VISITING!!!
ohmifrickin'gawdfuliciously omg.
I literally sat at the SAME exact seat for over 6 hours straight...
possibly over 8 hours, before I surrenderred to the jelly ass of mine and towed along my two cousins to McD's at Queensway, which was just across the road.
heh.
noisy charles, screaming jordan, sleeping gordan..
kenneth playing nintendo and serene outta house somewhere shopping..
ahh... well..
me?
slacking again..
sorry felix, doode! couldn't celebrate your birthday with ya today...
but I hope you had a great time anyways..
my aunt in-law gave me a whole load of stuff today..
it started out coz she was bored, and she started rummaging around her cupboards looking for charles' room key coz he had to lock his room up..
jordan (the ever so hyper kid cousin) decided that running into the room was so fun, plus, charles' had surplus stock of toys and things..
anyway..
she took out 4 sets of ear rings, I took 3.. the last pair was just abso-bloody-lutely disgusting looking.. maybe I should've taken them and give them to debra or amanda... or serica.. hahas...
they'd know what to do with 'em...
then came the neck chain, the noisy bell-filled bracelet...
and then...
THAT Titus watch...
frigging gorgeous.. and it fit me just fine!! =D
apparently, my uncle took it from the hotel he worked from.. some tourist lady left it behind unknowingly.. boarded her plane. and end of story..
so what if it's second hand? (yea, pun intended)
I needed a new one.. and this watch looks absolutely brand new to me.
no scratches and functions like.. right. clockwork.
anyway, my aunt alice, being aunt alice..
and aunt in-law, being aunt in-law...
thought it'd be funny that they gave me something else...
aunt in-law's oversized bras...
omg.
hahhahaha!
i was horrified but tickled all the same..
but hell no was i gonna tarnish my reputation by following stefanie sun with my shirt in, bra out stunt....
hell no.
aunt in-law FINALLY brought out that GREAT osim leg massager!!!!
*grins*
15 minutes of non-stop massaging...
so relaxing!!!
Never had such a GREAT massage ever before!
well, only coz I'd been sitting so long, then went out to get dinner from McD's and got back to her place with my legs and feet swollen..
so yeah.. massage was a great relief to me..
anyway, we were supposed to go home, but aunt alice made us stay at her place for a while...
and we all ended up watching The Legendary Zhang SanFeng at her place instead..
omg, i've never been MORE addicted to anything else in my life...
There isn't a day where I didn't watch Zhang SanFeng and acted like nothing happened.
That show is SO addictive.
or maybe it's because I just simply LOVE the way the camera man uses his playful tricks on the film itself (eg: zooming in and out like no body's biz) or that I just LOVE all the characters that were being portrayed so comically..
or maybe... I just LOVE the actors and actresses.. they're so handsome and pretty..!
whahas...
in any case... tonight's episode was sad.. depressing and frustrating more like it..
Ming gu niang got killed by that bastard Zhang CuiShan... Ling gu niang felt bad about it, but that bastard still felt no remorse and ALL he wanted to do was to just kill Zhang JunBao (aka Zhang SanFeng)... and this JunBao, just kept denying it that Ming gu niang was dead.. coz he really liked her alot, just like how she liked him even more.. she vowed to die with him and all..
caused junbao so much grief that junbao went a tad bit crazy, but still able to think and ponder on his own way of wisdom...
anyway, shan't bother you with the other details, but you really should catch the show.. it's SO addictive..
I'm gonna miss Ming gu niang as a character.. she's so bubbly and lively..
it's really depressing that the author of the story made her die like that..
haiz...
alright alright...
i'm gonna get to bed now...
and listen to my hi-fi blasting some bossanova to me..
i'm SO pooped today...
Amanda babe... cheer up yeah? =)
how could chuuuuoooooo.....
"How could chuuuuooooooo.......!"
that's how my younger brother goes about saying "how could you?" to me..
same goes for me to him..
It went on and on and on for the entire day..
Anyway,
I SINGLE-HANDEDLY CLEANED OUT MY ROOM!!!!That is the surprise of my life, and my mom's for that matter..
"For
once, your room looks empty..."
*mega-watt grin*Oh right...
I probably won't forget it, but...
Here's wishing to all of you a Happy Lunar New Year! =)
and wishing to me that I'd get golden marks many many...
and not red F's too many..
In fact, I don't even want to see a F on my transcript..
I feel so utterly depressed over my equally depressing transcript..
haiz...
Oh yeah, continuing on my well-wishes...
