUT I'd forgotten to go. It just totally slipped off my mind coz I was too busy talking to Deb, and saying my goodbye's to Uncle Philip, and thinking of my bed when I finally get home. I'm just so, SO exhausted.

Ughs, just when I thought I could get some frigging rest, the younger brother makes a stupid fussy din. Throws his blardy temper about. He is SO annoying me. One of these days, I WILL really kill him... prolly just strangle him for about a minute and a half. bloody prick.

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Oh, lectures were a bore today, with Eunice running the show half the time. I was bored to tears. Still bathing in the after effects of boredom right now... Lazy lecturers like Mr New and Mr Ng opened and ended the day respectively. Boooooooring!
<(#__#)>

*big sigh*

Okay, let me tell you some thing really stupid:

.....

There's nothing to tell you.


heh.. sorry. I'm really very bored. okay, I think I'll go like sleep for a while, then after that, I'm going to study.

So draws this entry to an end...
Happy Christmas, y'all...!

I'm sure if you listened to me and was good, you'll get your presents...
from someone else, not me..

bwahhahahs..

luv ya all!
Toodles for now... ;)

doesn't it amuse you so that i could just simply go f**king nuts instead of all that's in my title?
Mood: havin' an injustifiable headache


Anyway, that was the title and that other one is the the sub-title, and you're reading the body of the entry which comes after the title and sub-title. And I will tell you now that my mood isn't one of the best moods anyone has, but I guess that didn't really matter right?

hahaha...

Well, I really have no freaking idea where my annoying ez-link card went. and it's driving me up the wall, to be exact..

Hopefully it pops out from nowhere and waves it's stinking kickass butt at me so that I can keep it some place super safe.

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OOOOH... i was just looking through my archives.. and I decided to bring back the past a little.. ;)

Aight... I'm absolutely sure jezzie WILL remember this particular one... haha!

A letter to no one in particular

Dear no one in particular,

Aight aight, it's me again. Hi there again, how's it going? All good? good. Well, obviously it's not going that good for me. It's been only less than a year, and here I am, presto! Writing another letter to you.

I was right, it certainly wasn't the last instance the last time around, neither will this be the last intance this time round.

I am just. plain. bored.
So there.
Every week repeats itself now. Thank goodness. The days don't repeat themselves anymore (actually, they do, but I couldn't really care less coz it's too repeated already).

So week in, and week out... everything's just about the same.
I know, I know, this letter is getting VERY pointless, but that's the whole topic about it. Randomlessness...

I no longer get messages from Haydern, '"the nice rich guy with two horns and a tail" that's what gins says of him.."' perhaps now I do understand what she thinks and feels about him that way. Eventually, one day I would forget about him entirely.. and there comes the part where I worry of most often, what if I even forget about myself? Abit freaky, but I'm willing to take that risk. *grins*

Anyway, I still chat all day and all night. Well, okay, not all day and all night now. It's considerably lesser compared to 8 months ago. Yes, very much lesser indeed.

And while my head pounds like a maniac butcher pounding and driving his butcher knife into some dead carcuss of a cow.. I think this is the best place to stop my excessive chattering.

It's still awfully boring.
Pray tell... how does one keep themselves entertained besides spending money all day long?

It'll be soon that I type again...
Best regards,
you-know-who.

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Shrek I is on TV now.
Yet again. the thought of school is bursting forth through my mind.

Halleluja that it's till 1pm only.
Praise the lord.

(no, i ain't anything to do with christianity. it's just the influence placed on me since 9)

SO...... yeah..
bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored.



ughs.



save me, somebody.





Anybody.

and Oh, how I just dread going back
Mood: tired


School starts tomorrow, and yeah.. it's gonna be so boring.
Same faces, same people, same fucked up attitudes from the same people....
or maybe not so fucked up for some.. *shrugs*

It'll be nice to see some new faces next semester (not including my new lecturers).

I'll be sure to join a new CCA in year 2, mind you.. I'll be serving the school exco for a semester, hopefully I'll be able to serve it for another 4 more. So, that means I gotta do a good job on that.


I didn't realise how one semester felt like one secondary school year. It feels so packed and stressful. haha... it's freaking amusing how I can make the course of 6 months feel like 12.

Well, time to pack up my schedule once more. hmmm.. thing is, it's already packed... haha... I still have to squeeze in a few more commitments. Zebrafish de-yolking, and then inorganic chem revisions, hospice duties, youth workgroup shit, SCL school club thing.. I need to complete my YMCA stuff as well.. busy busy busy! >__<

I wonder if I can even cope with it all..
Nevermind, shall take things as it comes.

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Anyway, I woke up at like 9.30 this morning.. took me a while before it registered into my mind that I had to go down to Bishan MRT to meet Jan at 11am...

I got out of the house at like 10.25 and got to AMK MRT by like 10.55am...
She used Stephanie's mobile to call me.. hahs.. told me that they'd come down to AMK MRT to exchange our presents..

I bought her this cute little handmade dog which I thought she'd love (she's crazy over little figurines)... I didn't really like the price, I thought it'd be more costly than what I bought it for... (I bought it for only $5.50, I thought it'd be something like $12.90, so yeah.. haha.)

she bought me a really nice pendant, complete with the necklace.. from Kalm's.. so nice of her.. I guess for Friendship day I'll have to get her something else.. perhaps another soft toy... hahas... :P

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Didn't know where to go, and Gary wanted his EZ-link card back, so I went home. I've really misplaced that stupid card of mine somewhere in my home and I can't seem to find it...