I hope all of you can teoh toto and 4-d and sweepstakes and lotteries.. lucky draws, big cars and many many condominiums! (we all know that's not possible, but here's wishing to us all!)
And if you do pick up a nice prime-conditioned mobile, do give it to me. =D
jk-ing.
Steam boat tonight! yipees!!!
and ABALONE!!!!
btw, it's ALWAYS pronounced as Eh-ber-lone-ey...
not the usual eh-ber-lone. that's american..
we speak british english! =D
british english rawks!!!
Don't mind me saying this amanda (and gang)..
but british english is MUCH nicer sounding than american english..
coz i think.... well, in my opinion anyway, that american english sounds bimbotic...
(yeah, i can practically imagine gang acting like a bunch of bimbos now..)
raaarrrr!!!
i'd love to continue on this crap (aka "intelligent nonsense" according to shawn)...
but dinner is HERE!!!!
and i WANT MY EH-BER-LONE-EY!!!!
gong xi fa cai wor!!!!
ARGH!! !MY BACK!!!
more like my spinal muscles... urghs..
it's been aching for over a month already...
stupid old injuries...
anyway, i've been taking my own sweet time, clearing out my room..
hee hee...
2 cupboards are NEAT now.. empty and nicely cleaned out! =)
i still have 2 table tops, and 3 cupboards left to clear..
*sob..*
shall do the 1 table top and the 3 cupboards tmr..
school was okay today... didn't study much..
dr how decided that he stopped lessons halfway, thinking that it'd affect us..
then i saw the notes.. it'd everything in it..
so yeah, it didn't really matter much, I guess...
but he looked pissed all the same...
=S
oh well.
it was a lose-lose situation when you want to be the bad guy..
alright..
time to go..
toodles and cheerios!
great evening!!
whahaha... =)
gins smsed me this afternoon asking if i was free for the evening..
turns out, she wanted to have dinner with me..
*grins*So i asked her if she called the cat along..
she didn't..
so i called the cat (felix) to ask if he was free.. and yes! he was!
so yep! dinner with my two dearest buddies..
my two pillars of support through thick and thin...
haha..
and as usual, the two of them decided it'll be great to scrutinize my every move and behaviour... hahahah.. typically gillian tay..
argh!! I MISS GILLIAN TAY!!!!
felix not so much coz i see him every other week when i'm like b-o-r-e-d...
hahas..
anyway, dinner was some kway chap at kopitiam in compass point..
those two pillars of mine were splendid, picking me up direct at my door just now while i was busy napping with terra next to me.. sweet shucks..! hahas!
shall dump terra on the bed later before i sleep tonight.. i miss having that feline on my bed at night.. she's nice to cuddle up with at night.. =P
SO yeah, dinner was full of crinkled-eyed, killer smiles, rib-aching, big loud laughters, playful reminiscing ("the yar yar moments in time just stops there!") of our past..
and talking about our futures.. (Bintan, here we come!!) boy, felix i wanna learn how to
SURF those fuckin' waves dude. not windsurf, i wanna
SURF.
we went to BK to have a syrupy iced lemon tea which sucked like hell.. (yurgh!)
but lots of oohing and ahhing over gins' many many dogs, and those FOUR abso-bloody-lutely CUTE guinea pigs of hers... ARGH!!! just SOOOO bloody adorable little piggy doggy looking thingys...!
Alrighty..
here's today's installment of Dharma reflections:
Mindfulness should be the most natural thing in the world-without any unnecessary strain or effort. But for us, habitually unmindful beings, being mindful might be a daunting task. The more unmindful we become, the more habitual it becomes, and attaining mindfulness soon feels near impossible. How scary! Let's all guard our minds more carefully from now on.
I was walking to the subway station in the near noon sun. I remembered my promise to myself to be as mindful as I could the whole day. The sun felt hot. I caught myself screwing up my face, frowning in its glare. This, I realise, only when I realised I was having mild dizziness. The mindfulness came this "late." Suddenly, I wasn't sure whether it was the heat of the sun that made me dizzy or that it was me feeling contempt for the sun that made me dizzy. Funny. I think the latter that is true. The sun meant no harm. It was me to be blame ultimately. I should have experienced the heat mindfully without attachment-that's all-no need to grumble about it inside.(Jan 1st issue)
(here's a little something extra)
"Cease to do evil, learn to do good,
Purify the mind -
This is the teaching of the Buddhas.
Despising none, harming none,
Being restrained by the monastic rules,
Moderation in food, living in solitude
And devotion to meditation -
This is the teaching of the Buddhas.