Yeah, gonna spend today flipping the house inside out. Yeap...

so yeah, you'll prolly hear from me like late tonight.

Toodles for now! ;)

VERY VERY tired.. but happy.. heh heh...
Mood: exhausted


If there's one thing that debra and I have come to realise, it's rica's sense of watching movies. She loves horror flicks. Be it good or bad, she'll hail it perfect and it beats ALLLL the other films.

pffft.

Debra and I watched BLADE TRINITY today!!!! IT WAS FUCKIN' COOOOOOOL!!!!!!
it was like.. omigod!!! hahas.. the "hannibal king" guy is soooooooo crappy and funny! he went like:

"There's two things I can tell you." *in a REALLY serious, business manner*
"One: Your hairdo is absolutely ridiculous! it's the worst I've ever seen! And Two: I just ate alot of garlic and I just farted. It's a silent one. A killer, actually."

And a few minutes later..
"And this is the part where the fat lady sings!!!!!"
*pauses to hear some fat lady sing, we wait, and wait....*
"Okay.. this is a little awkward.."
*we wait a little more..*
"Does any one of you have a cell phone?"


heh.., stupid man...

well, after the movie, we went back to bugis to wait for debra's parents...
they wanted to go giordano to get 18 dri-tech polo tees....
so, yeah.. we bought 3 extra pairs of socks... soo.. yeah.. and like spent $313.50 there... aunt jean gave this $1000 note....

it was like soooooooooo much money man....
it's crazy...

Well, we drove down to suntec mall's giordano to get some gift boxes...
and crossed over to the German pub at millenia walk.. it was okay... we had some yummy food there...

and great beer. yea.. the beer was smooooooooooooooth.. hahs..

yep.

okay, i think i'm gonna like go try find my stupid ez-link card once more before heading to bed...

I'm outta here for now...

Toodles! ;)

patience my dear...
Mood: amused


Debra's been pissed off for days.... poor girl.. today, she got sooooo fed up, she blew up at rica and I about how annoying everything's been..

So, today, I'm dragging her out to go chill out..

A few words of advice from a chinese proverb:

"If you are patient in one moment of anger, you will avoid one hundred days of sorrow."


So debra dear, don't be so angry k? i know it's PMS, but yeah.. relax... I'll bring you go drink liang cha later... hahs...

But that's after I buy that mug, that book and yeah.. hahs... don't worry, be happy!

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So yeah, while debra tries to meditate and cool down, here I am, blogging about my morning.. shan't be staying over at mandarin hotel afterall.. coz her parents cancelled it. We'll only stay on the 22nd.. but I doubt I'll stay coz I'm having school on the 23rd.

Okay, I doubt I'll even go for the christmas celebration thingy..

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School starts the day after tomorrow and I'm anxious.
Omigod.. brrr.. like the same people, same faces, new teachers, new stuff to learn, I don't know if I can overcome that overwhelming fear that I have of chemistry and basically everything to do with all this science shit.

It's scaring the shit outta me, seriously. and while I know some of you would be chuckling at the sight of me being overwhelmed by school work (well go ahead, it's nothing I should be embarassed about), that's how it is with me..

Nevermind, over time, I will be able to conquer this fear of mine.. hopefully it's on the first day of school. thank goodness there's IT for life sciences this upcoming sem.. I'm good with IT, I hope.. hahas..

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Well, I gotta go get ready to go out then...
toodles for now! ;)

a few new books to read!!!
Mood: happy!


I did some catching up with Mabelline and my, how much she reminded me that I really truly missed SJC sooooo much!

Trust me, I'm not mad, but I miss that special atmosphere only SJC-ians would know about.. the one where you knew practically everyone in school, and every creek and corner of the place, every step, every bit of the school..

You knew the canteen ladies and uncles so well that they could give you discounts or more food and I.O.U's... that atmosphere...

that and the times where you spent gossiping about about the latest geekish teacher, or the latest drug-bust case in the 4th-floor cubicles (ok, just kidding on the drug case) or the latest hippest and hottest looking teachers or the lastest new look that EVERYONE in school MUST get. (the trademark short hair of the IJ girls is hitting all the other schools, aight? you other girls are soooooo copying us!)

And the times when I could just be myself, laugh and play and study with my buddies, oh my buddies, how I miss them so! such things, I can never get back, but only crave for.. *grins* and to share it with Mabelline, now that rawks! ;)

Well, the new books that people have recommended to me that I will be and am willing to read are as follows (not according to ranks and priorties):

Dan Brown -- Da Vinci's code
Mitch Albom -- Tuesdays with Morrie : An Old Man, a Young Man, and Life's Greatest Lesson
Mitch Albom -- 5 people you meet in heaven
Ajahn Brahm -- Opening the Door of Your Heart


oh yeah.. something I stole off Mabelline's blog.. just to share with all of you.. ;)
She took it off from Ajahn Brahm's "Opening the Door of Your Heart":

True Love

The trouble with romance is that when the fantasy is broken, the disappointment can badly hurt us. In romantic love, we don't really love our partner, we only love the way they make us feel. It is the "high" we feel in their presence that we love. That is why when they are absent, we miss them so much.

True Love is selfless love. We are concerned only for the other person. We tell them, 'The door of my heart will always be open to you, whatever you do', and we mean it. We just want them to be happy. True love is rare.



And that's why whenever I feel hurt, I feel at peace too.


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quirky, but so real.





When I've found my inner peace, I shall be able to rise up above all my challenges! hahas.. and ahead I shall proceed..

THIS is IT!!!!
Mood: splendidfully happy



Oh man, this is like a christmas gift all by itself!!
No wonder this year, Mrs Das was so happy! hahas..
100% pass. no one in Normal (Academic) failed this year!!! can you believe that?!?!?

I sat there in anxiety as strong as the girls, as I waited for the Vice-Principal to give out the overall results for this year's N level batch...
We all held our breaths... you could practically feel that intensity in the air, it was soooooo thick!

And Mrs Das said:

"You girls are HORRIBLE!!! All of you PASSED, none of you FAILED."

And then after that registered into everyone's heads... two seconds later, screams and cheers were heard in the small hall which once I called my own, where I cheered and cried, fond memories were created and left its imprints there.

This time, today, it was their turn to shed their tears of relief and happiness.. I feel soooo happy for them, having watched them slog like hell for this moment of truth. :)

Well, Char didn't do as well as she'd expected.. It's okay, girl! Prove yourself this upcoming 2005, to yourself, that you can do better than this year's N levels, a lesson learnt, would be another stage into getting what you want. ;) I'm positively sure you'll be able to get the grades you want this next time around and get into NYP to join Nursing.. *smile* hahs.. see... da jie said you'd do fine, right? and you really did fine... have more faith in yourself in the future and study harder, okay? ^__^V

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Anyway, instead of going back to her uncle's place in Hougang with me, Char had to split ways and go back home (at bukit timah). For a celebration! hahas.. her mom's orders to go home.. char was like "huh? why do I have to go home? Do I really HAVE to go home?" hahas..

hope you had fun, lil' sis!

Mich, it'll be your turn next, and if possible, I'll be there to see those results too! :)

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So yeah, I went down to Compass Point to get the younger bro's chinese books..
Then I went to 77th Street to get some ear studs.. hee hee...
yep...
went to Hougang mall later on, to get some other books for the younger bro...
bought home some donuts.. and the younger bro was hungry... didn't give him any though.. feeling a lil' bad about that.. hahs..

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Anyway, yeah... OOOOOH! right!
I was talking to Mrs Susan Ng.. about that CIP "Superpitch" thing.. she said it was a great idea!!! hahas.. I told steven about it and he was really pleased with it... hahas.. said he'd send more information about it to me soon, and I can go send all that to Mrs Ng asap..

Well, Mr Chan showed me PeiShan's tribute thingy to me.. he said he couldn't find her number to thank her personally.. so AIZHI.. or SHURONG.. or anyone from 5A'03 or 5B'03 can you like e-mail me or sms Mr Chan with PeiShan's mobile number, alrighty?

hahs...

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Yeah, debra just gave me a call.. and BOY.. was she seething in rage...
Just a tiny bit more, and I'll be sure to sit back with some pop corn and a large diet coke and lemon twist at the scene in Bugis's Giordano... where she blows up and shows her rage to those moronic idiots (they ARE really brainless, btw) who keep picking on her.

Yes, debra isn't just some plain sweet girl who's always so happy-go-lucky. she's like baby Jack-Jack.. Always so sweet and innocent and soooooo adorable when she's happy, but annoy her and face her wrath. I pity her in-charges and colleagues who're gonna get it from her. bwhahahahahs... eh, debra, when you're gonna blow at them, invite me to watch. ;)

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OOOH!!! i'm gonna do ANOTHER collaboration project!!!
With Mabelline!! this is soooooooooo cool! We're gonna give a talk to the girls at SJC about the first few months in poly life!!

So, yeah... will be going back to school a lil' bit more, to give you girls a better insight of the sickening life of a poly-student. ;)

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okay okay.. time to eat... or rather.. well, I just ate..
Time to discuss with Mabelline the other stuff!



Toodles! ;)

okay, that was so spastic.
Mood: bored, tired



Never try to fall sick. ugh...
And here I was, looking forward to the blood donation drive thing...

Anyway.. I feel mightly guilty for not getting jan's present yet.. I think I'll go with Debra's way of getting presents. I'll get her a mug. heh heh heh.

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Oh man.. this is becoming a nightmare.... you know, debra was telling me she's being haunted by the name "Wayne" and guys names who starts with the letter "D".

I on the other hand.. have been haunted by the name "Fabio" and "Haydern", by which when you put both together, becomes my ex-boyfriend's name.. It's scaring me out, really.... Just when I think I can get along with everything in life superbly well, all these problems think they should arise...

*sighs* ahhh... that's life, innit? no fun without all that...

hahs..
but still... what a nightmare!

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Tomorrow, I'll be spending the day with Debra and Serica... hee hee.. can't wait!!! it'll be another slumber party! (an expensive on at that..) At Mandarin hotel.. previously, it was at Sentosa.. That expensive hotel.. Shangri-La Sentosa... I think.. yeah.. hahas...