Therefore, the meditation on love
Should be done for oneself and others.
All should be suffused with love -
This is the teaching of the Buddhas."- Selection taken from The Sacred Literature of Buddhism (jan 31st entry)
WHA-HA-HA-Ha.
anticlimax end of a laugh...
why?
i don't know, coz i just felt like it?
=P
I think I have CLOSE to $50 from fundraising!! yipees!
hahah.. my GREAT YCM friends were such a great bunch..
KJ gave $5, keng gave me $10!!! =)
and shawn gave me $5..
must get imad to give $10... whahahs... pity he didn't go monday night..
mwahahhahas...
anyway, yeah...
last night rachel was asking me for a picture of myself so that she can put it up on the website..
i didn't have any recent pictures, honestly...
but if i can, i'll get some over the weekend, and send to her..
whahs..
Okay, anyway.. I have many things to share with all of you but will do so in bite-sized portions (okay, maybe meal-sized)...
but perhaps to start us up, here is something nice to read. These are reflections taken from
The Daily Enlightenment in hopes to just save the world from wasted minds...
and obviously, to spread the words of wisdom found in Buddhism text. Trust me, you don't really have to patronise a temple to be a buddhist, everyone knows that if you have abit of morals, you're a buddhist within you. ;) hard to believe?
when you slowly learn about more about my study, you know you're buddhist some way, some how.
Today's reflections, we'll start with simple things:
"What is the point of life
if there is the point of death?
It is death that makes life not pointless.
It is death that makes us reflect,
that brings meaning.
It is the wake-up call -
not to kill yourself,
because you will only return in rebirth,
but to ask, "What do you want to do with your life?"
Death is the great mirror,
in which all of your life reflects in.
What do you see in it?"(aug 11th issue)
sit and think about it!
I have to try to....
I have to TRY to wake up at 4 in the mornings...
I will wake up at 4am from now on..
I will wake up at 4am from now on..
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argh. i MUST not procastinate. EVER, again.
meeting tonight was zonking me out half way through. But I should've paid more attention to the project applications and asked the PROPER questions rather than thinking that "oh, andrew/alex/samuel can handle those issues lah.." coz they WONT be there especially when 2 are sick and 1 has to run around for school...
I will try my best never to procastinate again..
on the happier note, i've successfully collected close to $50 for the nan trip.. =)
now waiting for that $10 to close off the deal of $60 from andrew.. whaha...
and then yamei will be obliged to make sure i get my notes right... (actually, she's been doing that already..)
anyway, sleep time.. or i'm just waiting my time away...
byeeeeeee....
essentially, i'm only blogging just to kill time.. just wanted to listen to some songs on the comp.. =P
Note: SHERWIN!!!!!!! remember to pass the form to deb ASAP alright? remember, dateline is 31 JAN 2006... gah! i'll just send you sms tmr morning to remind you..
take a march through town!!
i like walking through town...
but lately, town's just plain B-O-RE-ing for me.. so i've taken to slacking at home when i've got free time that i don't want to use for studying...
and such days are sundays..
yes amanda and joey.. i've taken to "trying" instead of "MUST" and "HAVE TO"...
and i've TRIED your method, joey..
i think it's just that it was a saturday, plus i was dead beat that day..
so classical music would be the FIRST thing to put me to sleep..
=S
anyway, met up with felix after open house...
was sleepy and all so just showered and threw on some clothes (to which my dad disapproved of.. "why are your shorts SO short? and your shirt!?!?")
whahaha.. i just looked at him, grabbed my money, my laptop and just nice, felix called.. so off i went..
doode was waiting downstairs for me.. HE CUT HIS HAIR!!! =)
anyway, went over opposite for a quick dinner, chatted about school, freeloading classmates, decisions for the future, whether we wanted to stay in singapore or leave for good..
then we found a spot at my void deck.. and he loaded the songs over to the laptop...
apparently his friends call lindsay lohan songs too sissy for him..
hahas... we had such a laugh over that..
ahhh.. it was GREAT having my good pal to talk to at such a time like this...
i love my pals.. they're the best pillars i can ever find for a lean-on... especially felix.. he's one fella who's always there whenever i'm looking out for someone to talk to.. on just about EVERYTHING i can find on this rotting and growing earth to talk about.. =)
true friends, simply really are for-ever.
anyway, today...
slacked.. and got 'fired' 25 times in Protein tech Virtual lab..
so i'm gonna try my hand at it again tmr night when i get home from meeting.
chatted some with felix again...