This time it'll be in the midst of the city's shopping belt.. sweet!!

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Oh yeah, I can't wait to watch Ocean's 12!! Ocean's 11 was such a blast!!! my my, with cute cute guys like Brad Pitt and Matt Damon... hahahs... Lovely lovely cast.. Catherine Zita-Jones is sooooo pretty!!! And Julia Roberts with her "World's most perfect teeth"... hahas.. *grin*

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I can't wait till school starts.. yet, I don't want it to start.
Weird, huh?

I can't wait till it starts, coz I'm so dead bored stuck at home..
Yet I don't want it to start.. coz I'll have so much trouble trying to study all that shit about chemistry... :(

Time and time again, I keep asking myself if I'd chosen the right choice of doing a course in the Life Sciences. It seems like THE thing to do, but what do I do, if I can't even cope with doing "such an easy thing like Chemistry"?

Well, no doubt, I hate that subject more than anyone could hate me.. I just detest studying that topic.

I took one look at my cell biology lecture notes and thought I'd get a cardiac arrest (much to the joy of jeremy mark), I couldn't decipher the parts of all those cells!


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okay, off to go give smelly Terra a bath...
mom's orders.. heh...

toodles! ;)


P.S: a song..

Mandy Moore ~*~ From loving you

I had you, I had everything I ever needed
From that first look I knew
I'd found heaven in your eyes
But who was to know the way it would go
I have no regrets
Glad I let you in
Wouldn't have missed one single moment
I would do it all over again

[Chorus]
'Coz I was loved
I was touched
And I learned what love is
And I learned what love is
I was blessed, so blessed
Coz I learned what love is
I learned what love is
From loving you

I held you, I held everything I ever dreamed of
With that first kiss from you
All this world seemed so right
But who was to see the way it would be
I'll never forget
The heaven that we shared
And I'll thank God for every moment
Every moment that I had you there

[Chorus]
'Coz I was loved
I was touched
And I learned what love is
And I learned what love is
I was blessed, so blessed
Coz I learned what love is
I learned what love is
From loving you

Some people search their whole lives
Never find what I found in your eyes
Glad I got to get the chance to have you in my life
I won't be sad when I look back
Coz I was, I was...

[Chorus]
'Coz I was loved
I was touched
And I learned what love is
And I learned what love is
I was blessed, so blessed
Coz I learned what love is
I learned what love is
From loving you

at debra's place!!!
Mood: tired, once again i've been drugged out...



by my medicine, of course...
Ughs... anyway, watched movies over at debra's place... it was.. hahs... okay lah...

Watched Garfield.. soooo cute!!! :)

Okay, I do apologise for the lack of words for today.. I'm just very very tired.. my brain's been numbed out.. haha...

Like, okay, I'll just cut everything short now..

Tomorrow's the results day for those who took their N'levels this year.. good luck yeah... hahahs... My memories of getting my N level results were one of a kind.. I thought i'd fail.. yet, it was the first time I'd seen soooo many A1's on my result's slip. (even though it was merely 2 A's and 4 B's and nothing worse than a B4)

Still, a fun and enjoyable memory...
I hope to work hard to achieve that satisfaction once again..


Anyway, time to hit the bed.. once I'm done transferring the songs over to Bertram.. hahas.. he likes Maroon 5 too!!! sweet!


Ok, toodles! ;)

that's my morning
Mood: tired



I am soooo tired. woke up to the noisy noisy sounds of the jackhammer's pounding on the cement ground.. ugh...

Anyway, I don't think I told you my position in SCL EXCO team right? *grins*

I'm running as Vice-president for school body council!!! well, in my faculty, that is.. hahahahhas..
I'm still trying to get used to that.. hahas..


Anyway, going over to debra's place today.. dunno if I can keep my eyes open not. hahs..
I don't really like my med. heh. it's stinky... >__<


I was reading at Junwei's blog.. hahas.. about what happened at the 5th forum.. well, seems a lil' boring... yet interesting.. *shrugs* pity I missed it all... but I wasn't feeling good, so, yeah.. my dad would've wanted me to go home if he knew I wasn't feeling well. Actually, he did.. that's why I was home early yesterday.. hahhahaahs... :P


Well, off to rest again.. toodles for now! ;)

totally stoopid title... sorry, i've been drugged...
Mood: exhausted



So yeah, I knew I ran from the PALs 5th forum, and with good reason. I was drugged out by my medicine.. and I was soooo totally stonning through meeting today.. Laughing at the more prominent jokes, smiling and faking the rest just to keep up.. heh.. oh man, can you imagine when I DID get the joke, I couldn't laugh? *shakes head*


Anyway, the first part of 5th forum was fun.. hee hee.. Was playing this Police & Murderer like came, which they called the T-rex and Hunters game.. it was fun, I got to be the hunter, the hunted and the thing who hunts them both.. hahahas.. fun fun!
But after a while, it got boring and everyone started getting a lil' restless...

So sorry to everyone, that I kept yawning my way all through till lunch.. It's the medicine.. Didn't really know what was going on actually.. besides that one game we played. The event wasn't boring k.. just that I felt super drowsy..


So yeah, after meeting, Gimmy and I went down and I wanted to take a bus home, but then I remembered that my EZ-link card had this awful red value mark in it.. (-$0.69)
Sooooo... called dad to pick me up..and bought my books at the same time since my ATM machine was with me.. haha...


OOOOOH!!! how could I forget.....
I didn't know my position for SCL School Club (it's like School Body Council, just within my faculty) and I didn't really bother finding out you see.. so, when I got to the meeting and FINALLY looked at that one piece of paper which had our names and positions (according to ranks)... the first thing I asked was:

"Eh! How come my name's not below but up there ah? Why am I not Social Head or something?" *looks at my position* "And why am I... what the... Vice-President???? Is it mad or WHAT??!?!?" *stares at the peeps there before me* "Did you guys get an eye infection like I did or WHAT??"


Yeah... so anyway, a few seniors came.. the secretary guy, whose name I didn't catch.. and Leon.. I think he was Social or Welfare head, right? oh wait, he was in-charge of Welfare.. right Gimmy? And then there was the Publications Social head.. I forgot her name.. you see. I can't remember more than 10 names today.. okay, make that 5, aight?

I only remembered like Jun Hua, LiTing, Sharon, all from the forum. Albert, Christopher, Fadhil, LayHoon and yeah.. too lazy to remember the rest.. from the EXCO meeting just now..

Bah..
I'm gonna fall flat on to my lappy, and fall into deep sleep.
G'day everyone!


Toodles! ;)

have absolutely nothing to do with this entry
Mood: bored, as usual



I was bored, as usual.. heh heh heh...
Well, I have the 5th Forum (PaLs) to go for the whole of tomorrow. Should I be majorly upset that it's going to take up 13 hours of my time?

I think I should.

Not only does it take up my sleep time (my sleep-in time, afternoon nap, before dinner nap, after dinner slacking), it takes up my blogging time. Your bloggist shall not be here to blog tomorrow. For the whole day too! I'll be too tired when I get home, otherwise, too busy chatting and all.

Pray hard I'll wake up early the morning after to blog something mundane about the camp.

well, also, not only do I have to try to pay attention to whatever the GLs are mumbling, I have to try to stay awake. Oh darn it! And I can't play with Terra if I'm out of the house. =(


But, on the plus side...! (yes, there IS a plus side) I'll get to meet up with Sheralyn Hu!!! and YaMei will be there... so will Ian and JunWei and PS!!! wonderful, wonderful!! hahas.. Going there with my bunch of friends, I hope it'll be good.

I just hope Kelvin Ler won't have a black face.

He ALWAYS seems to have this god-damn awful black face whenever he's at something to do with PALs. I don't know, maybe he even wears it to sleep. He should try to RELAX sometimes. Trying too hard would just mean failure sometimes. hahs...

Ever since taking a step back from trying to even help out in PALs (the first step is always the hardest, and that was the first step), I've taken a relaxed step back after another, and it's not so bad after all.

Maybe, he oughta try taking a step back with that black face issue. Seriously, everyone couldn't stand that attitude that came with the face. It just virtually made EVERYONE want to kill him for that. Pitiful case, really.

But I won't be sad. neither will I be happy.

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Lo' and behold, well, nothing.

heh.

I just wanted to say that "lo' and behold" thing.. It seemed nice on my blog, you see.. haha..

Well, no one seems to be updating as frequently as I am, and I pride myself for that actually. And at the same time, (while I try not to digress from this while watching CSI on TV) want to kill myself for wasting so much time typing all these senseless words into my thoughts that are running through my mind right at this moment.

So much for 'live' tele-broadcasting, eh?

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How I seem to come up with the snidest of remarks at the most annoying of times still shocks me occassionally.

Having seem to have a really fun time teasing Debra just proves how bored I am. On a usual schooling day, I'd be too bored to even talk about the ever-growing chin, her fishies, and guy-whose-eyes-can't-fit-5-cent-coins.. and the fella-from-NTU... she kept thinking that fella-from-NTU was from NUS. Poor girl. I think she's worked a tad bit too hard. Her brain's fried. Charred slightly, now at it's best -- deep fried, and golden brown. Extra crisp.

heh. crap.. I'm getting stupid here. all sorts of lame remarks.
See.. that's how I bully my best friends. They get it worst from me. I don't even send them birthday cards!! How SAD is that?!?!

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I'm still NOT bored out from blogging. See what I told y'all a few days ago? Maniac bloggist on the loose.

Note that right: BLOGGIST, not blogger.

hahahahahaha....



anyway, I think that it's a high time I stopped blogging and started studying.. heh heh..

okay, so yeah...

and cranky home phone..
Mood: tired, oh so tired



Amanda tried to call me just now at about 4.40pm.. sorry dear, was playing on the X-box with daddy dearest...hahs..

I told mom I wanted to cut my hair, she asked how short, I told her the length, and she went "Ni sher de meh?" (that really means "You SURE you wanna cut it THAT short?") well, anything above my shoulder blades would mean it's short to her. sheesh..

Anyway, my eyes were irritating me to the extent I had to ask for assistance to get around from my place to next door's.. it was terrible. I'm under some REALLY horrid tasting anti-biotics.. *grimaces* and some meds to stop the itchiness in my eyelids.. and some eyedrops.. and it was only $18, anytime cheaper than terra's vet fees.. sheesh-ka-babs! *complains*

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So, yeah, mom dragged me across the road to the family doctor.. he said it's an eye infection.. not the common kind, but he just shrugged and said it was curable, went to his little fridge and took out some eyedrops and looked around to see if there was anything else I could use and took out one bottle of those eyedrops..