and then got hooked on to "Pure Shores" by All Saints and "Edge of 17" by Stevie Nicks. she sooo digs the rock and roll man... ;)
oh then chatted some with dear old mexican friend, luigi! that guy has GIRLY HAIR now.. gross! hahas.... but he smiles and laughs a lot more nowadays.. that's good! and he looks skinnier too. :)
and chatted some with Sherwin!
he told me about some stuff that he's upset about.. don't worry dude, i'm sure it'll be alright soon.. cheer up and hang in there... betrayers will meet their retribution soon enough. it's part of karma.. believe in yourself more, you don't have to rely on such a person to survive the happiest or saddest days..
and then we talked about how boring sundays could be.. then he started asking me how to raise zebrafishes, coz he wanted to raise some.. so i spent a solid hour explaining the stuff to him.. i don't think he got what i told him.. but it's alright.. i'd prolly have to meet up with him and help him get some fishes and set the system up for him.
Apparently, he wants to make the fishes to mate like rabbits.. that sick ass.. haha!
let's see.. yeah...
i think i shall go sleep and wake up at 4.30 later...
do some work, read some notes... practice some more on my presentation for later..
okay, i'm outta here..
toodles and cheerios! ;)
mulled over
got so mulled over today...
out of 5 tests, I failed 4... no wonder all them teachers want me to work 2000x harder than usual.
And I will.
I
must; in any case.
I feel so fucking depressed about constant bad grades...
i've never been this way before I went to poly..
For once, I think I might've made a terribly wrong mistake.
Next time, I'll listen to dad more.
I've never ever felt this stupid in my life.
it just makes me sit here in front of my computer, feeling utterly defeated, and sorry for my stupid self.
I should just quit school now, instead of wasting more time at this.
Raaaaarrrrrrr!!!!!
EIGHT A.M IN THE MORNING FOR BIOPROCESS PRESENTATION IS JUST NUUUUUUTTTTSSSSS!!!!!!!
Then I thought 'well, hey.. looks like i'm gonna be so so tired after open house...'
NO LOR!!!!
not even tired at all!
on the contary, i was ratehr energised... maybe coz i was gonna meet up with my group mates, taht's why...
my 3 guys: 1, 2, and 3..
as what andrew said lah...
hahaha
1 really is just ridzwan's nickname... i don't know where 2 and 3 came from..
but usually it's alan and andrew who turn up as well.
i'm the only girl in the group.
sam and alex hardly ever come for meet-the-applicants.. coz they're too busy...
anyway, andrew's sick.. so he didn't turn up as supposed to, but no worries dude, we've got it covered.. i think... whahahs...
so yah..... the applicants today were all females...
save for the NUS law students... who are andrew's friend too i think...
as well as alan's...
yah...
anyway, yay!!!
alan donated $5 for the nan trip.. (i'm not going tho)
and 1 said he'd give $5..
and andrew promised me $10 which i will get from him when we meet up some other day..
then yah lah..
monday gonna ssk the rest to donate..
ling said she'd donate...
i hope kj goes, and he can donate too! yaay!!
hahas..
anyway, i'm really damn tired...
gonna go sleep now before i get sick too...whahahas..
byeeee....
gross.
Things looks SOOOOO bloody mushy, I feel like I'd hurl every 3 seconds of being in their prescence.
If you know who I mean, you know who I mean...
If you don't... don't bother finding out either...
It just keeps giving me the creeps to watch them so utterly romantically mushy...
not naming names. nuh-uh.
it's. just. gross.
stop it.
you're giving me sore eyes everyday man.. literally.
I lose my appetite every afternoon... maybe they ought to continue..
I'd be hungry enough to lose a couple of kilos..
Whah-hahaha. -_-|| butcher.
In what term, does "butcher" mean to Bertram?
"I hate butches. Give me a butch -provided she is in front of me, and I have a knife in my hand- I will kill the butch. If not, I won't kill the butch."
Then obviously, angeline has to think of Bertram as a Butcher. Bertram, le boucher. =)
The Butcher. He kills butches, not pigs, nor cows.
I know, discrimatory, but well, it was just spur-of-the-moment joke..
anyway, today walked like sooooooo much. This the first time i've walked SO much in like AGES.
My legs are like aching like mad now... butcher is like busy keeping track on what's going on on ESPN..
okay, so imma gonna go sleeeeeeeeep...
tmr got bioprocess... ughs.
rp new campus!!
k, so imma gonna check out the new campus with debra later...!!!
at like 10 i'm meeting her, which is soon...
hahahs...
heh heh...
great vibes...