One week of no eggs, no sotong, no prawns.... oh crud.... i'm gonna die i'm telling you.. ONE WEEK LEH!!!!

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The phone line went dead on me before lunch.
Something's wrong with the phone jack and gary was getting majorly pissed off at it that he couldn't use the singnet broadband on his desktop and so he hi-jacked my laptop.

So, I dragged mom and dad out to Kovan mall and we managed to find a really cheap good phone.. hahs.. $19.90 only! from NTUC, of course.

Mom let it in on me that she's going bankrupt soon... she's only got $1000 left in her bank and she's really worried about it. and so am I... should I start finding a part-time job just to contribute to the really-very-much-so-inexistant income? But there isn't any time for me at all.. maybe I can ask Raymond to like, find me a job or something.. I don't know..

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I was telling mom and dad over coffee just now about how news can travel with the use of the blog. Like how I told Amanda that my cat was being naughty and I had to bring her to the vet's coz she tore off her stitch at her abdomen.. and she blogged about it, so about 15 people would know about it.. and since I blogged about it on my blog, heaven knows how many other people would have known that little news by now, and soon, others would blog about my cat being a pest, biting off her stitch and leaving a hole in her abdomen (which isn't a very nice sight, btw)....

So if everyone blogged about my cat doing that.. possibly about a hundred people would've known the story of the naughty cat. (who would by now be dead or her intestines splattered forth due to other rumours put in) hahaha..

My parents laughed at the whole situation with a very amused look on their faces.

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I went out half blind today, having forgotten my glasses.. my right cornea was swollen due to all that rubbing and my mom tsk-ed her way down from home to Kovan mall.. hahs.. I still could see, mind you, just that everything was a lil' blurred..

I told mom I wanted to buy a small bag. (debra insists that the ones I choose are so taitai, and I pointed out that she carries some of those too..) Mom looked at me like I was some mad woman "Whatever for? you've got too many bags in your room! you even stacked them in neat sections! one for duffel, one for sling, one for haversacks, and one for totes! Now you want another on for handbags? ki siao ah?"

Heh heh... no leh, ma ma... hahaha... anyway, I hope to get my bag soon.. hah..

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Liru and I were talking about shopping in expensive shops.. the way to shop there, is to dress cheap. Never wear expensive stuff in. Just go in with like one thick purse, well-worn clothes, berumdas, and flip-flops (the lousy kinds). Make sure to look as if you just came back from the gym (minus the odour and sweat, please)...

And make sure to walk at least like THREE rounds about the shop (say.. LV, or cartier, or gucci) and then obviously, by then, nobody would want to serve you.. just clear your throat REALLY loudly, and find the nearest moronic sales personnel and request in a sugar-coated sickening voice for the items you've already thought of buying in the first place before stepping into the shop.

Accidentally flash the black credit card and all that and whatnots, and remember to ask REALLY bimbotically, "er.. do you accept this-and-this credit cards? the black/platanium ones? I forgot what you accept here.. *giggle*"
And when they give you the annoyed smile or glare, clear throat immediately and demand not to pay for service charge.

It'll work like a charm. Manager comes running out, demanding an answer, and you just provide the needed information "Your staff were being rude, I don't like their reluctant attitudes, if this is the way (branded shop name here, please) is going to serve it's customers, I will very well write a letter up to headquarters to demand a public apology.. blah blah blah.."

Oh trust me, after all that talk from Amanda and a few others, this plan is common, and does work like a nasty, customer-friendly charm. ;)

So, when buying lots of things from branded good shops like LV, Gucci, Cartier, and whatnot.. (just to name a few) do remember to dress poorly and demand no service charge when those moronic sales personnels do not serve you. *winks*

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You know, in all my life, I've never seen an animal quite as dumb as Terra. Then again, I can't blame her, she's smashed her head on the wall/table legs/doors once too many a times..
She's got a constant fear of being in a cage. Yet, when she's home, she walks into that cage of her's like it's her's and only her's. She knows the fear that she'll get when I slam the door shut and start lifting it up. But well, guess it's the cheap thrill she gets from it..

Beats having to chase a stupid paper ball around the house and getting her head smashed, huh? hahahha....

Anyway, I'm tired.. I suppose this will be all for now..
So, toodles!! ;)

oh, how I hate the new sem's timetables..
Mood: bored



So, while I grouse on the fact that I have a really pathetic timetable, leaving me time enough only to go to the hospice on mondays (thank god there's still time for that you know), I have to sit my ass in school for a good long FOUR hours doing NOTHING when Thursdays come around.

Why do they ALWAYS have to give us such sucky timetables?

But that's okay, I saw 0405's timetables, they have two days of 4-hour breaks. I was thinking of getting Kumaran to talk to the teachers and work out a plan to get rid of the 4 hour break. In fact, I'm doing that now..


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Let me digress... from all those timetables.. they annoy me so much...
My holidays are coming sooo close to an end, spending christmas in school, perhaps.. I'm not too sure.. Maybe they'd give us a half day? Hopefully that happens.
And then there's New Year's eve.. We'll have a public holiday, so that's fine by me.. hahs..

Oh, the vet gave me a bottle of hydrogen peroxide and another bottle of Neo powder, whatever that means.. for Terra's wound..

I'm so gonna die when school starts. I haven't got a clue how to study Organic Chem, nor BioChem.. I'm telling you, I must've been a chemist the whole of my last life that I vowed never to love chemistry EVER again.

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My eyelashes have been annoying me as of late... I've got half the mind to snip them off.. but I'd look like some monster.. hahs..

Anyway, off to do up Debra's blog layouts and updating my schedule for jeremy kor..

Toodles! ;)

It'll be "Like my Own" again!!!
Mood: tired



Hahs.. ain't that GREAT?!? (:
I did char's blog up once again... hahas.. it's going good.. just that there's a bit of a problem with the cursor.. and I don't know how to solve that issue..


I hate HEADACHES. you know, some people are telling me all sorta things.. like it may be hormonal imbalance, brain cancer, brain tumour, blood clotting in my brain.. I'd rather stick to the former of the former of the former's former. (In other words, the first choice - hormonal imbalance)


So, while having that immense headache, I'm busy teasing that 'brother' of mine (Junius, as usual)... telling him how dumb he can really get sometimes.. seriously.. *tsks* people say one thing, doesn't mean you have to fall for their words mah.. brudder, BRUDDER.... haiyoh yoh... you hopeless lah.. *shakes head sadly* And yes, all through our conversation, it was filled with endless sacarsm from both ends... hahahhs.. funny chat we had there.. hahahahahs..


Can't wait for the 15th.. when I get to go for the first SCL EXCO-club meeting!
OHHH!!! Speaking of the SCL EXCO club.. I saw Lionel (that spasticated thing) at Bugis today!!! hahahahahs.. so farnie man... he was asking whether I was okay or not.. and all that.. then he asked when I had to go back to school and I was like "on the 20th december lor.." and he had this stupid smug smirk on his face and then he called me a loser!! I'm telling you... can SMACK his face ah!!! so I kicked his leg and the following conversation ensued:

Spasticated thing: EH!!!! how DARE you kick me!! in public some more!!! not fair leh!! whah lau eh..
Me: oh okay.. you spasticated idiot...
(spasticated thing protests)
Debra: er...okayyyy....
Me: Loser.. you spasticated loser!!
Spasticated thing: eh, you're lucky I haven't called you by your's hor.. okay, loser is fair enough, that's fair.. eh.. wait! not fair! YOU kicked ME in public!!!
Me: *rolly eyes* yeah yeah spasticated idiot.. byeeeeeeee....
Spasticated thing: *laughs and goes on his way*


So yeah, it was, amusing, least to say.. debra was overwhelmed by it all...

Chatting with Bertram and Debra now.. said he's sick.. hahs.. dunno over what.. but said he was reading through some corny pick-up lines...
and I gave them both a really crappy one...
"hey babe... aren't you a hot pig?"

hahahhahahas!!!! oh man.. that one will definitely earn you a HUGE slap on your face!!! hahahahs.. and you'd prolly go like "She loves me!!!".. well, the guys would do that anyway...


Anyway, off to shower.. then do up debra's blog.. and then i'm off to sleeeeeep.. hahahs..

Toodles! ;)

coz Terra's been a naughty cat..
Mood: tired again



This is getting bad.. I'm always tired and all...
anyway, I called the vet up, the secretary lady told me to come down just to make sure that Terra'll be alright..


So yeah.. anyway, checked my gmail.. it's like flooded by the chairpersons from my workgroup.. this is crazy.. asking me to go for youth forums, and what nots.. this is absolute madness.. hahs. they're thinking of championing Me, Liru, Michelle (ong) and Amelia (chia) as Youth Ambassadors.. it's madness, I'm telling you..


Brought my cat to the vet's just now at 12 noon.. she pee-ed in the cage.. again.
She's a sissy I'm telling you... anyway, she made this hole in her abdomen, the vet said it's okay, since she's healed already..


So yeah.. still wondering what I'll out to do with debra's blog layouts.. hahs.. still no inspiration... jialart...

Char's leaving for HongKong at 8.30 tonight.. have a fun time there, lil sis!

WhenEVER will the stupid timetable come out? This is annoying. I'm going out to cut my hair.. if mom ever allows me.. it's looking dreadfully like some lion's mane nowadays.. and I hate it.. so ewwwww... *sighs* bah..

I'm meeting debra later.. at about 6pm.. to keep her some company.. apparently there was some creepy customer yesterday and some guy problems at work.. so yeah, just going down just so she can run off faster.. hahs..

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OH!!!! there's another blood drive going on in school this coming January!! Can't wait for it.. This time I can donate without any permission from my parents man.. hahas.. January 10th to 13th... eh, weisheng!! go with me go donate, k? hahs...

Anyway, yeah...
bored bored bored bored!!! hahas...
waiting for time to pass by till I go shower and change and go down to bugis to get debra.. bah... This is sickening.. absolute BOREDOM.

frigging hell...


okay, don't mind me.. but i'm so frigging bored now...


haiz..
you know what.. i'll just go do char's and debra's blog layouts now... hahas.. busy busy busy.. but still feeling soooo freaking bored!!!

oh this is confusing indeed! >__<

PS's favourite song!
Mood: bored..