I just loved today's meeting with the exco..
granted, only 2 didn't turn up... evelyn told me she WAS at mcD's, just that she couldn't find us.. she's still there at the moment...
jones... didn't even come... as usual...
So anyway, i think i WILL give that fella just ONE last chance, and if he doesn't turn up for this, i'll have to kick him out.. i won't keep a member if s/he doesn't give me what i want from them.
alrighty...! gins's coming over!!!
but i'm not sure what time... so yeah... getting ready soon!
yay!
the common tests are over!!!!
haha... i'm watching golf on tv... the most boring show on tv, really...
best way to kill time and sleep.
ughs...
so tired... even though i slept my afternoon away..
ah well....
prolly if gins isn't gonna come down to my place for xbox marathon (meaning 5 hours of gaming non-stop)... i'll go down to RP to visit amanda...
O! frigging cooooold!!!
i bet you lionel would love the current weather, 'manda..
not the coldest of cold, but it's not hot either. =)
anyway, the nights get colder and colder..
perhaps my wish to see some actual snow in singapore would actually be fulfilled!
then we're gonna have another ice age where every thing just turns into ice eh?
and only the deserts won't freeze over.
so yeah, it gets so cold that there's condensation happening on my balcony window panes, mist in the air about 500m away from the building, and everything looks foggy.
cold?
fucking definitely.
ARGH! damned weather
i love the cold, yes, really. yes, i do love the cold.
but when your floor's made of italian marble, and your furniture of worn wood that's over 20 years old...
no, you don't really appreciate the cold weather.
so here i am, freezing my butt off, fingers and toes too.. in this cold cold weather.
brrr...
and mole. genes is up in about 4 hours and i'm not even done with week 5's work.
screwed? definitely.
ewwie...
i hate it when it rains with so much humidity...
all my furniture gets moldy and there's fungus growing all over them.
In other words, it either survives extremely well under hot, and humid conditions..
but not cold, wet and humid conditions.
yuck.
the wood feels disgustingly wet.
gross.
ah yes... the weekend...
it's the weekend again!
slept in the afternoon... when i woke up, for a moment there, I was so disoriented and non-plussed.
'why the hell is it so dark? what time is it? why are the bloody lights not on? 19:25? i think my phone's outta it. wait..'and then i found myself in an abso-bloodly-lutely empty flat. jeez.
At that VERY single moment in time, I felt like I was in some horror movie, waking up to find myself in a dark, miserably cold urban home, with no sign of life beside my cat (who was warm and happily snuggled at the foot of my bed) and me.
'what the hell... it really IS 19:25... sheesh.. where's mom? and that lil' bro of mine? and dad?? crap.'anyway, i'm still sleepy for some reason..
gonna try and get some studying done with immunology.. i WILL get the first 4 weeks of lectures done by tonight.. and continue with the rest tomorrow morning.. rather, later in the morning..
hmm... that's if i don't fall back to sleep again..
that new bolster mom bought for me is just SO incredible.. it makes me sleep almost immediately and doesn't allow me to wake up at all in the mornings. =)
that's a really lovely bolster there, isn't it?
anyway, time to get off..
cheers!
NOT my day today
you know what?
i've decided to take off that bitch entry of mine.
this day has not been a good day for me, that's for sure...
O frigging wisdom teeth
O! the frigging wisdom teeth in my jaws...
crawling and surfacing out from the depths of my gum...
in horribly WRONG directions.
O how I simply can't endure this pain!
O screw this shit.
fucking wisdom teeth. I HATE THOSE DAMN THINGS!!!
P.S.: Doode Joey, sorry but i gotta head to bed... class starts 8am later.. and i'm exhausted by today's 4 hours of lectures..
oh geeez...
so, according to my younger brother...
i now currently have "Freaky looking finger nails that seem too unreal and too short"
heh.
oh crap.. i forgot to send my social secretary the pictures...
ugh.. let alone upload it.. haha...
okay, time to do some kickassed multi-tasking..
i haven't even studied for bioinfo, nor have i finished at least 2 reports...
craaaap.
YES!!!! WOOHOO!!!
One thing to look forward to in Jan'06:
ECP with ma two kakis!!! with gins and felix!!
awwwwwright!!!
i just simply can't wait for that day..
note to self: 19-21 off limits for gins
YES!!!
WOOOOHOOOOO!!!!
HELL-OH!
oh hello 2006,
you suck ass crap...
and we don't love you.
welcome to my life ;) once again!
angeline
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