Hahas.. you know, sometimes, I hate my lifestyle so much...
Junwei from SIT was telling me that I could go over to SIT anytime I wanted.. and told me to think about going over to SIT since I found more joy in designing web pages than doing my science revisions..

I so totally agreed!

But I was thinking of School of Design's DMD... well, i'll think about it..


Anyway, terra, that naughty cat! she went to tear off the stitches! i can practically see the membrane just below that layer of fats
it's so gross....

Didn't go for duty today, coz I'm not feeling well.. think i'm coming down with something..

So bored.. okay, I think I'm going to do a blog layout for debra..so yeah...
toodles for now! ;)

not doing Thursday Threesomes coz it's mundane to do it.
Mood: tired out

thought i'd do the weekly shits before I go rest.. so yeah...

Friday's Feast:

Appetizer
Make up a word and give us its definition.
bunghole: ass hole. but i think everyone knew that one already..

Soup
What is currently your favorite song?
um... okay, Lindsay Lohan's "I decide"

Salad
What's at the top of your Christmas wish list this year?
Get me a digicam. the whole SLR-digicam set, with light lenses.

Main Course
Name a scent that reminds you of someone special in your life.
The smell of Dad's Marlboro Lights.. the one with the golden wrappings.. reminds me of dad... it's a unique scent only dad gives..

Dessert
Who is someone on television that you feel probably shouldn't be, and why?
hmmm... I don't know their names. I just flip the channel the moment I see their faces. I can't be bothered with so much as their names.



Unconscious Mutterings:

Plot :: of land
Farce :: eh?
Unexpected :: turn of fates
Siren :: eeeeeeee-oooorrrrrhhhhhhhh..... heh, right?
Ben :: Affleck
Freshman :: that's me.
Quicksand :: Quicksilver
24 hours :: the show
Spunky :: funky
Vicious :: cycles

you never know who's day you've brightened up.
Mood: tired



This is so crazy.. Every night, I cannot sleep till 3am or 3.30am....
and I wake up at 9.30am, only to sit at this laptop, thinking of what shit I oughta do today.

I had half the mind to kill junius today...
Always forgets to bring the presents for me.. that damn ass.... pffft...
I will keep 'forgetting' to buy that tigger in those shops that I walk into and catch sight of that stuff toy...
And unless he brings those presents, I'll never buy down the tigger toy and I'll constantly remind myself to 'forget' to buy it.

heh..

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Let's talk about... I don't know, there are so many thoughts running through my head now, but I can't seem to pluck them down and transform them into proper words..
Mr Raymond told Liru, amelia and I yesterday (we get 'enlightened' every saturday if he's there) about how to find THE proper spouse. It applies to both genders.

Anyway, let me tell you a lil bit about Mr Raymond.
Mr Raymond Hwang. He's the director and founder for the Heartware-Network, currently into that whole MAD thing. HE is Mr MAD. or Mr Making-a-difference. so whenever you go around Orchard Rd, and you see those people in bright orange shirts, think of Mr Raymond, and you'll think of me! hahas.. ;)
Raymond likes to give us 2 hours chats after every meeting on Saturdays..

yesterday's chat was interesting..
he was telling us how his sister, Yvonne Hwang, she was the $6-million smile face for some bank back in the 70's.. had SO many suitors (all rich men's sons who were scholars) whom she turned each and EVERY one of them down.

And how he had to choose between this rich man's daughter (her father owned a whole bank, and if he were to marry his daughter, he would be the vice-director today) and the girl who lived in a 1-room flat with 4 other siblings and her 2 parents and still loved to do charity work.

He gave up the rich man's daughter (even though he loved her alot) and married the girl who lived in a 1-room flat...

Why? for simple reasons that she was THE girl that he'd rather spend the rest of his life with, doing the things they both loved and had strong passion for doing, rather than to have a big mansion, with big cars, and lots of money... and probably, debts to pay off.

Right now, he doesn't have any debts to pay, he's a happy man, feeling like he's the luckiest guy on earth, with a loving wife and cute 13-month old son, and he owns his own company, and he told us a little tip on getting that happiness...

His tip was:
Never fall for guys who are too loud, they're just out to impress..
You know you'll love the guy/girl when you catch them doing something which you look for in them when they're doing it instinctively, not when they're fully aware of what they're doing.

Raymond told us that all guys love to impress, they'd do ANYTHING just to get a girl's attention. And he emphasised that we should never fall for that whenever we are looking for a potential spouse at any one time. "Keep that in mind, alright, ladies?" was what he told us while we walked to the lobby an hour of chatting later..

and that had me thinking this morning as I reviewed that part of the little enlightenment chat he gave us..


I love Raymond's life lessons like those. It teaches me so much more. And I truly begin to wonder at how naive I can get in the past, but now that I've been told about all that (not that that little part I just told all of you) and more...

I'm keeping all his words in mind, and I'm not gonna let any one fool me from now onwards..

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It's a real pity that I've got to stop here now..
But I don't think I'm feeling that good.. my head hurts like it's being squashed by the sides.. it's just annoying me to have that headache.. and not to forget feeling a little woozy too...


So, yeah, I'm off to get some rest...

okay, so...

Toodles for now! ;)